Disclaimer: The song and title belongs to Caitlin & Will, I own nothing.

I stumbled across your old picture today, I could barely breath.

The moment stopped me cold, grabbed me like a thief.

I was busying myself with cleaning up around the apartment on my day off. I knew it was pretty useless seeing as I'm never home to begin with but I decided to do it anyway. That's where I found the picture of you. It was the last time we actually had professional pictures done and I remember having to borrow your clothes because I didn't have anything dressy to wear. I felt the tears beginning to prick my eyes and I could only sit in the middle of the living room and hold the framed picture in my hands.

I dialed your number but you wouldn't be there,

I knew the whole time but it's still not fair, I just wanted to hear your voice,

I just needed to hear your voice.

After sitting on the floor for a while I pulled out my cell phone and scrolled through my contacts until I came across your number. I pushed call before I realized what I was doing. I waited for a few seconds then it hit me. You were gone and I would never hear your voice again. The tears fell freely now, and I didn't think that it would ever stop. I hate the fact that it's been like this for months, but what could I do? I knew this was something that most likely would never change.

What do I do with all I need to say, so much I wanna tell you everyday.

Oh it breaks my heart, I cry these tears in the dark.

I write these letters to you but they get lost in the blue,

'Cause there's no address in the stars.

I knew it would take time to be able to see the things that reminded me of you without completely falling apart, but honestly, everything reminded me of you anymore. I don't know how I've made it this past year and a half without you. Sometimes I think that the only time I can really be at peace with everything is when I take a drive. Most people would call it foolish to drive around when you're so upset, but me…well I'm not most people, and driving really helps to calm the nerves.

Now I'm driving through the pitch black dark,

I'm screaming at the sky, oh 'cause it hurts so bad

Everybody tells me, oh all I need is time,

Then the mornin' rolls in and it hits me again

And that ain't nothin' but a lie.

Have you ever gotten so fed up with hearing something that all you wanted to do was break somebody's face if they said it again? Well that's how I felt about hearing "all you need is time" I get it, time heals all wounds or whatever, but I think that time is a mean bastard. It's been 18 months now and it still seems as if it was only yesterday that I had to tell you goodbye. Yeah, time can kiss my ass.

What do I do with all I need to say, so much I wanna tell you everyday.

Oh it breaks my heart, I cry these tears in the dark.

I write these letters to you but they get lost in the blue,

'Cause there's no address in the stars.

There's days when I really don't know what to do anymore. Work keeps me busy most days, but then there's days like today when I'm home alone and I find the things that remind me of you.

Without you here with me, I don't know what to do.

I'd give anything, just to talk to you.

I always said that if anything ever happened to you, I wouldn't be able to make it without you. You made me promise that no matter what happened, I would move on, keep on living. I'm only doing this because you asked me to, and as much as it hurts me, I'm slowly picking up the pieces.

Oh it breaks my heart, Oh it breaks my heart.

All I can do is write these letters to you

But there's no address in the stars.

XXXXX

Author's Note: Hey ya'll. I swear I'm a oneshot machine lately. I can not tell you guys how much I missed writing these past few months. Anyway, here's a songfic for you guys, I know it's kinda depressing but it ties into what is going on in my life right now. I kinda pictured Cody Rhodes and Ted DiBiase in this, but since I didn't use names, it can be whatever pairing you guys want :) read and enjoy.

~Aracnae~

P.S.- I'm gonna try to write something happy after this, please bear with me.