Happy New Year, everyone!
I know I've been pretty inactive this year, so I've got a resolution to write more. And stick to fandoms a little more! I jump around so much...
So. This one is dedicated to my buddy RobinRocks who is totally to blame for my love of Code Geass (and writes good DN fics that make me happy). It's Lelouch-centric. It's also minorly Suzaku x Lelouch. But only what's canon. Hah!
Oh and...SPOILERS!
Grievance Process
vi. denial
And Summer began in gold, cerulean, amber and jet.
So many things had changed and so quickly, Lelouch was glad for some stability at last, no matter what form it took. His sister would be better cared-for at Ashford Academy (not that they weren't managing fine before. Lelouch wasn't a child anymore; he couldn't be a child anymore).
They had more friends now. They cared for him and for Nunnally, so he cared for them. Honestly, he could have managed with just Suzaku, but it was important to have stability that would last. With this, at least, they wouldn't fall any further.
He would never let anything happen to Nunnally or his new friends.
A new beginning.
v. anger
It was a betrayal, first and foremost. His oldest, closest, best friend was no Britannian soldier. He was Lelouch's solider. Nunnally's knight, sired years ago.
His loyalty was to no one else. His viridian-green eyes should see none but violet. His words for none but him.
How dare he leave?
How-howdare he?
iv. bargaining
Euphemia's death is not a mistake. He says it's in the past because it is.He meant for her to die. She had to. She had to.
The command had been the mistake and he regretted it and he had done his grieving. But her death was necessary. He can lie to others, but not to himself. If he does that, he'll lose sight of his goal.
He just wishes Suzaku would understand and reconcile the truth with himself.
Lelouch sees reality in all its black-scarlet glory and Suzaku sees the blurry emerald-hued world of his own ideals. Lelouch hates it. It doesn't belong.
If Euphemia's death was no mistake, then neither is this, nor the past. And in the past, Suzaku helped. He has to help again.
Even if the remnants of his beloved enemy's illusions must be destroyed.Shards of a broken mirror, reflecting both, cursing both, ground to dust. Ashes to ashes.
For the greater good. For Nunnally. For Suzaku. But mostly for him because...
iii. depression
...because sometimes, very rarely, he wonders if he's doing the right thing and if he doesn't manage it soon, things may get out of hand and he never considered Shirley's family or anyone else's family for that matter and...
He grips Nunnally's pale hand. She smiles forward. At him, to him, for him.
He wishes she'd open her eyes.
ii. acceptance
Kallen's shaking in the background still and he doesn't care. It's a red blur.
It's not a black and white scenario. It isn't even grey. It's his black gun and Kallen's red screaming and Suzaku's sharp olive gaze. The only brightness left.
His beloved enemy. Perhaps neither of them have the right to exist, fair enough. But there's still Nunnally and it's still a betrayal. A cold hard fact is what separates them, not two pieces of cold black gunmetal and a space small but impassable.
Lelouch is not pitch, but he's certainly black. And Suzaku is crimson. Lelouch can't contain the acid-laugh that erupts from the back of his throat. Suzaku will never be duller than that.
i. death
And Summer ends in black, purple, green and crimson.
Before anything else, I must emphasise that I know the difference between 'grievance' and 'grieving'. Just so we're clear :)
So...my first attempt at Code Geass. I was a little scared of it and I still haven't braved dialogue but if I write anything else for Geass, I'll not be able to avoid it!
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