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Emotions of the Heart
by kaikai pants formerly kawaii eyez
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Feel free to skip the author's note. A/N- my first fanfiction to grace this site // this chapter has been modified slightly mainly the actually writing, rather than the story on the may 19 2007, from when it was first released. This is because the author's writing skills has developed and the original chapter does not meet the requirements, as the later chapters are greatly better than the first. The author's notes at the end of the chapter has not been edited.
Hope you enjoy it.
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& theres no such thing as a b e a u t ii f u l goodbye
Chapter 1. Infatuation
The sky darkened dauntingly; the cogent clouds were an angry grey; the ground felt moistly repulsive and the once bright tulips had wilted in somber. The atmosphere around him had matched his equally terrible mood as if the gods sympathised him…
That day was a dreadful part of his life that kept repeating over and over again in his mind like an endless play. And that particular life-churning chapter of the 'play' was set in a park that had once been filled with butterflies merrily fluttering, emerald green grass swaying with the wind, little children laughing jubilantly.
Oh, it was once a joyous location. However now it was dark, cold and gloomy filled with dolorous rain. Damn the rain that drained the happiness out of this once beautiful park leaving it all empty and lonely.
The blonde stood silently holding the beautiful brunette within his arms shielding her from the cascading rain. His blonde, spiky hair had now drooped down covering his face giving him a dangerous look. Water droplets pounded down hitting hard against the ground creating a mystical fog around the two, as if it the couple was the only people around.
Such a hazy delusion it was, as the premonitory weather sent a shiver down his spine.
He pretended to listen to the young brunette as he saw her lips move breathing out arduous words he didn't want to hear. He just stared at her with those blue eyes. He saw the girl of his dreams, her long brown hair tied in plaits; fair skin and he even noticed how her black mascara had smudged due to the translucent liquid.
"Cloud, are you even listening to me?" the young brunette asked slightly annoyed, furrowing her brows. He immediately snapped out of the trance at the call of his name from her lips and nodded in reply. "Cloud, I'm so sorry, it's over…I love Zack…now please Cloud. Let go of me…" the young brunette pleaded, her emerald eyes watching the pain etched on his face. He felt like the young brunette ripped out his heart and smashed it into little piece, as he helplessly let her out from his arms, gazing as she walked away.
Walked away from the park, walked away from the comforting shelter of his arms…walked away from him.
He wanted to stop her, to wrap her in his arms, but he couldn't say a word. In fact, he didn't even say a word to Aerith at all as he didn't know what to say. He watched her disappear and fade into the fog like an angel leaving him all alone in the pitiful dark. Cloud kept staring at the spot where she had last been, wishing she would reappear but he knew better.
She would never come back to him…
"Goodbye Aerith…"
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That was what happened two days ago and it was replaying in Cloud's mind over and over again, his callous exterior slowly deteriorating with each minute ticking by. The blonde sat on the seat outside the mall, undercover from the rain with his two male friends. Riku, the silver haired womaniser and Sora, an adorable brunette boy. Cloud stared emptily at the cars whizzing by, the water floating down against the slightly dead looking grass looking slightly dead. The blonde frowned, it made his memories of Aerith rekindle in his mind, the agonising scene killing him internally.
How he despised the rain as he felt like the rain was washing away all the colour around him, leaving him in shades of monochrome. Damn the rain, damn everything! Abruptly, he smashed the coke can angrily with his fist.
"Woah Cloud! Calm down! Just get over Aerith," Riku suggested; he hated seeing Cloud like this. The silver haired teen looked even longer at Cloud, his aquamarine eyes searched his friend's face. His strong fingers ran through his choppy silver hair as a sigh emitted from his erogenous mouth…'he looks so weak.' His eyes then drifted to Riku's spiky-brown hair best friend that sat next to him.
"Yeah, Riku's right. At least you know Aerith will be happy with Zack," Sora agreed with a comforting smile.
The blonde felt slightly agitated as he heard the name Zack. Zack had been his best friend; he couldn't believe that Zack would betray him like that and go after his girlfriend of 5 years. How dare that bastard Zack ruin their eternal (my ass) love! Cloud and Aerith knew each other since junior high and have been going out ever since. They seemed like the perfect couple.
Then again, Zack had known Aerith since he was 5 and knew Aerith far longer than he did but that was beside the point. What wonderful friend did that to their best friend? But could he really be angry at Zack for making Aerith happy? No, the person he was angry with was really himself.
He was really annoyed that he didn't really treat Aerith right because he thought that their relationship would last forever since they had been going out for so long. Cloud became aware that he and Aerith never really well, talked. Aerith talked but he really didn't do any at all. She must have been really bored with him! Additionally, he recalled when Aerith talked, Cloud didn't really pay attention to what she was saying, but was only satisfied with her presence underneath his arm. Hah!
Aerith's words were like sweet music that he would listen to but never really pay attention to. He'd always nod when ever she had said something and occasionally he would say 'yes' and 'whatever'. He had never said anything to her that was longer than three words. In fact the longest sentence he said to her was 'I love you'. Whenever he'd say that she would blush a bright red, then get all happy and be all over him. But did he really mean that he loved her?
Previously he always thought he did, but when he thought about it he didn't. He only said those three words to make her happy. In fact, those three words were probably why Aerith and him stayed together so long. But why on earth did she like him? Well, it was probably because Cloud was handsome. Lots of girls at his school were drooling over his entrancing bluey-green eyes, his gravity-defying blonde spikes, his strong and tall build and even his cold but cool personality.
The question now was, did he love Aerith? He thought about this for a while. Yes he did love Aerith…perhaps more of a sister. Oh, if only he had realized this sooner! It would sure save him from pulling a lot of his envied hair!
"Cloud! EARTH to Cloud! Are you alive?" Riku joked waving his hand in front of Cloud like a crazy man, which cause Cloud to react with a friendly punch to Riku's shoulder.
"Now, that's the cold ass Cloud I know," The silver haired egomaniac laughed lightheartedly, secretly hoping Cloud wouldn't hit him again. Those punches really hurt.
"Man, break ups are harsh," Sora resonated, his head leaning on his hands languidly.
"Tell me about it, break ups are also pain in the ass rep-killers," agreed Riku. "It's much better to be single and let all the ladies flock to you."
Just then a bunch of giggling girls walked past oogling the three attractive guys. Riku liked- no more like LOVED the attention and smirked sending those girls screaming like crazy and jumping for joy like rabid fangirls. Riku, Sora and Cloud were the typical hot popular hot boys, who could deny? They had the power to send girls squealing.
"As you can see Cloud, there are plenty of fish in the sea," Riku nodded, eyeing a girl in a mini skirt before he returned his gaze to his two friends. Cloud nodded, not really paying attention. He seemed to nod a lot aye. "My advice is…hook up with a girl to get over Aerith." Little did Riku know that Cloud was already tired of moping over Aerith and was already over her. The blonde adolescent thought that it was best not to argue with Riku and just nod- because that was what he seemed to do best.
"So Riku, who should be Cloud's next girlfriend?" Sora asked with fervour.
"Hmm…How 'bout Tifa Lockheart?" Riku winked, referring to the busty brunette teen from their school.
"Her? All she has is big- no HUGE jugs," Sora shook his head as if he was a judge on a reality TV show contest.
"So? She's popular and single…well I think she's single," Riku mused, before shrugging it off. "Ok, you think of someone then."
"Namine?"
"NO!"
"Why not? She's popular right?"
"Because Nami is mine!"
"Since when?"
"Since now!"
"I thought you said you were single…"
"…I said no. Next girl." Riku chided immaturely, causing Sora to roll his sapphire orbs yet his smile remained in tact.
"Fine! What aboooout… Yuna?"
"Yuna is Tidus' girlfriend of like 10 years or something like that! They've been going out for ages! Those two are like the longest couple EVER. Where have you been? Mars or something?" Riku smacked Sora lightly on the back of his brown spiked hair.
"Mmkay… what about Kairi. She's pretty," said Sora.
"Kairi? Who's Kairi?"
"The girl in our three of our classes Ri-ku!" The brunette stammered.
"Oh yeah…that red haired nerd?"
"S-s-she's not a nerd. But yes, she does have red hair."
"Hmm…N-O! Besides, she is not popular, I mean if I shot her right now, I'm pretty sure most of the school wouldn't even notice." Sora frowned slightly at Riku's comment but it was probably true. That was how vain their high school of Hollow Bastion High was. "Anyway, if Cloud went out with her it would be social suicide! How could you not think about Cloud's status." Riku shook his head in a dramatic manner.
"Okay, Mr reject-all-my-ideas. I've got nothing," the brunette drooped down, abnegating at last.
"Fine then. Cloud can be all alone thanks to you," Riku stuck his tongue out.
"Or he could hook up with Sephiroth," Sora joked, as he and Riku burst out laughing. Cloud's response? Hell- he was annoyed. Sephiroth was the school principal and Cloud and Sephiroth hadn't got along at all. Somewhat like mortal enemies (sound familiar?) If you locked Sephiroth and Cloud with a knife, they would kill each other into mincemeat.
"WHAT?! I'm not gay!" Cloud snapped angrily, blowing a piece of gold strand away from his face.
"Wow! Cloud said more than 3 words! A new record of 4 words have been set!" Sora continued laughing.
"You must reaaaally like Sephiroth," Riku cooed, nearly falling off his chair from hilarity.
"Sephiroth…grr…he's-" Cloud stopped as his attention was diverted to the sound of a CRASH.
A clumsy girl had slipped on a puddle and fell down flat on her face. The raven-haired female picked herself and looked around to see everyone was looking at her and blushed profusely. Hastily, she faced the three guys that were staring at her and flushed even more. Sweeping her wet bangs away from her face, Cloud was completely captivated by the beautiful face revealed. It was as he had been struck by cupid's invisible arrow.
Her black tresses cropped in a short style with layers flattering her face. She wore a petite dark red hair band that had a ribbon on the top to the side giving her a cute look accompanied by the tight black tank top over her white polo shirt showing off her petite yet proportioned body that had curves at just the right places. Her smooth delicate face was adorned with an ensorcelled pair of stormy jeweled eyes. There was just something about her that Cloud couldn't take his eyes off.
Realizing everyone was watching her, she quickly ran to a nearby shop as Cloud was suddenly struck back into reality- and damn did reality suck.
"…beautiful," Cloud dreamily murmured to himself.
"What? A-a-re my ears deceiving me? Cloud, did you just say Sephiroth was beautiful?!!!" Sora asked in between shock drenched laughs.
"No you dumbshit! He was talking about the girl that fell down! " Riku corrected with annoyance.
"A girl fell down?"
"Yes you dumbshit! That's what everyone was looking at!"
"Oh…what were we talking about again?"
"Cloud getting a new girlfriend."
"So Cloud, you heard who we think should be it, what do you think?" Sora asked, whipping his head around to find an empty seat where Cloud was sitting, sending the remaining two boys spinning their heads around in search for their missing blonde friend.
"Cloud? CLOUD? CLOUD…? Where'd he go?"
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Yuffie POV
How embarrassing! Falling down in front of not one person…not two people…but everybody! It's my first day here at Hollow Bastion and I already made a complete fool of myself. Fcuking puddle, why'd it have to fcuking rain? There should be a fcuking sign that says 'watch out! Puddle ahead!' But nooo, there was no warning sign, because I am so loved in this world.
Having living with my Uncle Cid for so long, I had received his (unfortunate) swearing habits- that explained my previous rage of profanities. I had always wondered why such an aggressive person like Cid would end up marrying such a sweet nice woman like Aunt Shera. But who knows? Opposites attract or something.
I sighed, as I looked at the 1 meter long shopping list of what to buy. Cid and Shera couldn't be bothered to get off their lazy asses out of the car so they sent me out to go buy their shit for them. So, here I was now carrying a lot of items to buy in my hands, both my hands being full.
How perfect, it was already hard holding all these items and now I must search for f#king healthy bars. I don't even like that shit. I personally prefer a big tub of vanilla ice-cream with chocolate and hazelnut on tops…mmmm…. Just thinking about it, sends a tingly sensation in my mouth.
Ok, Yuffie! Snap back to reality! F-o-c-u-s! Where is that stupid healthy bar crap? The sooner I do this, the sooner I can skidaddle my ass out of here. Wait- did I just say skiddaddle? Who says that these days? I scanned around the whole aisle and found it. Oh joy!
I leaned over and picked up the box of healthy bars and added it to the bunch of items I was already holding. Then, suddenly a stupid lady bumped into me and the new vase I was holding jumped out of my hands.
NOOOOOOOOO!!! That very expensive vase for my new home was sooooo not going to break. I wouldn't let it! I was determined to not let it break!!! Quickly I jumped backwards still holding the bunch of items in my arms and extended my arm towards the vase, hanging my fingers as far as it could. Just a little bit further…
Skimming the vase, I lost balance (dude! I'm holding a billion items and I'm jumping backwards…its difficult ok!) and fell backwards due to the momentum. Oh shit! I'm going to fall down (again). I wonder which god I pissed off to deserve such a cruel fate.
I closed my eyes, waiting for the sound of breaking glass and my painful thought of my ass pummeling against the floor. Waiting for few seconds more, I soon became cognizant that the vase hadn't shattered and that I didn't fall to the ground. Hoo-rah. What miracle had just occurred hmm?
I opened my eyes to see two hypnotizing sapphire eyes looking into mine, besotting me in an instance. Like a majestic swirl of ocean of blue, dappled with a dreamy haze of green.
Infatuated, I was. Sheer and pure infatuation.
"Are you okay?" the blonde asked breaking the trance I was under, catching me like a prince does to his princess. I looked around; he was…talking to-to ME?! I then realized that I had landed gracefully into the man's arm with his other arm holding the vase that I had dropped easily. "Um…are you alright?' the blonde asked again politely. I blushed feeling stupid and nodded. I wanted to stay in his warmth forever in his arms but I stood up feeling embarrassed. I looked at his face…omg! He was hot hot hot hot hot hot!!! Drool…
He had beautiful eyes, handsome features, and his hair…those soft wispy blonde spikes! I just kept gazing at him like some spell bounded idiot!
"Um…here's your vase," he said awkwardly. OMG! I realized that I kept looking at him like an idiot! Oh, he must think I'm so stupid. Say something Yuffie Say something!!!
"…Th…" I stuttered. SAY SOMETHING GOD DAMNIT! Since when is the GREAT YUFFIE so SHY? "Thanks" I managed to say with a small smile on my face as he handed me my vase. I blushed again. I felt like such a loser. Usually I'm outgoing, sociable, hyper active, the center of attention, the one with the spotlight…what the hell is wrong with me? Why am I so nervous…he's just a guy…a very hot guy…but Still!
"You might want to get a trolley to put all your stuff in," he suggested. I was still arguing with myself in my head…I must be crazy. I have to get away before I make a bigger fool of myself than I am already. Quick Yuffie! Say something!
"Thanks…I'll go do that," I said and quickly turned around so that I would finally stop staring at his oh so wonderful face. I was blushing like crazy! Quick Yuffie! GOGOGOGO Leave NOW! I was walking away pretty quickly. But he was so hot!! Just one peek at him…
I stopped and turned my head to peek at him to find him still looking at me. My reflexes kicked in and I immediately turned back away from him. My face was feeling very hot right now. My heart was racing like crazy. It was beating so fast that it might break my ribcage. Oh god Yuffie, you are acting like a high school girl…wait, I AM a high school girl.
Just act naturally (sounds similar enough- note the word- 'sounds'). Deep breath. Inhale & exhale. I took a deep breath and turned around with my hair flicking whimsically in the air (like in Charlie's Angels) to look at him.
He smiled at me…it was a oh-so-gorgeous smile that melted my knees. I wanted to run around and scream out how happy I was. But being the Great Yuffie Kisaragi I was, I just smiled back and then continued walking ahead of me. Yes! That was cool. That looked really cool! Nyuk Nyuk Nyuk! I grinned like a Cheshire cat and BAM! I ran into the pole in front of me and heard a feint chuckle behind me…real smooth…
Yuffie real smooth.
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To be continued in the next chapter.
A/N-
Ok, I was thinking of whether to put Aerith or Tifa as the one who dumped Cloud but I made it Aerith cos I like her better than Tifa :P. Squall will come in later in the chapters but only if you review I might make more chapters.
Please give me your suggestions & reviews. 3