Disclaimer- I do not own greys anatomy shonda does if i did there would be mcdreamy moments all the time...(...mcdreamy...)

A story untold…

I've added things in the past about stuff from new york and boston for both Meredith and Derek so here's a basic catch up

MEREDITH

Back in new York she had an abusive boyfriend who used her and cheated on her from day one so when she got offered an internship at both Massachusetts General Hospital in Boston and Seattle grace she accepted her internship at Seattle grace to escape him were she will meet Derek shepherd in a bar…

DEREK

Back in new York he was happy Addison never got caught cheating with mark but she did cheat and all of them moved to Seattle for a change… also though Derek happens to be friends with Meredith's abusive boyfriend… and Derek and Addison are having problems

So that's the history sorted now to the story

Meredith…

I was now onto my sixth shot of tequila and only feeling a buzz, I had a good hold when it came to alcohol. You wouldn't think it to look at me I was small and skinny with yellow bruises not that the bruises were noticeable they were always hidden, Ryan was smart that way and although sometimes I hoped he wasn't maybe someone who cared about me could help me but I didn't have any friends in boston they were all ryans my friends stoped being friends with me when I started going out with ryan they didn't like him and I couldn't blame them. I didn't like him. I even tried to break up with him but that only made him angry, I hated it when he was angry. that's when it hurt the most. So now I was

drowning my sorrows in tequila lots of tequila…

"hello" a guy looking all cheery sat next to me, why was he so happy. He probably has the good life good career loving family noting gone wrong, sometimes I wish I could have been like that, hell I always wish that I mean why did I get the workaholic mother, the father that left, the friends that could leave without a word and the abusive boyfriend. I know I'm bitter but can you really blame me after what I've been through.

"ah so your ignoring me" I couldn't help but look at him he had hair that looked like he had just come from the hairdressers a red top that fit him in all the right place showing his six pack only just with biceps that made you wish he had his arms around you and could never let go but the thing I couldn't help but notic first was his smile which could only be described as dreamy.

After that every thing was a blur… all I know is I woke up the next day with no clothes on while he was on the floor, also with no clothes…Damn he was hot.

Derek…

She was endearing like a drug, I couldn't help but walk up to her.
"hello" I smiled as she turned to face me she was gorgeous, I couldn't help but notice that she was ignoring me I felt slightly let down.
"ah so your ignoring me" she turned again to face me this time she noticed my shirt, my favourite shirt I knew it looked good on me, and that was all I remember I was already hammered…the next thing I knew I was awake in an odd quaint house naked getting a pillow thrown on my butt "get up, I have to go have a shower and go to work so you need to go bye"

I laughed realising she also had too much to drink "Derek" I could tell she was embarrassed "right, Meredith" I new at that moment that I would never forget that name, unless somehow I got permanent amnesia. Which so far isn't in my life plan unless of course you mean marital amnesia, well at least I wish I had. I got dressed quickly careful not to anger her, and scribled my number and 'if you need anything!' on a piece of paper before leaving it on her kitchen table before leaving for work.

Meredith…

My first day of work and I was dreading it, what if I mess up? What if I kill someone? What if my mum was right I don't have what it takes to be a surgeon?

Only all my other fears vanished and were replaced by another when I saw him at first I thought I was seeing thing then I looked again he was there and wearing surgical scrubs,

Damn.

I turned around and ran when he saw me only to be pushed moments later into the elevator.

"we need to talk"

I looked for his name tag

"dr. shepherd we will forget what happened last night and continue our lives as normal no more talking"

"dr. shepherd this morning it was Derek"

"dr. shepherd this is inappropriate I'm an intern and it seem's by the look of your scrubs you're an attending, you're my boss. Bosses don't sleep with their interns, so we will forget it ever happened agreed"

"I don't think I can forget maybe we could go out with me on Friday and we can discuss my forgetting"

"stop flirting, and stop looking at me life that"

"like what" he had an amused grin on his face "like you've seen me naked"

"but I have seen you naked"

"stop it"

Derek

I watched her attempt at being angry before pulling her into a soft passionate kiss I longed for since last night, she was stunned, I noticed her hesitation before she kissed me back even more passionately.

Suddenly she stopped, slapping me across my face.

"I suppose I deserve that"

"you do"

"I do"

"stop that"

"stop what"

"stop agreeing with me it's making it harder to hate you"

"I don't want you to hate me"

If looks could kill I would surly be on the way to the morgue right now, she turned to run away, but I grabbed her arm forcing her to stop.

"can we at least be friends"

I knew I couldn't be her friend but I couldn't let her leave like that.

"just friends" she stated before tugging her arm from my grip and walking away.

Just friends I didn't like the sound of that but I had no actual choice I'm married well for now, I got the divorce papers last night and was on my way to give them Addison when I saw Meredith, god she was beautiful.

Meredith…

God could my day get any worse I was late for work, I slept with my boss and kissed him, my patient died and I still have 26 hours left of work.

I can't stop thinking of him uggh why was he so… McDreamy, I could still taste his lips on mine, but I vowed before I got here I wouldn't get in a relationship again not after what ryan did I'm not ready for that I won't be able to take it again so I have to distance myself from everyone I won't go into another relationship I can't.

Derek…

"I just want a divorce Addison" why was she so annoying

"we can work on this Derek"

"no we can't, I'm sorry but I don't love you"

"well then I don't feel guilty"

"what would you have to feel guilty about"

"I slept with mark"

"you what"

"I slept with mark and I don't feel guilty"

"well then neither do I"

"you cheated on me"

"yes with Meredith"

"what, wait isn't she one of the interns"

"I didn't know that when I slept with her and she didn't know about me working here either"

"fine I'll sign"

I finally felt like all was right with the world Finally.

Mark…

"he knows"

"yes and we are divorced so we can be together"

"I can't"

"what"

"I can't be that guy I want to change find someone single and settle down with you the affair will just bring us down and I can't"

I wish I could have but I suppose I've done enough to Derek and I can't just continue "I've been dumped twice in one day god I hate this town"

I hated this feeling I've heard of it but I never actually experienced it. Its probably the worse feeling I've ever had, guilt.

Derek..

What was he doing talking to her, obviously flirting with her first my wife and now Meredith.

I couldn't help it I walked up to him and punched him.

I now felt content.

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ok so that was my first chapter of my first story i don't know if its any good but i hope it is...

reveiws would be great but i don't need then to carry on writing i write because i enjoy it so i hope i can get an updat soon, ideas would be great and i will post your name to thank anyone who's idea i may have used

my first fic yay---this is not a oneshot