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Vaughn and Sydney Lament: by DarkAngelsSage
Romance. I can't have that with her, no matter how much I want to. I don't even
know if my feelings are reciprocated.
I can't take her into my arms and kiss her until she begs for air.
I can't curl up on the sofa and watch a sappy movie and eat popcorn with her.
Hell, I can't even call her on the phone and have a conversation like a normal
person. I'm not normal. Neither is she. That's part of the reason I think I fell so
hard. She's so many things...
Strong, yet so incredibly fragile. I feel like just holding her in my arms might make
her break. So sure of herself, but always needing assuring...
She's seen things many people don't see in their entire lifetime. She's had to
deal with every bad thing that life has thrown her way, on her own.
I wish she knew how much I want to be there for her, not just as a friend. I want
to be able to hold her hand in public; kiss her just for the hell of it, and love her
with my whole being.
I'm part way there. I already love her. So much sometimes that I can't stand it.
Every time I see her it's like ripping open a scab again, each time, never allowing
it to fully heal.
Each time she's more beautiful, if that's possible, and each time I distance myself
even more. And I hate myself more and more each time for doing it.
I can't stand myself, knowing I send her into danger and she comes back happy
to see me. Me, of all people! The one who puts her in that danger in the first
place!
I can hardly live with myself knowing I'm the reason her face falls when I brief her
on her next mission...instead of taking her to see a Kings game...
In some ways it would be better if we had never met. At least then I wouldn't
know what I was missing. Every time our eyes meet, the hole in my heart grows
larger with the knowledge that it will never be.
Even after SD-6 is taken down, and it will be taken down, be it a day, a year, or
10 years, I can't be sure she'll still be there for me...or wanting me. If she has
ever wanted me.
I need her. Her warm body next to me when I wake up in the morning; her dirty
clothes all over the place; her cosmetics in the bathroom...her mouth on mine...
I don't know how much longer I can keep denying the feelings I have for her. I
love Sydney...I just wish I knew if she felt the same.
Another chapter? There's one on the way!
-Angel
Vaughn and Sydney Lament: by DarkAngelsSage
Romance. I can't have that with her, no matter how much I want to. I don't even
know if my feelings are reciprocated.
I can't take her into my arms and kiss her until she begs for air.
I can't curl up on the sofa and watch a sappy movie and eat popcorn with her.
Hell, I can't even call her on the phone and have a conversation like a normal
person. I'm not normal. Neither is she. That's part of the reason I think I fell so
hard. She's so many things...
Strong, yet so incredibly fragile. I feel like just holding her in my arms might make
her break. So sure of herself, but always needing assuring...
She's seen things many people don't see in their entire lifetime. She's had to
deal with every bad thing that life has thrown her way, on her own.
I wish she knew how much I want to be there for her, not just as a friend. I want
to be able to hold her hand in public; kiss her just for the hell of it, and love her
with my whole being.
I'm part way there. I already love her. So much sometimes that I can't stand it.
Every time I see her it's like ripping open a scab again, each time, never allowing
it to fully heal.
Each time she's more beautiful, if that's possible, and each time I distance myself
even more. And I hate myself more and more each time for doing it.
I can't stand myself, knowing I send her into danger and she comes back happy
to see me. Me, of all people! The one who puts her in that danger in the first
place!
I can hardly live with myself knowing I'm the reason her face falls when I brief her
on her next mission...instead of taking her to see a Kings game...
In some ways it would be better if we had never met. At least then I wouldn't
know what I was missing. Every time our eyes meet, the hole in my heart grows
larger with the knowledge that it will never be.
Even after SD-6 is taken down, and it will be taken down, be it a day, a year, or
10 years, I can't be sure she'll still be there for me...or wanting me. If she has
ever wanted me.
I need her. Her warm body next to me when I wake up in the morning; her dirty
clothes all over the place; her cosmetics in the bathroom...her mouth on mine...
I don't know how much longer I can keep denying the feelings I have for her. I
love Sydney...I just wish I knew if she felt the same.
Another chapter? There's one on the way!
-Angel