Dear Christine,

Its 3'am and I'm all alone. Tried to call but I dealt your home. Not much has changed here on my end, sure would be good to see you again.

I'm sitting here at my organ wondering if I should write this or not. It's 3'oclock in the morning. Not much has changed here in my life I was sitting playing my music, as I always do when I'm troubled. Christine it would be nice to see you again.

I know we had our fights nothing since has felt that right. Live my life from day to day, if I don't think too much every things okay.

I'm sorry I caused all that grief in your life, but my life has been empty with you gone. I live down here and only leave if necessary. If I keep to my music and not much more I'm okay. If and when I can find something to keep you off my mind I welcome it.

I miss holdin' your hand miss goin' on walks miss bein' your man and I miss watchin' you sleep, guess I just miss you with me.

But to be honest I miss you when you were a little girl. When you called me Angel. Before you knew what I was how I looked. I miss watching you sleep in that little bed in the dormitories, miss going on walks with you, even if you didn't know I was there, I miss listening to your voice, I miss being the one you loved, I really miss you here with me.

I still drive that same old car, still play at that rundown bar, still hang out with that same group of guys, and on Saturday nights still go to that diner. Been too months since I had a drink, damn good for me don't you think?

I still live in the labyrinth of cellars and catacombs under the once glorious opera house. I still play that same organ you learned to sing on, still have my monkey, who is once again is my best and only friend.

Well it's been a year since you've gone. I've tried my best but I can't move on. Cuz miss holdin' your hand, miss goin' on walks, miss bein' your man, and I miss watchin' you sleep, guess I just miss you with me.

It has been a year since that fateful night when you left. I have tried my best but nothing can help me or make me move on. I guess by now you're married and will be starting a family soon.

If you'd give me a second chance I'll never let you go. Swallowed all my pride and now I've got to let you know.

I wish you would give me a second chance I swear I'd never let go of you I'd love you more than any man could I'd go to the end of the world for you if need be. I have not worn my mask since you left me a scary sight though it may be; I have learned how to live with it always in the open.

I miss holdin your hand, miss goin on walks, miss bein your man, and I miss watchin you sleep ,guess I just miss you with me, I guess I miss you with me.

I remain your humble servant, protector, teacher, lover, Angel,

Erik Destler, O.G