I don't know how long I put up with her abuse. I hated her and yet still loved her. I was never good enough. I barely existed. All I was was a shadow of her. I don't even think I really know who I was. I still don't, but I guess I have to start figuring it out. Who am I without Amy? The only person I've ever been is Samey. I need to figure out who now, now more than ever, because that bitch had to die. She had to fucking die and leave me here alone.

"Look at this place. It's a dump." Amy said looking around the dorm room. The walls were bare and the carpet was a dingy gray.

"Well, it'll only take a little TLC. I'm sure we can do something to it."

"Great well, we can put all my posters up on this wall and my mirror over there." Amy continued rambling on about the room and I had stopped listening. I found out early on in our lives that as long as you nod and say "mhm" every once in a while you were golden. Freshman year in college and still nothing had changed. She still dictated every part of my life. She wanted to pledge to a sorority and I had to go with her.

"Do you have this dress in any others colors?" Amy asked the sales person. She was talking about a cocktail dress she had just fallen in love with. It was pink, and I didn't understand why she wanted it so bad. Every other girl at that party would most likely be wearing pink too. I guess she wasn't trying too hard to stand out.

"I believe we have it in yellow, green, blue, and purple." He replied.

"I'll take this pink one and the blue one then." She then quickly swiped her card. The problem with this wasn't that she got me a dress, the problem was she didn't even ask. My opinion never mattered to her.

"Do I really have to go Amy?" I asked her. I really didn't want to.

"Of course you do. I already told them about you and they think it would be cool to have twins join."

"Hmm, so I guess you need me after all." I mumbled.

"What was that?" She asked me.

"Oh, nothing." I laughed nervously.

When we got back to the dorm we spent 2 hours getting ready. We had to curl our hair to perfection and put on enough makeup to hide Amy's hideous personality.

"Now, you just stay quiet and let me do the talking." As if I would talk to those vapid bitches anyway. I already told her I didn't even want to go. Anyways we left. When we got to the party it was already crazy. I never imagined seeing so many frat boys in one place. They were all most definitely drunk and super horny. After about ten minutes I had no clue where Amy was. I went over to the keg and got myself a drink. I usually don't do alcohol, but I needed to de-stress.

"Drinking alone tonight?" A voice came from beside me. I looked to see a guy I was pretty sure didn't go here, or at least wasn't in a frat.

"I guess so."

"Well, now you don't have to be alone. Let me guess, you're best friend, who means well, drug your ass out here to have a good time."

"Good guess actually, but no. My evil twin sister using me to get into a sorority."

"I have to admit, I've never heard that one before." He laughed.

"What about you? Obligated to attend because of your frat brothers?"

"What's obligated mean?" I stared at him and then he cracked a smile.

"I'm just kidding. I'm a criminal justice major. And no. I don't belong to a fraternity. I came here because my older sister asked me to and because I'm an idiot." I looked down to the drink in my hand and glanced back up at him.

"What? You think I'm gonna call the cops for you one cup of beer?" We smiled at each other. I was so glad I had found someone I could have a conversation with, but of course that didn't last long.

"Oh, Samey! I'm so glad I found you, Veronica wanted to meet you!" She almost seemed nice. She should've been an actress because this performance could have won an Oscar.

"It's so nice to meet you! I'm glad you're interested in Kappa Phi Theta. We are the coolest sorority around!"

"Well, you sure know how to throw a party." The party I hated being at. I just wanted to go back to my dorm and sleep.

"Fun is our number 1 priority! We also have ins with the hottest guys at this school. Speaking of guys, I see you've met Wes." He waved slightly.

"Don't worry hunnie; we've got guys way hotter than him." He wasn't bad looking to me. He was actually pretty attractive. He had messy brown hair and a nice smile. The only thing that detracted from his looks were his large wire rim glasses which I didn't mind.

"I'm right here. This is why I don't come to these things."

"But if you didn't come you wouldn't get to flirt with the cute new pledges." She smirked. I could only gather from this that she was his sister. Her hair had highlights but other than that I could see the resemblance.

"Well, maybe we should leave them to it. Nice meeting you Samey!" She and Amy disappeared through the crowd again.

"It's Sammy…."I knew they wouldn't hear me but I had to correct them. I've been known as Samey my entire life, not anymore.

"Well, your sister seems-"

"Super sweet? You don't understand why I called her evil earlier?"

"I was gonna say 'like a bitch' actually."

"Wait, you mean you actually saw through that?"

"I have two sisters. You've met one; the other one is even worse." For the first time Amy didn't have control over someone. Another person other than me actually saw her for what she was. I couldn't help but smile.

"Hey, you want to get out of here?" I was tempted. The party wasn't really my scene and he seemed nice, but Amy would get mad if she couldn't find me. I would probably be mad at myself if I left with a complete stranger and ended up being gutted in some alleyway.

"As great as that sounds, I'm gonna have to pass. I kinda just met you, no offense."

"None taken. There are a lot of, um, unsavory people at this party." We chatted for a little while longer before he left. Amy didn't come back for awhile, when I found her she was passed out in an empty bedroom, but she didn't look like she had gotten into any trouble. Well, besides drinking I guess.

I couldn't leave so I locked the door and covered her up, then I got in the bed too and went to sleep. The next morning I had to deal with hung over Amy, which miraculously is even worse than regular Amy.

"Ugh, Samey can you go look for some aspirin and coffee?"

"Sure. They probably have some around here." I began walking around the house and found Veronica in the kitchen.

"Do you keep any aspirin on hand? And maybe tea or coffee?"

"Aspirin is in the upstairs hall bathroom, we don't have coffee. I'll call Wes and have him bring some over, what kind do you want?"

"Non-fat caramel macchiato with foam." Amy always ordered that from Starbucks unless pumpkin spice was available. I then went to the bathroom and looked in the cabinet for the aspirin. When I found it I took it up to Amy with some water.

"Where's my coffee?" Of course she would ask that.

"It's on its way." I then walked out of the room. About twenty minutes later a heard a knock on the door. I would've gone down to talk to Wes, but I really didn't want him to see me looking slightly like the undead. Instead I decided to explore abit. I went into a bedroom that's door was open. It looked empty. It wasn't. On the floor was a girl reading a book.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to come into your room."I started leaving

"Wait. You're a pledge right? I'm Meagan. You probably want to change out of those. You don't want anyone thinking you're doing the walk of shame when you leave right? I'm about your size, you can borrow something of mine." She pulled out a tan and white striped shirt and some sea foam green skinny jeans. I put them on and they fit perfectly.

"Thanks. I'm Sammy."

"Well Sammy, I think it's time you and I have breakfast. I know how to make omelets!" We went down to the kitchen and started working.

"Something smells good." The voice didn't belong to a girl. I turned around and there was Wes. I looked better now than earlier. I had even brushed my hair up into a ponytail.

"We're making omelets! Want one?" Meagan offered.

"Sure. I haven't eaten yet. I had to go out and pick up coffee."

"That was my fault, I asked her if she had any here and she said no. Sorry."

"Don't worry about it Sammy. She easily could have gone to get the coffee herself, or even better, let us buy a coffee maker and coffee beans."

"Yeah, my sister believes in 'pure coffee' and to her that means Starbucks."

"But that's so stupid."

"I know. She's a bitch, I kind of hate her, but I stay here so I can get invited to parties and meet cute guys."

"Meagan, you could meet cute guys without this sorority. You're so pretty."

"Well, it doesn't really matter anymore I guess. I've been here a year. Sorry if we're boring you Wes."

"No, not at all." I smiled a bit. Maybe joining the sorority wouldn't be so bad after all.