"no mommy, please!" A little girl with dark purple hair, fair skin, and white pearl eyes, begged and thrashed around, tugging on the hand holding her wrist. She was crying and trying to pull away, not wanting to have to go in the closet again.
Hinata who was only seven, lived with a very abusive father, especially when he was drunk. Her mother Hanaka tried her best to take care of her, and when her husband was upset she would take the beatings, but to protect Hinata, she would lock her in the walk in closet, sometimes hours at a time. She knew Hinata was deathly afraid of the dark but it had to be done. What was even worse, was that Hanaka had to tell Hinata that she was locked up for misbehavior. She would never tell her that it was for protection, because she knew Hinata would go and tell her school teacher, and since Hiashi was the leader of the hyuga clan, nothing could be done about the abuse. The only thing that would come out of telling anyone, would be a very severe beating.
So with a heavy heart Hanaka would drag her daughter away to the closet for her 'punishment'.
"Pleases mommy! m' sorry, ill be good! don't put me in there!" Hinata continued to beg, her eyes overflowed with tears.
But all to soon they reached the back closet, in the basement, were no one ever went, except Hanaka and Hinata. With a great deal of sadness, she shoved her daughter in the closet and locked the door behind her. Hinata desperately pounded on the door, crying, and screaming.
"Let me out! Let me out! Let me out!..."
"LET ME OUT!" Hinata sat up right, sweating, shivering, and with a tear streaked face. It had been a while since she had that nightmare. Kiba, her husband who was sleeping next to her, woke up from her sudden out burst. He sat up quickly, and gathered her in his arms.
"Shh, Hinata. Your alright." Kiba whispered to Hinata, who was trembling, crying, and whimpering. Kiba knew about her traumatizing childhood, and he knew about her nightmares. He even tried every precaution, like removing the door on the closets and making sure the lock on the bathrooms were able to open on both sides. He was relived when it had been months since her last nightmare, but they returned occasionally.
He was not surprised when she first told him about her anxiety, when they were children everyone in class knew about Hinata`s father, except Hinata herself.
The first time he had to deal with Hinata's fear, was about three months after there wedding, Hinata had been in the laundry room working, when the door knob to the room fell off and she was left trapped inside, Kiba had been out on a quick mission, and when he found her trapped she looked terrible. She was hysterical and white as a ghost, took him an hour to calm her down, then she told him about her extreme case of claustrophobia.
Kiba continued with what was now a well known routine to help relax her. He would rub circles on er back and hold her so she would breath deeper.
"i-im so sorry Kiba, for waking you.." Hinata stuttered a bit.
"Shh, don't apologize, its alright hun." he said while he kissed away the tears on her cheeks and smoothed down her hair.
He embraced her and she wrapped her arms around his neck. He could feel her breathing slowing and her muscles relax. Her tears were gone and a minute later she melted in his arms.
"there you go," Kiba said kissing her sweetly.
"thank you, Kiba." Hinata sighed, glade her panic attack was over.
"Your welcome sweetheart, you dont have to be afraid it was just a nightmare." he said to her still holding her. They stayed like that for a while when Kiba spoke up.
"Honey, what if we got you some counseling? It pains me every time you get a nightmare or flash back." he suggested.
" I dont know, every time I think about it I get frightened..." she said looking down.
"oh, cause I heard of an elderly woman named Jyrra who specializes in counseling of people with traumaz, her methods are a little unorthadox and almost cruel at times but I here that she's never failed with a case..." Kiba explained.
Jyrra was an old women who would take cases of abused people and have them slowly relive it, so that they could finally fight it and reach closure. Many times the patients who went to go see her would end up recovering in the hospital because of mental breakdowns but then they returned because they felt stronger in the end. Kiba knew if he took Hinata to see her it would be very hard for her and for him, but he was desperate for his wife.
"Hinata I made up my mind, were going." he said with authority, being the alpha of his clan meant he could make Hinata do whatever he wanted. Not that he ever abused that privilige accept for now.
"But Kiba.."
"No buts! Your going!... I'm sorry hun, its just that I hate seeing you suffer like this.. please for me? He asked giving her his heart melting look and softening his tone. Hinata knew there was no point in arguing and nodded.
"Good, we will leave tomorrow, she lives in a house out in the woods past the main gate, now try to get some sleep." he said cuddling her and laying down with her head on his chest.
"good night Kiba..." and soon her exhaustion got the best of her.
"good night hina, and... Im sorry... for what im going to put you through..." and soon he was asleep to.
The next morning, Kiba instructed another male of the clan to lead while he was away, in the mean time Hinata was busy packing a few changes of clothes and other supplies for both Kiba and herself. When the bags were ready and a light lunch was packed, they set off.
Kiba had sent word to Naruto the hokage letting him know about his little jorney with his wife. And when they reached the gate he was there to meet them.
"Hokage-sama" Hinata acknoledged Naruto with full respect and bowed.
"Hinata-chan, you don't need to bow, were friends remember... so Kiba how long will you be gone?" he directed his attention to Kiba.
"Not sure, the average time with Jyrra-san is about two weeks..." Kiba explained hoping that Naruto woudn't have a problem with that.
"Of course take as much time as you need, but if it dose take longer than two weeks please send a note."
"Hai" they both responded. They said goodbyes and then they both left through the gates.
"Kiba, why isnt Akumaru coming with us?" Hinata asked wondering why his fighting buddy and best companion was not alowed to go with them.
"When I contacted Jyrra she said I would be the only support that you would need, anyone ells would get in the way." He explained to her. They both continued walking chatting and holding hands sometimes following the path that would lead to Jyrra`s house. They had been traveling for a couple of hours when it became dark and they had to set up camp. Kiba scouted the area, and collected fire wood while Hinata made the tent and took out their light meal.
They both ate and decided to turn in early that night. Once inside the tent they snuggled up together in the extra large sleeping mat, and cuddled with the big blanket. And soon they both drifted off to sleep...
"Let me out! Let me out! Let me out!" Hinata screamed a begged pounding her little fists on the door, pleading for someone to answer. She continued to hit the door, until she was absolutly exhausted, and fell to the ground. She curled up and hugged her knees to her chest, closing her eyes tightly. It was pitch black in the room and completely quiet.
Hinata rocked herself back and forth trying to give herself some sort of comfort. She was haunted back inforth in her own little mind, replaying all the events of the day trying to find out the reason she was being punished. Anything that would have upsetted her mother. But found nothing...
she crawled around in the small room, trying to find something of intrests, but nothing. Nothing was in that room except a couple of her mothers old coats. She pulled on one of the coats until it fell from the hanger making her jump. Carefully she slipped her arms into the long sleves and adjusted the coat so she could enclose herself in it.
Finally finding the pockets, she rummaged through them trying to find something she might like. Her small little hand dug into the deep vevelt pocket when she came across something cold that felt like metal. When she pulled it out she realized it was some sort of necklace.
"this must me mommy's necklace. Better put It on and keep it safe for her." Hinata whispered out in the open. Once she managed to clasp it around her neck she layed back on the floor cuddling the fur coat and falling asleep...
"Hinata..."
Hinata opened her eyes to meet Kiba's.
"Its time to go sweetheart..." Kiba said rubbing his eyes with the back of his and obviously still tired. They both worked quickly gathering their supplies and packing everything in their bags. They set off on the rest of their journey.
"Kiba, im a little nervous about meeting her..." Hinata said a little ashamd at herself. Kiba gave her a sypathetic look and wound his arm around heer waist while they walked.
"i know sweetheart, but Jyrra reassured me that I would be able to help you during every step..." he gave a small grin. Hinata felt relived that she wouldn't have to face her methods completely alone.
The house was about a day and a halfs walk, so they were almost there. Of course if they had ran there it would have taken the time and halved it but Kiba knew Hinata needed some preperation time. They continued walking through the woods for a few more hours occasionlly stopping for a few minutes to rest, and finally they came to a clearing. A beautiful meadow with lots of tall grass and wild flowers. Hinata was at loss of words staring at such beauty.
"the House should be just over that hill Hina," Kiba said pointing to the sloping mound of grassy earth. In no time they reached the top, and just like Kiba said there was the house hidden amongst the grass, trees, and flowers. They walked up to the door and Knocked. A few minutes later an elderly woman wearing a white robe and her silver hair up in a bun. She had blue eyes, with a tint of grey from aging. She had a soft look and smiled warmly at them.
"Hello, my name is Jyrra, you must be Kiba." she said politley shaking his hand.
"Yes, its nice to meet you, this is my wife Hinata..." Kiba said gesturing to Hinata who bowed respectfully.
"thank you for having us." Hinata thanked her while bowing.
"dont metion it, please come in I have a few things to discuss with you before we begin..." Jyrra said standing to the side to let them in. once inside they explored the house, it was plain and simple, in the front room a long couch and a chair next to it. A coffee table made out of dark cherry wood. A few paintings of flowers on the white walls and a potted plant in the corner. On the table a tray of cookies and a pot of tea steaming hot.
"please sit down and make your selves comfortable, help your self to some cookies and tea. Ive prepared a dinner for your arrival, which we can eat after our little sesion." Jyrra said kindly, pouring herself a cup of tea and settling in one of the chairs.
"yes thank you," Kiba responded sitting down on the couch with Hinata next to him.
"so, lets get started... ok from what Kiba explained to me, it seems you suffer from an assortment of anxiety issues and phobias, all due to a childhood trauma. Is that correct?" Jyrra asked Hinata.
"yes, that is correct." Hinata answered her.
"all right now behind every trauma there is an underlying cause, and its my job to figure that out. Tell me Hinata what would you classify your phobia as?"
"Claustrophobia"
"i see, do you know why?"
Hinata swallowed hard and responded sadly...
"when I was younger, my mother would lock me in a closet, down in the basement...sometimes for hours..."
"oh, you poor thing... that must have been really hard. Were is your mother now?"
"she passed away, when I was seven." Hinata explained with a heavy heart. Jyrra looked at Hinata with curiosity, pondering something deeply.
"and your father?"
that caught Hinata off guard she looked up and met Jyrras eyes for a second, before looking down at her hands.
"he is in jail..." she whispered. Jyrras eyes went wide for a bit, but then softened.
"Hinata... from these brief few moments of us talking, ive learned much about you and your internal problems..." Hinata looked up as she spoke.
"... yes, I am sure if it... I can see it... in your eyes..." Jyrra said observing her more closely.
"what is it?" Kiba asked anxious to hear what she had to say. Jyrra sat back and looked at Hinata squarley before she spoke.
"Guilt"
"guilt? Guilt from what?" Kiba asked confused.
"Yes, guilt... a great load of guilt is placed on your heart Hinata, I don't know why, but were going to find out...this guilt is whats been bringing your nightmares, anxiety, and phobia... and I wont stop till I can find a way, to make you forgive yourself... I promise you that. But for now, you must rest." Jyrra said knowing how this was digging into Hinata, observing her tearful eyes.
"tomorrow we start phase one... re-enactment..."
TO BE CONTINUED...
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