Ciel stared at the the same page of the draft for 10 minutes straight yet no new words register to his brain. His mind was too much engulfed in thought of his love life. To put it simply, he's tired of Sebastian.

It might sound a little harsh, but he found no more 'feeling' in dating the tall man he used to idolize so much anymore. Every kisses and hugs felt no closeness or warmth and the weekend he spent with his lover felt more like a chores than something he look forward to.

Yes, now he definitely sounded like an asshole.

It's not something he wanted or anything he has control over for that matter. When they first going out in college, Ciel remember the butterfly, the mystery of love that make everything so pure and exciting at the same time. Now that they're together for 4 years, there is not much mystery to uncover about one another, there is hardly anything he doesn't know about Sebastian. There used to be a time they tried to make time for each other no matter how busy they were with schoolwork, back then, trying to be together is Sebastian or Ciel trying to come to the other's dorm, mostly it's Sebastian that come over. Now that they both graduate and Ciel move back with his parents, Sebastian can't come over all the time anymore. Ciel did not want his parents to know about his sexuality yet, mainly it's because of his traditional family. So Sebastian and Ciel doesn't meet up everyday like before anymore, just the weekends. Since Sebastian is popular and everything he even spend some of his weekend - their only time together- with his other friends, meet up and party anyway. News flash: Ciel learnt that he did not mind about that as much as before and somehow grateful that Sebastian was too busy to spend time with him so that he, Ciel, can have some alone time anyway. The initial shock took Ciel by surprise but now he just know he has no feeling for the man anymore anyway.

Ciel looked down at the draft in his hand again and he folded it and put it back into his briefcase. This has be to edited another time, he has no heart to edit it right now anyway. He glanced at his watch, noticing how Sebastian is late to meet up with him. Drowning himself to a cup of black tea as he waited, he found his mind drifting to a few days back, when it was his 4th year anniversary with Sebastian. They were together in Sebastian's new apartment. Sebastian was cooking as always, that even, Ciel was served with some seafood spaghetti and delicious chocolate layer cake.

It was that moment too Ciel realize they have nothing to talk about.

There is no more passion in this relationship. They always seem to appreciate each other's presence, and the fact that they first meet each other in a bookstore and talk later on for hours give a glance to their future relationship together that they will never run out of things to talk to each other. Ciel initial enjoy the first few years he was with Sebastian. They were equal intellectually and challenging each other is almost like a foreplay. So to have nothing talking to each other on their anniversary is like a wake up call to Ciel. That night, after dinner, Sebastian and Ciel cuddle on the sofa and watch some sappy romance story. Ciel felt the grip that Sebastian hold on him tighten after some time and almost feel sorry for him as Ciel realize he doesn't reciprocate the feeling anymore.

Ciel reach to his neck and pulled out the locket out of his sweater and study it. This is the anniversary gift Sebastian had given him. The gold round locket had a design of witch circle on top of it. It is something very vintage, something Ciel know Sebastian know Ciel would like. Beside the locket is a button. Ciel remembered Sebastian told him about the locket that night :

Sebastain was hugging Ciel tight and nozzle his head against the smaller male's neck. "I love you, Ciel."

"I know."

"Happy Anniversary."

And Sebastian pulled out from his pant's pocket, a gold round locket with vintage design.

"That's nice..." Ciel said, he too had prepared a gift for Sebastian. A matted BVL Gari watch Sebastian used to said he wanted. Ciel notice the click beside the locket, "what is this?"

"Don't open it."

Ciel stared.

"It's something important and effective only once... only open it when you feel doubt of my love Ciel."

Ciel felt like he could melted with love because of that. He doesn't not deserve this, and Sebastian deserve to know what's going on. I don't doubt your love, Sebastian, it's my love you should be doubting...

In any case Ciel felt like he's about to do the right thing now. He can't stand lying to Sebastian any longer. He may no longer feel love doesn't mean doesn't care for the other man. They are just not compatible anymore and Sebastian has the right to know the truth.

"Sorry I'm late, the jury took longer than usual."

"it's ok.."

Ciel waited until Sebastian seated himself in the the seat in front of him comfortably. When Sebastian is done though, Ciel felt like he's at lost of word. He did not know how to dump someone.

Ciel open his mouth when the waitress come and put a glass of water in front of Sebastian and gave him the menu.

"Sebastian.. I have something to tell you..."

"Oh yeah? Do tell " but before Ciel continue, "Order!"

The waitress come at Sebastian's service and Sebastian gave his order.

"you were saying?"

"ok... so i was thinking about us..."

Sebastian did not say anything and just stare at him waiting for Ciel to continue. Ciel look into those rare red eyes he had never seen before. He heaved a sigh one last time before breaking the news.

"There's no easy way to say this but ... I think we're better be just friends."

Sebastian did not look like he's surprised. Ciel try to spot a change in reaction but he sees nothing.

"Oh, ok. Fine."

Fine?

Fine?

4 years together and Ciel get a 'fine' for breaking up? Ciel expected Sebastian to be mad like real mad. Asking him for second chances, may be? Ask him why? But fine?

Ciel tried to calm himself down and explain what he truely felt further, yeah, make that would knock some emotion from that bastard, "I mean, it's not like i stop loving you. I do love you it's just i love you as a friend love another friend now. There's no passion anymore and it's only fair that I tell you this so you won't miss any opportunity to meet someone else in your life - "

Ciel speech was cut when the waitress come and she set the burritos and black coffee for Sebastian. Sebastian gave his usual smile to the waitress and started eating.

Minutes passed and Ciel started to feel like he's making a fool of himself.

"Sebastian, do you have anything to say to me?"

"Me? No, nothing."

"I'm breaking up with you."

"I get it the first time." this time Sebastian looked slightly annoyed but that's all he gave.

Ciel just blinked several times, "Don't you love me? "

"Does it matter? We're done"

Now that hurts. Ciel find it so difficult to try to break it gently to Sebastian, that has to count for something. But Sebastian doesn't look one bit affected by this break up. Doesn't Ciel mean something? Does this relationship amount to anything at all in that demon's heart?

Sebastian did not finish his burrito but he did gulp down all his espresso before he settle the cup and said, "Well, I believe we're done here now then. Goodbye, Ciel."

"Okay..."

And just like that Sebastian left the cafe.

And that's how SebaCiel break up.