Hey guys. Okay so this is my first fanfic and I just want to say I'm sorry that some paragraphs are cut off its because I originally wrote this on the computer and then I transfered it onto my iPad and it got all weird but anyways, sorry that's its a little bit depressing but I just felt like there needed to be a good enough reason for Kim's odd behavior (you'll understand what I mean) so I went with this. Feel free to leave me tips on how to get better and if you don't like it then I'm sorry I guess. Btw sorry it's very long or whatever personally I hate short chapters so yeah ANYWAY (haha) I'm gonna end it here coz I must be boring you and if you stuck to read all of this then I'm grateful haha.
P.S. I don't own ANYTHING!
~Kim POV~
*RINNNNNNNNNG*
The sound of my alarm startled me. Usually i'd be happy because of the fact that it's Friday, but today is not my day. I just have a feeling that something bad is going to happen.
I got out of my warm, cosy bed and walked to my bathroom. I looked into the mirror...
"Great... not only am i in a bad mood, but my hair makes me look like friggin' Medusa!" i moaned.
I picked up my toothbrush, brushed my teeth, combed my hair and got dressed. I put on a pair of black leggins with some black ugg boots and a light blue sweater. I walked downstairs
to grab my bag and set off walking to school. I usually meet Milton around the corner of his house, but today i was not going to walk extra just to see the guy i spend time with all day,
everyday. Sometimes we stop off at Jacks because he lives really close to us, but he usually gets dropped off by his mom when she sets off to work. *BEEP BEEP* I looked at my phone to see
Milton rage texting me where i was. I saw a full paragraph of words and turned my phone off. I go to school, I don't need Milton sending me an educational text on why ditching friends is a
really big deal. By the time i got to school, i took my phone out of my pocket and texted Milton 'Sorry' and continued to walk.
~Milton POV~
"Seriously where on earth is she?!" i said to myself wondering what time Kim would be meeting me.
After another 10 minutes i got fed up and texted her the importance of friendship and how ditching a friend was disrespectful. Waiting for her reply, i got so fed up that i just started walking
hoping that maybe i would see Jack on the way. I really needed to talk to him and besides i wasn't walking with anyone since Kim decided she would just forget about me. As soon as i turned
a corner i saw Jack.
"Hey Jack! Wait up!" i shouted as the brunette turned to face my way.
~Jack POV~
"Hey Milty!" i said back to him.
"Seriously you have to stop calling me Milty... my mom heard about it and now she calls me that... its embarrassing." he replied as seriously as he could.
"Whoa, even your mom calls you Milty? That's hilarious! I mean-"
"Yeah, yeah i get it. It's hilaaaarious." Milton interrupted sarcastically.
"Sorry dude," i said trying to hide a small laugh. "Where's Kim?"
"I dunno she totally ditched me! And when i sent her a text telling her it was completely rude of her she didnt even text back!" he yelled.
"Jeez, calm down man. Besides it's not like Kim to ditch. Maybe something came up-"
"Ooh she just texted," interrupted Milton... Again. " Seriously, she put sorry! SORRY! Ooh that's it when i see her i'll, i'll-"
"You'll what Milton?" Jerry was stood there with his clueless eyes. We didn't even realise that we'd made it all the way to the school. Jerry just stared at us clearly waiting for a response.
Milton didn't say anything. Clearly he didn't know what he would do, so he just stood in silence. I looked at them both, sensing the awkwardness and leaving before anything else was said. I
saw Kim at her locker. I needed to get my books for first period anyway and my locker just happened to be next to hers. At least i had an excuse to talk to her. 'Well here goes nothing' i thought
to myself.
~Kim POV~
I grabbed my books from my locker and slammed it shut. I turned around as quickly as i could, only to see the one and only: Jack Brewer. Me and Jack are best friends and i love him so much but
i wasn't even in the mood to talk to him. Oh and when i say 'i love him' i mean as a best friend, not like anything else, because i totally do not love him romantically. Like at all. 'Cause that
would be weird... yeah. Okay. I just made myself feel awkward.
"Kimmmmm?"
"Huh?" i replied cluelessly as to what just happened.
"So are you?"
"What?" 'what was he talking about?' i thought to myself.
"Are you okay? I asked you like 5 times." he said, eyes filled with worry.
Oh he must've been talking to me while i was talking to myself... in my head...
"Wow, way to make things more awkward in your own head, idiot!" i thought to myself, not knowing i had actually said it out loud.
"What?" Jack looked at me and had no clue what i was talking about. "Oh and why am i an idiot?"
"Oh no! I didn't mean you. I just meant to," 'think about where you're going with this' i thought. "say it in my... head?"
"Umm, okayy. Well anyway," 'phew' i thought as he changed the subject. "Milton is really mad that you didn't meet him. Are you okay? Did something happen?" he asked me in possibly the
sweetest way ever. 'Oh. My. God. His eyes are so pretty' i found myself lost in his eyes. I had never actually noticed what pretty eyes he had. 'Okay he just said something. What was it? Oh
no. Uhh...'
"Yeahhhh. My grams is ringing me so i gotta pick up, hehe." 'smooth' i thought and walked off as fast as i could.
~Milton POV~
I saw Kim walk away from Jack. I would've ran after her to ask her why she ditched but she seemed to be in a hurry. That's when i remembered 'Oh yeah, i need to ask Jack something'.
"Hey Jack. Look i've been meaning to ask you something."
"Okay sure Milton, what's up?"
"So there's this vacation that Rudy told me to ask everyone about. It's a vacation to Italy for a week. Rudy's cousin got a job there and he offered to let us stay there for free. Everyone
else said they could go, so can you?" I asked. I could tell he had other things on his mind, but was willing to answer.
"Umm, yeah sure. I'd love to go. Besides my mom deserves some time alone."
"Cool. So i'll let Rudy know when i have the chance. He's your parent permission sheet, Rudy said that they have to have your parents permission because of last time when Jerry's mom almost
killed Rudy, after we went to Tokyo. Lucky for you, it happened way before you got here, believe me... it was scary as ever." i shivered as i said the last part.
"Yeah okay." Jack replied.
"Oh and give this one to Kim, she didn't get one." i finished.
"Alright. Bye." Jack replied as he walked off to class.
~Jack POV~
'Great we have art first.' i thought to myself. I love art, it's the only subject where the seats are closer together, so me and Kim can goof around 'cause we sit next to eachother.
"Hey Kim. Ooh Milton told me to give you this. It's a parents permission sheet for the trip to Italy." i said to her as i sat down. Her smile turned into a frown as she took the piece of
paper out of my hand. She went from looking happy to looking miserable within a second.
"Thanks..." she said as she attempted to fake a small smile.
"Everything okay?" i asked wondering why a permission sheet for her parents would make her upset.
"Yeah, of course. Why wouldn't it be?" she replied looking away. As of that moment, she didn't speak at all. Just turned to look out of the window and stayed that way. I was concerned but
the more i bugged her, the more she would push me away. I just knew it. That was Kim, acting okay even if she isn't and then if you bother to even look worried for her, she would just
ignore you for as long as she could. So i pretended to not be concerned... I can't have her ignoring me all day.
~Kim POV~
'WHY? WHY DO WE NEED A STUPID PERMISSION SHEET FOR OUR PARENTS?' i thought angrily looking outside of the window. Suddenly out of nowhere the bell rang. 'Wow. Didn't even think we had
started this lesson, never mind finished it.' i thought to myself. As i got up and walked out of the classroom, i knew Jack was going to want to follow me. 'He just worries too damn much'
i thought. Then at the corner of my eye i saw an exit out of the school which someone must've accidently left open, my bet is... its janitor Mark. He's a little- how do i put this? Messed up.
Forgets things such as shutting doors, locking doors and doors in general. Like he just walks straight ahead and bumps his head on the door. He's messed up as he is, he doesn't need to
be more stupid! Anyway- I looked around me to see if anyone was looking and ran straight out of the door, shutting it so that nobody could follow. I'm not a bad girl. I get good grades, and
i love to wear really girly clothes etc. I'm not a rebel. But something inside of me just screamed at me to run... so i did and i didn't look back.
~Nobodys POV~
"Hey where is Kim?" asked Jack running towards Milton, Jerry and Eddie.
"Dunno." they all replied together.
"Look, i lost her. I gave her the permission sheet and she just ignored me for the rest of art class. I never knew art was sooo boring without Kim. I mean, she was there but it didn't feel
like it." Jack continued.
"We'll keep an eye out." said Jerry. For someone like Jerry, he seemed pretty worried himself. In fact, he looked like he was going to cry if we didn't find her.
~Kim POV~
'What the hell am i doing? Why did i just run? I have to go back, or i'll have... i can't even think it... ditched!' i thought to myself. At that point i sounded as nerdy as Milton, but
i really didn't want to ditch school. And the amount of questions that would be asked by the guys at practice would be so annoying. But i couldn't turn back. I had ran! RAN OFF! I can't
just go back as if nothing happened.
"Great... guess i'm ditching school." i said in the most unenthusiastic way ever.
I looked around at my surroundings. I could hear a river nearby, so i just followed the sound of water and once i found it, i sat down.
"They deserve to know about my parents, about my life. But what if they didn't like me anymore? What if they just ditched me like i ditched Milton on my way to school? Okay yes i admit, that
was mean but, i was NOT in a good mood." i said quietly to myself. Everything was silent here. It was peaceful. I kinda liked it.
~Jerry POV~
"JERRRRY! GET TO THE PRINCIPAlS OFFICE NOW!"
'Oh no, they must've realised that i snuck into the office and ate the entire packet of cookies. I'M TOO YOUNG TO DIE!' i thought to myself as i stood up and walked to the principals office.
"Jerry. We need to talk. I assume you know why?" started principal Webber.
"Look, i was hungry and i needed food so yes i ate your cookies but it was only a matter of time before someon-" i said really fast before Webber could interrupt me.
"I'm not talking about the cookies Jerry. I mean that y-" Webber paused. She looked confused and opened up her drawer. I was confused, waiting for her to talk.
"You ate my COOKIES?!" she yelled. 'Oops, guess she didn't know' i thought.
"I thought you knew since you shouted at me in a 'YOU ATE MY COOKIES' way!" i replied.
"Oh i yelled at you? Sorry, force of habit. See when you come here you always seem to be in trouble." i just sat there listening to her, no expression on my face. 'Was i really that much
of a troublemaker?' i thought to myself as the room went quiet. Finally i had to say something otherwise we'd be sat here like 'special' people.
"So... you wanted to say?" i asked.
"Oh yes," she paused. "Your friend Kim was not in class second or third period. But she was in first. Do you have any idea where she might be? You were the closest person to my office that
i knew was friends with her." she finally finished.
"Ooh, no. I've been trying to look for her but i couldn't find her anywhere. To be honest, i think she left school. I mean she's nowhere in sight." i answered. I was really worried. Kim was
my friend... and my flirting buddy if there were no other girls in sight. Let's face it she is hot. But she was always there for me. I needed to find her. And i know that Jack really wants
to find her too. The whole group has been worried sick. That was it. I was going to find her.
"Ya know..." i started hoping that Webber would make an exception and agree with my plan. "I could leave school for now and see if she's anywhere outside, and if i can't find her then i'll
come back-" before i could finish, principal Webber didn't even hesitate to answer.
"Yes. I trust you when it comes to this. If you find her then bring her back. You are dismissed." she finished and i walked right out of the door thinking about where i could look first.
~Milton POV~
*BEEP BEEP* 'Seriously what now?!' i thought to myself as my phone beeped.
'On my way to find Kim, been dismissed from school... HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! :P' It was Jerry who texted.
'Thanks Jerry, you know, that's very nice of you to take time off to find Kim :) Well, text you later. I have algebra. Bye and good luck.' i texted back and went to my next class.
~Jerry POV~
I had already gone to the park, the mall and even Kim's house just to see if she was there but i couldn't find her anywhere. So that's when i decided to go to my special spot to think about
where she might be.
10 MINS LATER
I finally got to my special spot and hoped i could think of one place where she might be. And that's when i heard it. Heard a beautiful singing voice around the corner. It sounded like it
came from the lake. I jerked my head around to look at who it was, and to my surprise... I didn't expect it to be this person...
~Kim POV~
'UGH WHY IS LIFE SO COMPLICATING?!' i thought to myself. All of a sudden i started to sing... it wasn't a real song or anything just some random lyrics that came from the heart with a tune.
"You used to tell me, everything will be alright. That you'd never leave me, that you'd always hold me tight. But now look what has happened, did you really mean what you said? All of my good
memories of you, are dead. Now im losttttttttt, and no where to be found. I've losttttttttt everything, now i, don't wanna make a sound. 'Cos now what has happened? Did you ever think you'd
be wrong? I don't want anything, anything... Apart from those good memoriesssss... Oohhhhhh... Those good memories..." I stopped singing and just watched the water as the tears fell down my
face. "Why did i ever trust you? You left me as a broken girl with no hope. I had to make my life good on my own. I used to never cry and NOW," my voice got louder. "Now i can't STOP crying!"
*BUSHES RATTLING* "Hello?!" no answer. "HELLO?!" that's when i realised a person was watching me and heard everything... but when i saw who it was, i couldn't help but get really angry. Not
even at them, but at me.
~Jerry POV~
"I'm sorry i shouldn't have been listening..." i said dreading the next sentence that would come out of Kim's mouth. Her face turned red and you could tell she was mad. But she didn't look mad
at me. "How much did you hear?" she said barely above a whisper.
"N-n-n-nothing" i stuttered hoping she would believe me.
"Jerry-"
"Okay okay, i heard everything, from your beautiful singing to your really sad shouting and sobbing- ooh and nice voice by the way... didn't think you could sing." i replied back as honestly
as i could. "Thanks and its okay, just promise you won't tell the guys that i cried, okay? It's just no one can know..." her voice faded towards the end.
"Know what?" i said in a concerned voice. She didn't answer. "Kim-"
"KNOW ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT I GO THROUGH TO PROTECT THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT AND MYSELF TOO! KNOW ABOUT MY FAMILY AND MY PARENTS AND WHAT I DO TO MYSELF TO STOP THE PAIN AND I JUST-" she
stopped talking as both she and i realised what she just said.
"What do you do to yourself, Kim?" i said worringly.
"Nothing- nothing it was- nothing. I didn't mean to lash out at you or say the things i did. It's just, my life sucks, Jer. And as happy as i seem throughout the day, i'm... miserable."
she said holding back her tears. You could tell she was fighting the urge to cry.
"We can talk about this later, we have to get back. YOU have to get back to school." she continued.
"Alright Kim but, are you okay because i dont mind skipping school to be there for you-"
"No, no, no. You are going back to school." she interrupted.
"WE'RE going to school, Kim." i replied in a serious voice.
"Jer, i ran off! I can't go back but you can. I'll walk you there though." she said with a small smile which i returned. As mad and worried and concerned i was, i couldn't force her to do
anything she didn't want to do. We slowly started walking back to school in a comfortable silence.
~Jack POV~
I was so worried when i didn't get an update from Jerry about Kim. So i rang him. "Jerry where the HELL are you? Have you found her? Kim? Is she okay?" i said not stopping to catch my breath.
"JEEZ DUDE CALM DOWN! Yes i found her, yes she's okay... i guess... and we're on our way to school. Although she won't be coming in, she's only walking with me here." Jerry replied.
"Oh my god! Thank you for finding her. Wait- what do you mean i guess? Is she okay or what?"
"Well, she says she is. But i think theres something she's not telling us." jerry whispered so kim wouldn't be able to hear.
"Like what?"
"Like about her parents..."
"Okay then, we'll find out. Just get her out front ad i'll go talk to her."
"Okay. See you in a sec." Jerry replied as i hung up and made my way to the front of the school.
~Kim POV~
Jerry and i hugged just before he walked in, and i was about to leave, someone stopped me.
"Kim... i have been worried SICK! What is going on?" Jack let go of my arm and looked me straight in the eyes, but i was trying to avoid looking in his.
"Jack, sometimes in life bad things happen and you can't really express what you feel towards what happened..." i said in a very calm voice.
"But when that something does happen... you shouldn't always blame yourself for it... If you know what i mean...?" i continued.
"Ermm, i'm sorry i dont understand-"
"Jack we cant be friends anymore. It's not just you but anyone at the dojo either. Pass this message on? Thanks, bye." I said as i tried to escape but failed.
"WHAT? Why cant we be friends? Kim you are making no sense!"
"Im sorry, i have to go. You know what i said, bye." i said, this time managing to escape and running off to my house.
~Milton POV~
I couldn't believe what i just saw, Kim just told Jack that she not only couldn't be friends with him but with anyone else in the dojo! Why would Kim not
want to be our friend? Why would she just ditch us like this? Is there something going on at home or in her life that is making her not be friends
with us? Well whatever the reason... i am going to find out!
~Kim POV~
As soon as i reached my house i ran upstairs into my bedroom and slammed the door shut. I sat on the edge of my bed and cried my eyes out for what felt like hours.
I didn't really want to stop being Jack's friend. I didn't want to stop being ANYONE's friend for that matter, but some things have to be done. I just can't
risk putting them in danger. What kind of friend would i be if i did that?! I know they will be mad at me but honestly, i'd rather have them be mad at me than
doing something i regret and them being put in danger. So i bet you're all wondering what could have happened to cause all of this?! My depression, the reason
i called off our friendship.
***FLASHBACK 6 MONTHS AGO***
"Mom, im home!" i yelled as i got home from my meeting. My mom likes to send me to see this woman every week because my mom thinks im sick and when i say sick
i mean as in mentally sick! My mom says im bipolar, which im not, and she also says that i also have anxiety, which once again I DONT HAVE! She has named
plenty others but believe me she has named so many i forgot most of them!
"Kimberly, we need to have a discussion..." my mother started as she walked down the staircase.
"What's the problem mom?"
"Kimberly please call me Elizabeth-"
"Why would I call you Elizabeth when your my mom?" i raised my voice saying this as i couldn't understand what she was talking about.
"Kimberly i'm sorry..." she paused and inhaled loudly. "You're sick Kimberly, VERY sick! And well-" she started crying. "I can't have a sick daughter, im sorry."
"Mom, what do you mean?! IM NOT SICK! IM PERFECTLY FINE!" i said sobbing aggressively.
"KIMBERLY YOU ARE SICK! You have to admit to yourself that you're sick before you can get better! I did love you! But you're incredibly sick and i can't-"
"YOU CAN'T WHAT MOM-"
"I CAN'T LOVE A SICK CHILD!" she finally got out. I was shocked. My own mother told me she couldn't love me because i was mentally ill! WHICH I WASN'T!
"Kimberly- Im sorry."
"No i'm sorry.." i replied immediately.
"What do you-"
"I SAID IM SORRY! MOM IM NOT SICK! AND I KEEP WAITING FOR YOU TO FIGURE THAT OUT BUT YOU NEVER DO! SOMETIMES I THINK ITS JUST AN EXCUSE TO STOP LOVING ME!"
"Kimb-"
"TO GET RID OF ME!" my face was soaked as more and more tears escaped my eyes.
"Kimberly i LOVED YOU!"
"But now you don't?! NOW YOU FREAKIN' DONT?! Oh my gosh, my mother doesn't love me..." i couldn't take it, she really didnt love me!
"Kimberly, you see why you're acting like this?! Because you're mood changes in a heartbeat, thats one of your illnesses. Sweetie, you need help." my mother replied,
she was very calm at this point. But what she said made sense! She was right. I WAS SICK. I was MENTALLY sick. My mother immediately gave me a hug after she
said this. I was defeated. She was right... she was right... i was sick... i am sick... i am sick...
***FLASHBACK END***
"I am sick... I. AM. SICK!" I ran a hand through my hair. Wiped away my tears. You're probably wondering what happened afterwards, where i am now. Who is my carer,
where my dad was and most importantly why i can't really be friends with the guys. Well after this little discussion with my mom, she handed me a ticket and
a packed suitcase and dropped me off at the airport, to Seaford. It was a change a big one actually, but i got used to it. When i got here i found out that my mom
bought me a place, but i would have to pay to stay in it so that i wouldn't ever become homeless. I had to find a job, that was my first task. Find a job. But where?
That was the real question, who would hire a 14 turning 15 year old girl with no parents AND no experience. Well luckily i found a place. After searching for 7
WHOLE HOURS! But i found a place that's all that mattered. Eventually that 7 hours was TOTALLY worth it. A place called Circus Burger. They were looking for
just about anyone back then as they were struggling and well, i happened to show up. They didn't even ask about anything, to be honest i would be surprised if
they even knew my name! It's not the most- classy- place but they needed workers and i NEEDED a job! No one even knows that i work there, well apart from
Grace, but i'll get into detail later. So onto the whole DAD situation. My mother decided that it would be fun to cheat on him with his BEST FRIEND! Yup, as
you could probably guess, that didn't turn out so well. Let's just say the person who told him wasn't even his best friend, it was MOM. She was um, sorry guys,
but she was on her period and well she was in a LOT of pain, so she took LOADS of painkillers and took them with vodka. NOT A GOOD COMBINATION. So she was
moody, drunk AND high on painkillers and let's just say she broke into a fit of sobs and told my father EVERYTHING. And i mean she went into DETAIL! Don't worry
I wont. But yeah that's pretty much what happened, dad got a divorce, re married, had kids etc. Basically he's living the PERFECT life and well, he doesn't even
know im gone. In fact he stopped worrying about what i do after he left. No, he's not one of those guys who because they re marry, they stop talking to their
old family. My mom sent him a letter (from me) telling him i hated him etc. So basically, she totally screwed up my relationship with him, because he left!
Sucks, right?! Well, that's not the worse thing she ever did. Okay, now the whole not being friends with the guys situation. Well, there isn't THAT much
to say. I LOVE those guys, seriously! But, i'm dangerous. If mom was right and i have a LOT of mental illnesses, then i can't risk hurting them. Apparently,
i have a Dissociative Identity Dissorder. A DID. It's says it happens after trauma in someones childhood, and let's just say i definately got traumatized.
***FLASHBACK 2 YEARS AGO***
It was my 12th birthday today! And i was on my way to pick up my little brother Jeremy, we just called him Jerry, he was 6 years old at the time and he was
at school. I got to his school and went into his classroom to take him home. As we walked out of the building, i realised that i had left my lucky cap in
the classroom and i insisted that we go back to get it. Jerry hesitated as he said "It's getting dark and its not safe here in the dark." Yes it was 4pm
but the clocks were put forward therefore it got dark earlier. But that wasn't a good enough excuse. I basically dragged him into the building so i could get
my cap. Some idiot then walked into the room yelling at Jerry's teacher because she was his ex and he was mad at her. Then out of nowhere he pulled out a gun.
Started shooting like crazy, but not at her. Anywhere but her. He was going to kill her students and any other child in the classroom. So he shot and shot
and shot until he ran out of ammo. He then ran out of the classroom and me and my brother were hiding under a table. But then some STUPID kid yelled.
"HE'S GONE, HE IS GONE WE DONT HAVE TO WORRY ANYM-" he couldn't finish as the guy reloaded his gun and shot him right in his head. Hitting his brain and
killing him instantly. Unfortunately my brother put his head up to check if the guy was gone and *BANG*...
That's all i remembered until i realised my brother didn't bob down again, his head was on my lap and my lap was entirely red.
He was dead. Not breathing. Just. Dead.
***FLASHBACK END***
If i hadn't gone to get that STUPID CAP! He wouldn't be dead. He died because of ME! We could have been home, safe and sound. I could have gotten my cap
another day, but NO! I HAD TO GET THAT DAMN CAP! STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!
"I love you Jerry, im sorry." i whispered to myself looking down at my lap, picturing his head placed into it with blood pouring everywhere.
I looked around the room and saw my 'lucky' cap.
"Guess it wasn't as lucky as i thought." i said to myself in order to make me laugh a little bit. To cheer myself up from these depressing memories.
What happened? To the cheerful Kimberly Anne Crawford. Now its just: Kim. Dull, depressing Kim. Kimberly: that name was just a painful memory so i changed
it, only shortened it down to Kim. Jerry used to call me Kimmy. Now that name is just another excuse for me to feel sorry for myself. If ANYONE
ever calls me that, i don't become strong and punch them, or threaten them like i would if someone were to call me Kimberly. But i run, and cry. I become
weak, because i am the reason a certain someone doesn't call me that anymore. Because they're dead. Because i killed them.
"OH MY GOD! I FREAKIN KILLED HIM! OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD!" i started throwing stuff around my room like an idiot, destroying everything. Then i stopped and
just started crying and i immediately pulled out my phone to call Grace.
~Grace POV~
*RING RING*
"Hello?"
"GRACE PLEASE COME OVER NOW I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE I MEAN I FINALLY BROKE DOWN AND I TRASHED EVERYTHING AND I BROKE IT, I BROKE THE
JEWELLERY BOX THAT MY MY BROTHER GOT ME AND I DIDNT MEAN TO AND I CANT, I CANT EVEN DO THIS I MEAN- GASP- I DESTROYED IT- GASP- I FREAKIN
DESTROYED IT-" kim started to hyperventilate and i knew she wasn't in a good state. But i still had to wait 10 minutes for school to end.
"KIM, KIM LISTEN TO ME!" that got her attention. "You. are. going. to. be. okay. You just need to calm down! Okay? Can you do that for me?
just breathe in and out, in and out, okay? Listen school finishes in 8 minutes okay? I will be there in 9 minutes okay? It will only take a
minute for me to get there. Are you okay?" i said very slowly so that she could understand.
"*BREATHES HEAVILY* Yes... *Breathes normally* I am fine. I am okay. Just a little shaken up, ya know? Like REALLY shaken up." she replied
just as slow. Kim is my best friend, she has been since she moved. She told me everything and she still does. All of her incidents, her past,
she also told me ALL of the mental illnesses that her mom swore she had. I knew that what her mother said was all bullcrap. She was a liar.
She lied to her own flesh and blood, that she was mentally ill. And not with one thing, NO, with thousands of illnesses. It was pathetic.
I will always be there for Kim. She can count on that.
"Kim, you need to stop crying, you need to breathe, and i will be there VERY soon. Don't worry if you broke it, we'll fix it. Its not
unfixable. I know it means a lot and i know that breaking it will definately make you feel guilty. But it's just ONE BOX. A box doesn't mean
anything. It's the meaning behind it. The memory. Which you have. You will ALWAYS have that memory. THAT memory, is unbreakable. So even if
we can't fix the box-" *Kim pants* "WHICH WE CAN, which we can-" *Kim's breathing becomes normal* "Then, you will always have that memory.
Okay? Kim, you okay?" i waited 2 minutes for a reply, but never got one.
"Kim?"
"Kim?"
"KIM?"
"OMG KIM!"
"KIM-" then the line broke. No, this can't be happening. She wouldn't do this! SHE WOULDN'T DO THIS! I HAVE TO GET OUTTA HERE!
~Kim POV~
"Then you will always have that memory. Okay? Kim, you okay?" i couldn't answer. I wanted to but i couldn't. I mean, my mom thought that
sending me here would 'help' me, but... I'm not better. I am not better. And i broke this box. I broke it. Just like i technically killed HIM.
He would be SO disappointed. He would hate me! And my dad, if he EVER knew what was going on... HE WOULD HATE ME TOO! AND MY MOM! She already hated
me. I mean, why else would she get rid of me. Willingly. I am hated. I AM HATED BY JERRY, MY DAD, MY MOM. PROBABLY THE DOJO FOR SAYING I
COULDN'T BE FRIENDS WITH THEM! I am the most hated human being in the world.
"Everyone hates me" i said barely above a whisper.
And then i couldn't talk. I couldn't move. And shortly after that: I. Couldn't. Breathe.