Note: Oh my... I just... I don't even know about this one. The idea popped in my head out of nowhere so... yeah. It's a tab bit weird. Anyway, I hope you guys that take the time to read it like it! I, sadly, do not own Big Time Rush.
In that hospital room
I visited you every day
We all did
Me, Kendall, Logan, Mama Knight, and Katie
We were there for you
Even though you weren't there
You couldn't think
Your brain had stopped working
In that hospital room
I visited you every day
And that forsaken machine
That kept you alive
For three months
I could see you suffering
The pain in your drained eyes
and the paleness of your skin
I couldn't stand to see you suffer
I wanted to let you go in piece
But I couldn't
I loved you too much
To let you go
None of us wanted to let you go
We wanted you to stay
To get better
To return to your normal self
It took forever to finally realize
That you would never come back
The day before you died
I held your hand
You held it back
I felt a spark of hope
That you would see me
Recognize me
Love me
I talked to you all night
Kendall and Logan by my side
We talked to you
We told you everything
That we loved you
How much we missed you
How much we were going to miss you
When you finally left
You listened
I know you did
I could see it in your eyes
In the faint smile that only I could see
We talked to you
For hours
Even though you were already gone
You had stopped breathing a long time ago
We just didn't want to let go
We couldn't
We wouldn't
You were our best friend
Carlitos
We know you can hear us now
Clearly
And I know that you miss us
As much as we miss you
A day doesn't go by
When I don't see your smile in the clouds
Your laughter in the sunlight
Your life in the stars
I'll find you one day
Carlitos
I promise
And we can be together
Forever
I'll never stop thinking about you
Never
I promise
I'll find you
And we can be together, again
I love you
My Carlos
My Angel.
Note: I started crying halfway through. Is that bad? Like it? Hate it? Leave a review!
Kendall: *sniffs*
James: THAT WAS SO SAD
Logan: WHY DID YOU WRITE THIS?
Carlos: Hey, at least you guys don't get abused in every story she writes! I've been a mute, gotten in a car crash, had an abusive mother, almost died form asthma, and I actually died here!
Kendall: Yeah, she's evil.
Me: Boo.
Kendall, James, Carlos, and Logan: *screams and runs as far as possible from abusive fanfiction writer*