Hope for the Hopeless

Hope for the Hopeless

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
Or speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So I say to you:

"Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home"

Prologue – I will fight for you

My dearest Juliette,

It took me two months to convince your brother that letting me send this letter would do no harm. I finally got the address. I meant to write much sooner, but no one would allow me, not your family nor mine. The past two months have been the hardest of my life. Not knowing how you are is torture. I miss you every day, and when you come back, I'll never let you go again. I know you can't answer my letter, and I don't want you to because I know it's best if you keep out of touch with me until you're ready. But I wanted to explain what happened to you, the night you got hit by a car. I've talked to Alice about it, because she's been asking me questions, and she helped me convince Edward that it was best to explain it to you right away. You never got hit by a car that night. There wasn't even a car on the road. Chase attacked you. I'm very much ashamed to tell you this but my own cousin tried to kill you. I had to talk him out if it after you left that night. He told me that I was being insane, falling for a vampire. How could I? My father was killed by one of them. But I didn't listen to him, I would never listen to someone who's trying to keep me from you. Chase and Aiden got into a fight because Chase almost exposed us. Chase also asked Aiden to force me to make a choice, between you or my family. Aiden never asked me to do that, probably because he knows I would choose you over them, and it would hurt my mother too much. I wanted to tell you who we are, because the first time I tried I couldn't explain half as much as I had planned to.
My father, Ibrahim Wade, was killed almost eight years ago, on my twelfth birthday. He was out hunting with Aiden and their brother Nicolas. It was a vampire by the name of Lucas who turned a vampire when he was twenty-one, and had been one for over sixty years. We knew almost everything about him. We could all feel his presence, even me, at twelve. I felt I was stronger than usual, everything got more easy, I was faster, my reflexes were adjusted to the speed of vampires and even my smell and sight had improved. It was like we adapted automatically, as if we were equal to them. My father had killed Lucas' mate Sophia and tried to track down Lucas as well. They had killed two little children in our village. That night my father and uncles went into the woods. Only Aiden came back with news that Lucas was still alive, still out there. My mother was dying with grief, as were Keira, Tyler and me. Matt tried to keep us all together, but he could never be the man my father had been for us. Aiden came to live with us, along with his children, Chase and Penny. Their mother had died at Penny's birth. We became happy again, and I promised myself that I would find Lucas one day, and kill him. On the day my mother and Aiden got married I found him. He was coming after Aiden but I found him first, and I killed him. That was a year ago. Besides him, I never killed one of you, and if you want me to, I don't intend to do so any longer. Although I'm still sorry for not killing James that day, I was too busy trying to see if you were alright and he got away. If I had not let him go, Bella wouldn't have gotten hurt and..it doesn't matter anymore. I'm sorry I could not save you. I'm sorry you think you have to leave to protect me. I'm sorry I didn't write sooner. Please come home,

All my love,

Caleb.

Chapter 1 - Hoping for their safe return

To see Edward's car parked in front of me was the one of the best moments of my long life. He got out so fast I barely noticed it, I was just staring at the car, waiting for it to be real. It was, finally it was real. It took me four months, which isn't as long as usual. It turned out my discipline was still intact after I was changed, it just needed to be perfected again. The plain would prove if I was able to be among human beings again. I knew I would be able, I knew I was strong enough. I was a little proud of myself, out in the real world again, standing there, waiting for my brother. He ran toward me and hugged me so intensely it made me cry. The past four months I had called him a lot, I was only allowed to talk to my family once a week. Mostly I talked to Edward or Carlisle. I had missed talking to Alice and Jasper a lot. I had missed Esme's tenderness, Emmett's spirit and Rosalie's silent presence.

"I missed you so much." I whispered and I tried to wipe away the theirs before he could see them. I looked at him and smiled.

"You look happy." I said.

"I am." He smiled back and took my hand to walk with me to the car.

"Alice changed your room." He said when we were in the car. "It's quite charming." Edward grinned and when I tried to read his thoughts he was thinking about something else.

"I'm not going to spoil the surprise for you! By the way, Alice already knows you'll love it."

I was staring out of the window when I started to recognize the environment. It was nice to be heading home. There was soft music coming from the radio, I didn't recognize it, it made me calm. I looked at the lights of the cars in front of us, smelled the smell of Edward's car. Filled with the scent of Bella and my family. It was the scent of home.

"I'm very proud of you Jules." Edward looked at me instead of the road. I couldn't say anything, I was moved by the way he looked at me. He really was proud. He knew I wasn't going to slip, he knew I would never harm any human being. And I was grateful he believed in me.

There it was. Home. It was already dark outside, all of them were waiting outside on the porch. Alice danced towards the car even before it had stopped and she opened the door when Edward slowed down. She kissed my cheek and started to laugh excitedly. After that Carlisle walked towards me with his arms wide open. He and Esme took me in their arms and said how happy it made them to know I was safely home again. After that Emmett walked towards me, picking me up and embracing me, my feet didn't touch the ground until he put me down again.

"Hey little sis." He laughed, and Rosalie laughed too.

"You're beautiful" she said "How have you been? We're all so very proud of you." She smiled and looked more beautiful as I remembered. When Jasper came up to me the others were starting to walk into our house and I followed along with Jasper.

"You're extraordinary Juliette." He told me, of course he could understand what I was going through even better than the others. "We all are very proud of you. I'm so glad you're back, did you know Alice changed your room by the way?" he started to talk as if I never even left, and I was grateful for that. I felt at home right a way. After telling how Tanya and her family had been, Alice came up to me and took my hand.

"You have to see it. And tell me what you think of it right away, be honest. Or I'll ask Edward what you really think!" she started dragging me upstairs and I was followed by Jasper who apparently had helped her with changing my room.

"I even got you new clothes! But we do need to go shopping together soon." I loved shopping with Alice, we always loved the same clothes and we were happy to borrow each others outfits every now and then. So when Alice said "Got you new clothes." She actually meant: "got me new clothes."

When she opened the door and I walked in I couldn't speak. It was beautiful, mostly white and soft colors. There was so much light in my room, even at night. My music collection had moved from the left to the right room and she had put little tags under it to make clear what kind of music was put where. The bed was gone, I wouldn't need it anymore since I wasn't going to get sick anymore. In stead of the bed there was a huge white classic sofa, with white satin cushions in it. On the floor was a very soft carpet, and I couldn't resist taking my shoes of. It was perfect. I really did love it.

"I really do love it Alice. Thank you so much."

"Jasper helped." She said while walking around and looking at the result of their work. Jasper nodded and he walked up to something I didn't even notice before.

"Even Caleb helped a little." He said and he pointed toward the framed piece of art beside him. It was a drawing of my family, Bella and Caleb included, I was even on it myself. I was surprised by the talent, and how we all looked exactly the same in real life. It was so beautiful and we looked so happy on it I felt the tears in my eyes.

"I'll leave you girls alone now." Jasper grinned as Alice danced toward my closet.

"Caleb will be here any minute, so hurry up now!" she said when Jasper closed the door.

"What?!"

"Carlisle invited him, of course."

"Of course." I answered, lost in thought. How would Caleb react. The only thing I heard of him was the letter he send to me. The letter I read at least a hundred times. I had missed him more than anything, and still I was insecure and scared to see him.

"I bought you this." It was obvious Alice was very proud of her choice, she held a deep blue dress in her hands. It was beautiful, very feminine. A strapless dress made of a very soft and classy fabric.

"Put it on!" she said and she started taking of my vest. I got in the dress as fast as I could and it fitted me perfectly, I imagined Alice had tried it on before buying it. After I got the dress on Alice started to fix my hair. It took her five minutes.

"Now get downstairs." She grinned and she knew I was nervous as hell to get downstairs and see Caleb for the first time since four months. I walked slow, surprised on how well I could walk on high heels. Everything seemed more easy since I was changed, everything seemed more graceful. I walked down the first stairs, towards the second that would lead to the living room. I knew if I looked towards the end of the stairs I would be able to see the living room, but I looked at my feet instead. When I finally got the courage to look, there he was. He was even more handsome than I remembered. His dark eyes fixed upon me, his perfect mouth was smiling the most beautiful smile a human being could have ever smiled, or would ever smile. His hand went trough his hair and he shook his head but I didn't understand why.

"How is it possible you are even more beautiful?" he asked when I stood right in front of him.