When Diggle had told me that Felicity was getting ready leave I went to foundry to say bye before her departure. She never mentioned the day, I only knew that she was going to help Barry with some problems he had. She didn't give more information and I didn't ask. Thou, I wanted to.
When I entered, I saw her sitting in her chair, in front of the computers. It was reassuring to have her there.
- Never thought to tell me something? – I asked
- Oliver… - she said, turning around in that chair, looking at me as she was surprised to see me.
- I didn't know you were leaving today. You really thought that I would let you go without a goodbye?
- I thought to call you after – she said and the turn around so she could continue written something on a paper.
- Nice to know
- I'm writing everything you need to know about the system, so you can manage without me. I'm leaving everything activated so you won't have difficulties. I hope you won't blow it up!
- Don't worry. We'll wait for you. Won't do anything before you return – I could see her sigh.
- Oliver – she got up and made a few steps towards me – I'm not coming back.
- Explain yourself!?
- I don't tell you anything about today because I don't like saying goodbye – she paused – I wonted to avoid that… to say goodbye.
- You can't go! We need you here!
- I already told you that I was leaving everything functional so you can do it without me.
- Nothing can be compared with YOUR work!
- You can always call me if you have doubts.
- Is it that necessary that you go?
- He needs me
- I need you!
- You don't need me here…
- I already told you once… I need you here!
- That was before Roy – pause – before Sara…
- Not one of them is capable to do what you do!
We just stood there in silence, seamed like eternity. I honestly didn't know what to say so she would stay. I was loosing her! I was desperately looking for excuses.
- We are a team! THE team arrow! And one of the reasons I can go out there is because I trust you.
- Look, I talked to Barry and I want to help him. He's having difficulties and needs my help. Not only as a IT girl but as a friend, too.
- I understand that but why do you have to leave forever?
- Maybe it won't be forever but right now I NEED to go – she sounded so differently. She was serious. Not her normal self, no babbling …
- Is there a problem?
- No, but it will do me good to stay away from here.
- And the reason for that is..?
- Nothing to be worried about.
- Nothing to be worried about?! You're leaving… and you're saying everything is OK? WHAT"S GOOING ON?!
- Noth…
- Don't say "nothing"! – I stopped her.
- I'm not that important here
- YES you are!
- Let me speak. It's not that I don't like being here. I do. I love my computers and I love helping, but I only do THAT. I'm sitting here, in my chair while everybody else is out there. I don't know how to fight. And I'm the only one.
- Hey – I got closer and put my hand on her shoulder – if we are out there it's thanks to you. No one can do you what you do! I don't like the way you feel about it, you know that your part is essential! It's not the same without you!
- You'll manage without me…
- No – I moved my hand off her shoulder but kept watching her directly – WE CAN'T!
- You understand now why I didn't want to say goodbye, I knew you wouldn't make in easy!
- Without you all this won't work! And there'll be a moment when we'll need more and only you will be able to fix it!
- Well, I can work from Central city, if that's what bothers you. I'll activate another system there – another sigh
- It's not the same!
- Why?!
- I need you 100% and here! With you head here, not helping Barry! What will happen if both of us need you at the same time?!
- I don't know! Please don't make this harder then it already is! Call me if you have any doubts and I'll try to help you – she took her briefcase and was heading to the exit.
- Fe-li-ci-ty! – I was right behind her – we haven't finished!
- I'm already late. You have to let me go…
- I don't want to!
- Please! – she turned around and looked at me – you won't even notice that I'm not here…
- Felicity, I don't want to loose you!
- It's so ironic. You cannot loose something that you never had, though right now it doesn't make any sense.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Well, it's now or never. Moment of truth!
- You CANT leave!
- Why?
- Because I love you!