A/N: For the longest time I felt the need to write this for reasons. Enjoy :D
The blue haired sighed out of pure frustration. Her breath was uneven and shaky, she sniffled. Her eyes were wide, filled with wet tears. The tears slowly streamed down her rosy cheeks. She pulled on her hair trying to rip it out. Slowly looking down to her arm and legs. Scars. The only thing that kept her sane were those scars.
I'm insane she said in a barely a whisper
No one understands
No one cares
They all just want to see you fail
And fail
And fail
And fail again
No one cares
You're so full of crap.
Miku sighed letting out a deep breath, she felt nauseous. Vomit burning in her mouth she swallowed it back. Cringing at the sour awful taste of her mouth. Wiping her nose with her sweater.
This is where I belong, far away from the people who'll harm me she thought
You stupid bitch
You can't hide from the truth forever
It's all-true
Failure
Stupid two-face shit talking cunt!
She undid her ponytails; she hid her face by bringing all her hair in front of it.
The thoughts of suicide are coming back again The thoughts of harming herself are coming back as well.
No one will care. They all want to see me hurt. They all want to see me dead.
That's right you dumb ass
Stop trying to impress them
You're as worthless as them
Or even more
Why can't you be normal for once?
She remembered the memories of her life.
when did it all go wrong? Perhaps when I opened my big mouth back in the 6th grade maybe it's always been like this
Trying and trying again and again
No one sees the effort I put into things
No one notices. They are always unhappy at me. Nothing I ever do is right. I try I really do. I'm not lazy; I'm not a failure…
Am i?
She took another deep breath and exhaled. The thought of jumping of the school roof going trough her head again.
Then they'll finally notice something.
At least it's something
Will anyone truly care?
Will they mourn after the funeral
That is if my parents even care enough to have one
She scratched her head. This could be the last time I see the sky, breath the air. Feel anything. This could be when I finally snap and do it…
Do it you stupid bitch
Get over it
NO ONE CARES!
Jump
Do it.
Miku slowly stood up and looked around.
Should I do it?
Should I end the misery?
Or should I keep trying?
She walked near the edge of the school roof. Looking down, she gulped.
Do it already!
She took a deep breath. A step forward.
One jump and it's all over.