Warnings: angst, weird, possible OOC, slight yaoi,
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A/N: since I know that Fanfiction.net doesn't show up italics, just pretend that every second paragraph is in italics k? thanks!^_~V
Insanity's Thoughts.
Am I insane?
A room, expensively decorated. There's a boy in the over-sized bed, he has the vacant gaze of one who isn't really there. His four friends stand beside the bed, talking to him, trying to make him come back to them. Trying to bring him back to awareness…
If you went insane, would you know?
He doesn't respond to anything they do or say. Sadness…a cloying sadness fills the atmosphere of the room. They're talking about the boy right in front of him. But it doesn't matter. He can't hear them anyway…
Would there still be some form of sanity, some shadow of your former state of mind that told you, you were crazy?
They're talking about him…about why he's in the bed. Why he isn't hearing them anymore. Why he isn't seeing them anymore. Why he isn't…him…anymore…
I think I'm insane.
1 They're wondering if he knows…
Or am I?
2 If he remembers…
Have I ever existed on this Earth?
3 his life…
Did I really do all the things my mind is telling me about?
Remembers the war he fought…and the people he killed…and the reason he's insane…
Or didn't I?
4 Remembers how he used to be…What he used to be…
Am I just some crazy kid, trapped in the same place forever, dreaming about the world outside, and the things he did out there?
5 Their friend…
Have I been in here forever?
6 Their comrade…
I don't remember…why am I here?
Their comrade…who lost his mind after giving humanity its peace. After he stopped to think, and lost the ability to truly see…
Where is 'here'?
7 Where he was…
Have I been here long?
8 What…time…was…
Do I know this place? Are these tears mine? Is anything mine? Does this life I'm dreaming about really belong to me?
9 They're looking at him again. He's crying. Maybe he does remember…
…Who am I? I can't remember my name. Do I have a name? Do I have a body? Am I just an essence of a nothing? Just a few fleeting thoughts, a scent on a breeze, a whisper of a promise?
"Poor Wufei", they're saying. He fell in love with the enemy. Or did the enemy fall in love with him? What would they be doing? Where would Wufei be now, if Khushrenada hadn't been killed…by him…
A promise…
Did they have their lives worked out? Had a pact been made? A promise…that they would always be together?
I think someone gave me one of those once.
10 Was it Khushrenada's death that had driven Wufei mad?
Didn't they? Didn't…he?
11 Did he even remember Treize?
…'He'?
12 Was his mind, even now, trying to work out what was going on?…
I know someone.
13 Or had everything that was Wufei…
I remember someone.
14 Gone…
Or do I?
15 His memory…
I can see someone I know. There are four of them.
Are they my friends? Do I have friends?
16 His self-knowledge…
Do I have eyes?
17 His senses…
Are these my thoughts? Are these…my memories?
18 Had they all been lost, along with his mind…
…
19 Did he know…
Am I insane?
That he was insane…
AN/::/ *blink* well that was strange. *shrugs* oh well, I blame exhaustion.
Archive: www.personalescapes.com/gundam?gw_fs.html
http://zizania.org/meghan, if you want me, please ask first^_~
Disclaimer: Gundam not mine…got it?
Feedback: the_spirit_of_epyon@hotmail.com please review!
A/N: since I know that Fanfiction.net doesn't show up italics, just pretend that every second paragraph is in italics k? thanks!^_~V
Insanity's Thoughts.
Am I insane?
A room, expensively decorated. There's a boy in the over-sized bed, he has the vacant gaze of one who isn't really there. His four friends stand beside the bed, talking to him, trying to make him come back to them. Trying to bring him back to awareness…
If you went insane, would you know?
He doesn't respond to anything they do or say. Sadness…a cloying sadness fills the atmosphere of the room. They're talking about the boy right in front of him. But it doesn't matter. He can't hear them anyway…
Would there still be some form of sanity, some shadow of your former state of mind that told you, you were crazy?
They're talking about him…about why he's in the bed. Why he isn't hearing them anymore. Why he isn't seeing them anymore. Why he isn't…him…anymore…
I think I'm insane.
1 They're wondering if he knows…
Or am I?
2 If he remembers…
Have I ever existed on this Earth?
3 his life…
Did I really do all the things my mind is telling me about?
Remembers the war he fought…and the people he killed…and the reason he's insane…
Or didn't I?
4 Remembers how he used to be…What he used to be…
Am I just some crazy kid, trapped in the same place forever, dreaming about the world outside, and the things he did out there?
5 Their friend…
Have I been in here forever?
6 Their comrade…
I don't remember…why am I here?
Their comrade…who lost his mind after giving humanity its peace. After he stopped to think, and lost the ability to truly see…
Where is 'here'?
7 Where he was…
Have I been here long?
8 What…time…was…
Do I know this place? Are these tears mine? Is anything mine? Does this life I'm dreaming about really belong to me?
9 They're looking at him again. He's crying. Maybe he does remember…
…Who am I? I can't remember my name. Do I have a name? Do I have a body? Am I just an essence of a nothing? Just a few fleeting thoughts, a scent on a breeze, a whisper of a promise?
"Poor Wufei", they're saying. He fell in love with the enemy. Or did the enemy fall in love with him? What would they be doing? Where would Wufei be now, if Khushrenada hadn't been killed…by him…
A promise…
Did they have their lives worked out? Had a pact been made? A promise…that they would always be together?
I think someone gave me one of those once.
10 Was it Khushrenada's death that had driven Wufei mad?
Didn't they? Didn't…he?
11 Did he even remember Treize?
…'He'?
12 Was his mind, even now, trying to work out what was going on?…
I know someone.
13 Or had everything that was Wufei…
I remember someone.
14 Gone…
Or do I?
15 His memory…
I can see someone I know. There are four of them.
Are they my friends? Do I have friends?
16 His self-knowledge…
Do I have eyes?
17 His senses…
Are these my thoughts? Are these…my memories?
18 Had they all been lost, along with his mind…
…
19 Did he know…
Am I insane?
That he was insane…
AN/::/ *blink* well that was strange. *shrugs* oh well, I blame exhaustion.