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Warnings: shonen ai
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For Now.
It's incredible the turns life can take. It was just a basic theft job, but it led me to you, and after meeting you nothing in my life was ever simple again. That moment in the clearing, when you calmly announced you could no longer support that fool Gouki or myself, and ran off to heal your stupid ningen mother, something inside me…moved.
I began to change, your cool soft tones washed over me and began to rewrite everything I am. Then in the warehouse, when I was about to shove the Shadow-sword through Yusuke, you threw your own body in front of it, almost killing yourself for a lowly human. When I saw the sword pierce you I felt the strangest twinge in my heart, at the time I didn't understand what it was. I had never felt anything like that before.
I told Yusuke the reason I chose you for my partner was to avoid fighting you myself. It sounded like I was afraid I would lose to you, but I was more afraid I would win. To watch you die by my hand…I couldn't bear it. After a time, I began to care again, something I never thought I could do. You re-taught me lessons I thought I had forgotten forever.
Trust. Care. Friendship.
…Love
Before I met you I had no pesky feelings, no one to worry about, before I met you my life was free. And looking back on it now I realize just how horrible it would have been if I hadn't changed. I would have gone through life bitter, cold, and without a true reason to fight. Power, strength, these are reasons, but they are empty. I know now why people like Yusuke, a save-the-day superhero as I called him, why they always defeat those like me.
It's because they have someone to fight for, not something. And now that I have someone to fight for I will never truly be weak. You're that someone Kurama. It's because of you I fight, because of you the icy barrier around my heart has melted.
Strange to think there could be ice at the core of a fire demon, but true nonetheless. For is it not also true that at the very core of a burning, fiery comet, there is ice? You enveloped my heart in your warmth and refused to back down. Refused to let me retreat into myself again. And for that alone I would love you.
But all the things you've done for me during our friendship, caring for me, looking out for me, just being there, a comfortable presence in times of good and bad. It makes me reluctant to change it, I want to ask for your love, but I don't want to lose this friendship.
I don't know anything of receiving love, or giving it. But perhaps you can teach me that too. You taught me friendship when no one else could, maybe now you can teach me love.
I value our friendship so much, but if it were love…how different would it be? Yes I think you beautiful, and being able to hold that beauty would be a phenomenal thing indeed, but can it truly be better than what I have now?
Can I risk it? Am I strong enough to gamble our friendship for love?
Maybe one day I will be, but at this time I have your friendship for certain.
And that is enough for me…
For now.
Warnings: shonen ai
Archive: yes, ask first
Please review
For Now.
It's incredible the turns life can take. It was just a basic theft job, but it led me to you, and after meeting you nothing in my life was ever simple again. That moment in the clearing, when you calmly announced you could no longer support that fool Gouki or myself, and ran off to heal your stupid ningen mother, something inside me…moved.
I began to change, your cool soft tones washed over me and began to rewrite everything I am. Then in the warehouse, when I was about to shove the Shadow-sword through Yusuke, you threw your own body in front of it, almost killing yourself for a lowly human. When I saw the sword pierce you I felt the strangest twinge in my heart, at the time I didn't understand what it was. I had never felt anything like that before.
I told Yusuke the reason I chose you for my partner was to avoid fighting you myself. It sounded like I was afraid I would lose to you, but I was more afraid I would win. To watch you die by my hand…I couldn't bear it. After a time, I began to care again, something I never thought I could do. You re-taught me lessons I thought I had forgotten forever.
Trust. Care. Friendship.
…Love
Before I met you I had no pesky feelings, no one to worry about, before I met you my life was free. And looking back on it now I realize just how horrible it would have been if I hadn't changed. I would have gone through life bitter, cold, and without a true reason to fight. Power, strength, these are reasons, but they are empty. I know now why people like Yusuke, a save-the-day superhero as I called him, why they always defeat those like me.
It's because they have someone to fight for, not something. And now that I have someone to fight for I will never truly be weak. You're that someone Kurama. It's because of you I fight, because of you the icy barrier around my heart has melted.
Strange to think there could be ice at the core of a fire demon, but true nonetheless. For is it not also true that at the very core of a burning, fiery comet, there is ice? You enveloped my heart in your warmth and refused to back down. Refused to let me retreat into myself again. And for that alone I would love you.
But all the things you've done for me during our friendship, caring for me, looking out for me, just being there, a comfortable presence in times of good and bad. It makes me reluctant to change it, I want to ask for your love, but I don't want to lose this friendship.
I don't know anything of receiving love, or giving it. But perhaps you can teach me that too. You taught me friendship when no one else could, maybe now you can teach me love.
I value our friendship so much, but if it were love…how different would it be? Yes I think you beautiful, and being able to hold that beauty would be a phenomenal thing indeed, but can it truly be better than what I have now?
Can I risk it? Am I strong enough to gamble our friendship for love?
Maybe one day I will be, but at this time I have your friendship for certain.
And that is enough for me…
For now.