Hey guys, do you know that this is made for my months of absence? And also because of some inspirations I got? Well, if you didn't, now, you know. I also know that there are many stories like this, but, I wanna do one!
Yeah, so, the first chapter isn't a request, it's from me, and yes, you read right, you're going to request what stories you want. Just scroll down and see the rules at my closing A/N. ;)
This is set in AU BTW.
Hope you enjoy..
(P.S. This is dedicated to all my "Dear Diary" readers— also, criticizer, please inform me what's wrong with this story, if there is something.)
Disclaimer: I don't own the anime, the characters and the song. Their awesome makers/writers are the one who owns them!
-Add up. Did you know that Taylor Swift thought that Harry Style's lines in 'Little Things' was dedicated for her?—No offense swifties, though I hope The Directioner's enjoyed this fun fact~ about TS if you didn't know,
Teiji (Presenting): When you're gone
Instrumental…
It's been 2 years since Natsu died… yes, you read right. Natsu's dead. And it's also been 3 years since their marriage.
One year to enjoy their lives together. One year to tell each other all the wishes and secrets. One year. One year was all that they got. One year to be happy at the least.
One whole year
Before that fateful day
I always needed time on my own,
Before fate became cruel
Before the deceiving future
Before all of it
And also before that sad smile
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
The smile that stayed on his face until the very last word he said
She cried there, in the park by the Cherry tree.
The place where he proposed to her
Where she said yes. When she hugged him, kissed him, and started loving him.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone,
This was also the place where they met. That wonderful day
That day when everything started
When fate started to work with the two lovers
When that single petal fell
And when her tears fell
Because of a single drop of a petal from the majestic Cherry Tree, HE met HER.
And the bed where you lied,
"I love you Luce…"
"Yeah, me too"
"No matter what happens, you and I will always be together."
"Yeah,"
"Pinky promise?"
"Pinky promise"
Is made up on your side
"Natsu…"
"Why? Why? Why did you? Why did you s-save me? You could've just let me die!"
The memory of that day came back to her
Her birth- day
That day was supposed to be the best day of her life. It was her first birth-day being Lucy Dragneel. Being Natsu's wife
But then that news came.
War was on its way
Why did it have to happen that day?
Why did Natsu have to be a soldier?
Why did he have to risk his life saving them? Saving her?
When you walk away
"Natsu, please don't go!"
"Gomene, but I need to do it… I need to help the others protect this country…. Defeat the enemy.." There he goes… out for war
"But Natsu…."
"I'll be safe. Trust me Luce," And then he smiled at her
"H…Hmm! be safe!"
"Hai~!"
"I love you…" She whispered
"I love you too"
She smiled
I count the steps that you take
How many months does she have to suffer loneliness?
How many years?
To know, just count his steps…
100…
A hundred years
Tears fell from her eyes; she'll never see him ever again…
Do you see how much I need you right now?
"Men! Charge!" Natsu yelled
"Natsu be careful!" Gray, his best friend, half yelled half said. Worried for his best friend
"Yeah, you too!"
She won't let that happen…
She's going to see him
She's going to the war and see Natsu, she's stubborn yes, she's being stupid yes, but that's love
She's worried that she might not be able to see him anymore
She's worried that he might not see her, kiss her, cuddle her, sleep with her, hug her, and smile at her with that loving warmth anymore
When you're gone~!
"Natsu! Natsu where are you?!"
"Luce?" Curiosity
"Natsu!" Happiness
"Lucy!" Worry
"Natsu!" Happiness again filled her heart
"How did you get here? Never mind that, get out of here Luce! You're life's in danger!"
"I'm powerful Natsu. I can go anywhere I want without being harmed. I'm the daughter of Jude Heartfilia, that's all I need to say—"
"Go back Lucy! It's not safe here!" He cares for her
"No! I want to see you!"
"You will, I'll live Luce. Didn't you say you trust me?"
"I did, but then I counted your steps, it was 100… that just means, I'll wait for a hundred years before I get to see you again…. And I'm scared Natsu…. Scared that I'll never see you ever aga—"A fast bullet was on its way,
"Luce!" Her eyes widened, everything happened so fast
Like a bullet
"Na-Natsu…. NATSU!"
An almost-dead-Natsu was on top of her
Time stopped. Earth stopped. The universe stopped. Everything stopped.
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
"Natsu, please stay alive… please, please, please, please…. Your breathing, control it…. your heart…. Your pulse!" She immediately checked his pulse if he's alive or not
His pulse was slowly fading
"Luce" His eyes were somehow dead but his voice wasn't. It was the husky loving warm voice she always loved "I… love… you…" And with those words said, his eyes closed. His body became cold as ice, his face became pale, and his smile… his smile faltered. Not because he's not happy. It was because he was dead.
When you're gone,
"Natsu? Natsu?! Natsu! NATSU!"
The face I came to know is missing too!
"NATSU COME BACK! YOU'RE STILL ALIVE RIGHT?! YOU'RE NOT DEAD! AND YOU'LL NEVER BE! I WON'T LET YOU!"
Gray who witnessed all, was frozen in his spot. His other friends protecting them
His eyes widening at his best friend's death right in front of his eyes
Earlier he was just telling him to be careful, now he's watching him die. His best friend's wife crying over his demise
He needs to take Lucy away or else his death would be for none.
When you're gone,
"Lucy, get out of here! I know a tunnel that leads to safety!"
"No! I'll stay here with Natsu!"
"If you stay, Natsu's death would be for nothing! He saved you so that you won't die and now you're just wasting your time here? Imagine how Natsu felt the pain when that bullet hit him! When he left you"
"NO!"
Gray had had enough with her stubbornness, so he did this karate thing on her that made her faint due to lack of oxygen
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
When she woke up, she saw white.
She thought she was dead, but no, she was just in the hospital with Juvia, Erza, Levy, Lissana and Mirajane, standing beside her, worried sick.
"What happened? Where's Natsu?" They looked away in an instant
"Tell me what happened?!"
"Lucy" Lissana said in a deep voice, everyone turned their heads to her direction including Lucy, curious as to what she would say next, "Natsu died because of your stubbornness. If you wouldn't have come there, he would still be here!"
"I… I'm sorry" She bowed
"I'm sorry?" As if it was the worst word ever
"Kill me" They were taken aback, well, except for Lissana
"Kill me?" She repeated, "Do you know that Natsu risked his life for YOU?! Because of you he's DEAD! And killing you won't do any good for you and for HIM!"
With that, she left, stomping her way.
"I'm sorry Lucy. She was just… surprised…" Mira bowed her head then followed her sister
And then Juvia, Erza and the others left saying their good byes
"I love you Luce"
That's what she wanted to hear to get her through the day
And make it OK...
And make it okay for her…
To make her feel good again
I miss you.
She misses him so badly that she wants to commit suicide but whenever she does plans on doing that, she remembers Lissana and Gray's words.
He risked his life for her…
Risked his life for her
His life for her
Life for her
For her
For her….
"Natsu" She cried, "Come back… please…."
"I…."
I've never felt this way before,
Agonies, loneliness, hate, self-pities, blaming, and anger…
She felt like she was back with her father again….
That house she escaped
Those feelings she escaped
The person who she left in that mansion
She was free when she did that
But now?
Even if she travels to space, all of the feelings she's feeling right now won't leave her
Everything that I do,
She tried moving on, forgetting him, and tried to be happy
But all was vain
"Natsu, please tell me that you're just playing with me," a tear, "I promise I'll forgive you…" She cooked dinner
She ate spicy food
She went to the cafes that they went together when he was still alive
She visited the park everyday
That park…
Reminds me of you.
Reminds her of him…
And the clothes you left,
She ran to her house, crying, like always, closing the doors, shouting his name, pleading for him to come back to her, opening the door to their room, seeing the clothes of her late husband….
They lie on the floor,
All of it wasn't moved, since that day.
And they smell just like you,
She bent over touching a certain white scarf
The scarf she gave him that day…
Her first gift to him
She smelled it
She continued crying
Oh, that fragrant smell
The smell that she always loved
I love the things that you do!
She missed his little antics
His 'love yous'
His smile
His warm hugs
The way he cuddles her
….
She loves everything that he does
When you walk away
She remembered the time he walked away
"I'm really sorry Natsu… for not trusting you that time… If only… if only I did… If only I didn't count the steps, if only…. If only I HAVEN'T BEEN THAT STUBBORN!"
I count the steps that you take
"1…. 100…. 100 years eh? That's a long time…" She chuckled, still crying
Do you see how much I need you right now?
She's never seen smiling anymore like what she used to when he was still alive…
Everyone suffered from the loss of a great friend
But she suffered more
She suffered the loss of her loving husband
The one and only…. Natsu
*Hiccup*
"LOOK AT WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME! LUCY STAY STRONG! DON'T RUIN YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE OF SOME… SOME…. D-d" she can't say it, "death…." But she forced herself to.
"I need you Natsu…"
When you're gone,
When he's gone….
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
"Just kill me…"
When you're gone,
"Luce… I… love you…."
The face I came to know is missing too!
His smile….
And when you're gone,
"Natsu… please…."
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
"Why? Why me?"
"Natsu please say those words again… say those sweet things again…"
And make it OK...
"And make it okay.."
I miss you.
"miss…"
We were made for each other,
"Match made in heaven? I'm supposed to be in hell for killing my husband!"
Out here forever,
"I love you Luce"
"Pinky promise"
"I'll be safe. Trust me Luce,"
Forever and ever always together
I know we were,
"Yeah, we were for each other…"
Yeah, Yeah! All I ever wanted was for you to know,
For you to know that I'm always there for you
Everything I do I give my heart and soul,
"I'll trade my soul for you Natsu… To be with you"
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me...
I promise…
Yeah!
That I'll…
When you're gone,
Come to you one day
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
By dying
When you're gone,
The cold floor is where I fell when I shot myself
Smiling to myself
The face I came to know is missing too!
This was how he died… but with a better reason
When you're gone,
He saved me, but I wasted his life…. Everything went black….
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...
"Lucy! Lucy!"
I woke up, and thought I was in hell disguised as Heaven but when I looked up, I saw Erza and the others.
"Minna?"
"Lucy, why did you do that?" Erza asked
"I wanted to die…. I couldn't take it anymore"
"Don't give up, that's what Natsu will say" I was surprised to hear Lissana say those words, She smiled at me warmly. I expected her to shout at me and get angry, but, no… She didn't.
And make it OK...
Months followed after that incident, but I wasn't the same anymore.
I had a purpose in life now
I have my Nashi
"Momma, is this daddy's grave?"
"Yes honey. Did you know that…he…he saved lots of people… he saved me"
I miss you!
I miss you…
"Natsu…. Meet your one and only daughter." I smiled
So, did you cry? Tell me if you did. Be honest, I can tell.
And also, he-he, I even wonder how that all happened when they were in war… yep…
Lucy being stubborn… that's just dangerous. SO, be careful and don't be stubborn~
And, and, and, I forgot, the counting the steps to know when the person (step's you counted) will come back is just a made up thing… made by me! Just to match the lyrics
PS. You know the first 'I miss you'? Right? Where she only said, 'I' and then the next 'I miss you' she only said 'miss' and at the ending she said the full 'I miss you'. I'm just telling you about that. It's like a chained word. If you get what I mean.
And sorry for being too unclear about things. To be clear, (somehow), where Natsu and Lucy met and where they fell in love was in the park that I was telling you and they first saw each other was when Lucy escaped home and was crying, the time Natsu saw her for the first time and fell in love with her, a single petal fell. Gets?
So here are the rules as promised:
1)The place should be set in AU
2)The genre's can be Romance, Drama, Humor, Tragedy, High School and many more— not just angst, western and sci-fi and many more...
3)The couples can be: NaLu, One sided NaLi (Only two stories for that couple, I understand how Lissana gets sad and all, I like those stories. So NaLi fans go and review your request! Ooops, only 2 are allowed. Gomene, I'm a solid NaLu fan) Jerza ONLY, GrUvia, Luvia (I started shipping that when Gray was clod to Juvia when she confessed her feelings to him when they were in the castle, though I'm still a GrUvia fan) LaMi, LaLi, LaNa, RoWen, can also be 'Eve and Wendy' , GaLe and FreeRa, I didn't add any more cause' I'm not familiar anymore with the other couples (Familiar meaning, I don't know how to write stories about them)
4)I don't know when I'll make your requests, so maybe in one week or two? If I can manage.
5)And also, if you answer my questions about the anime and some anime, that's the only time; your requests can be made. You can look it up on the internet~! Mostly Fairy Tail and HunterXHunter
Finished, well, that's just five rules that are very simple.
So, first question:
Who were Erza's childhood friends? And who was the man that she treated as her grandpa?
(Easy? yeah, I couldn't think of something)