Ηello guys. I have several ideas of fanfictions the last days n my mind but i am just a beginner on the whole fanfiction thing. unfortunately I'm hardly an E/O shipper and i think this and my bad english will make it more difficult to find some readers. but I'd appreciate and love you if u become one of them! if u like my story just live a review ! a single dot will be enough for me to understand! :D Be gentle ^^

PS: this chapter is kinda weird cause it's the first. I also don't know exactly where this story is going so if u like and want me to continue your ideas will be appreciated :)

~Chapter 1~

She heard her phone ringing at the middle of the night,she looked at the clock 3:52am. This couldn't be for good.

"Benson" she answered trying to adjust to this hard awakening. She had managed to sleep less than an hour. Her thoughts were over Elliot all night. She missed him so much.

" Liv I'm sorry t wake you up, we have a victim down at Mercy, can you go?" Cragen said. She didn't answer for some seconds. She could barely keep her eyes open. "If you''re too tired Nick can handle this by himself" Cragen finally broke the silence. He understood she was tired.

" I'm on my way captain" She finally said and turned off her phone not giving Cragen a chance to answer back. She got up and went to the bathroom to wash her face. This didn't help either. Maybe Cragen was right. It'd be better if she could just go back to sleep, but she was too stubborn to do that. She put on a sweater and her jeans, grabbed her badge and gun and left her apartment.

No longer than ten minutes later she was at Mercy hospital. " Hello. Detective Olivia Benson Manhattan SVU I was informed there's a woman here for me?"

" Yeah, detective come with me" the nurse kindly offered and leaded Olivia outside their victim's room. Nick was outside waiting for her.

" Hey Liv, you look like hell!" he said and patted her shoulder.

" Thanks partner!" she said with a smirk. " what do we have?"

" Loreen Jones, age 19. found at central park. the guy who found her said he was walking with his dog when he heard her screaming, he found her alone and saw a shadow running away. He called 911. that's all" Olivia looked with the are-you-kidding-me expression drawn on her face.

"Walking his dog? At four in the morning? We buy that?!"

" Well Amanda's with him down at the precinct, checking his story. You ready to go talk to Loreen?"

Olivia captured her face between her hands and pushed her hair back. " Yeah let's go." Nick kindly grabbed her arm " Olivia, you sure you are okay? You look like you can use some sleep. you know I can do this or just call Fin.."

" Let's just do it Nick.. I'm okay . Sleep can wait" she faked a smiled at him and stepped in Loreen's room, Nick followed her.

" Hello Loreen, I'm detective Benson, this is my partner detective Amaro. We'd like to ask you a few questions if you are okay with that, or... we can come back in the morning"

Loreen's red eyes stared at Olivia. "No, let's do it now"

Olivia gave her a sympathetic smile." I need you to tell me what happened" . Loreen pulled a scary face as the memories came back

" Um, I don't remember a lot. I went over to my best friend's birthday party. We had a few drinks. I flirted with a guy...then it gets fuzzy. I only remember waking up at central park.

" " Okay Loreen, does your best friend or this guy you flirted with have a name?" Nick asked.

" Yeah, It's Ellen. You can find her address on my i-pod it's in my purse." She muttered. "What about the guy? Did you know him?"

" Um, no Ellen probably does. It was her party. but we only had a drink together"

" You sure of that Loreen? Your rape kit came out positive." Nick told her. Loreen started crying as soon as words escaped Nick's mouth. Olivia kneeled in front of her and hold her hand.

" We are gonna find the guy who did this okay? Why don't you try and have some sleep and we will get back to you tomorrow honey" Loreen wiped her tears away and smiled at Olivia

" Thank you detective"

As soon as they stepped out of the hospital Olivia took a deep breath, as the fresh air hit her

" You want a ride?" Nick offered.

" No it's okay you don't have to. I'll grab a cab"

" Well I know I don't have to, I want to." he said and smiled at her. She nodded and smiled back following him in his car. She fell asleep as soon as she sat on the car's seat. Nick kindly woke her up when they arrived, it was 5:00am. That meant they had to "get up" for work in less than two hours. She knew she wouldn't be able to sleep now.

" Why don't you come up for a drink? Or you prefer to go and catch some wings?" she said.

" Well you seemed like you can get some rest." he replied.

" My sleep is destroyed anyways" she said. "Come" . Nick followed her inside the building and in her apartment. They sat on her couch and Olivia brought a red wine and two glasses. They had a few drinks. Nick noticed Olivia's lost look.

" What is it Liv?" She moved her eyes from the place they'd be looking for the last minutes. The only photo she kept with her and Elliot.

" Nothing. I'm fine you know...tired". She lied.

" You can't trick me Benson. I know you miss him. You two were close weren't ya?"

She nodded. " partners and best friends for 13 years. I just thought he'd say a goodbye, after all we went through together..." her voice cracked and a tear escaped. She quickly wiped it away, hoping Nick wouldn't see it. But he did. His hand caressed her cheek and he looked deep in her chocolate brown eyes.

" Liv, if you possibly think this was your fault by any ways... it's not."

She sighted. " Maybe it was, maybe I did something that got him angry and he didn't even wanted to say goodbye. Pressed him to hard.. I really don't know. I wish I knew.. I.."

Nick stopped her by kissing her lips.. a peck kiss. He didn't know what her reaction would be, but the power of alcohol and the emotions of the moment overcame them both. He deepened the kiss when he saw she didn't pull back. He licked her lips and then put his tongue in her mouth, exploring it and she moaned a little. This little moan turned him on even more. She leaned back on the couch and need climbed on her. His hands slid up under her sweater tossing it on the floor and seconds later her bra followed. She unbuttoned his shirt and he helped her take it off of him. He placed his hand on her hips squeezing them and starting kissing her neck, slurping it and made all the way down to her breasts capturing them with his hands teasing her nipple with his hand and sucking the other. She moaned out of pleasure and pressed his head deeper on her. This drove him nuts.. He went even more down on her abdomen and let his tongue travel across it as he unzipped her jeans and took them away along with her panties with one move.

She was now completely naked. His erection was hurting him in his jeans so he did himself a favor and took them off too before Olivia had the chance to do it herself. He parted her legs apart, his fingers tracing on her thighs, and he placed soft kisses on her. He caressed her groin and she moaned again. Her hands automatically removed his boxers as she couldn't take it anymore." I want you" she whispered. Nick dropped his head between her legs, licking her vagina, drinking her juice. Olivia felt her orgasm coming as her muscles contracted. She wrapped her legs around his head and pressed it deeper in her. Nick felt her orgasm,but he didn't stop. He only found her clit and started sucking harder. " Oh my God.." Olivia moaned loudly. She tried to catch her breath. Nick moved closer to her and kissed her lips passionately.

He moved and sucked her ear and put two fingers inside her." God Liv you're so wet" he said. Her thighs clenched as he slide his fingers deeper. She needed him inside her. But in order to do that she had to help him a little. She moved down at his hard dick. Her hands caressed his balls and she started licking the head of his dick and moving to the base of it. " Mmm Oh, God. You're so good..." She felt his enjoyment and took all his dick in her mouth, moving it in and out in a slow pace so she could torture him. He continued sucking her nipples. As he went closer to come he gently pressed her head on his dick. A small moan escaped from her. She understood he was ready to come and took his dick off of her mouth, her body still crying out for him. He moved inside her slowly, letting her to adjust to his size. He then started moving faster and faster and they both ended up having their orgasms as he came in her...

Olivia opened her eyes and saw the clock. 7:20am. She must have fallen asleep. Her head was hurting her and she was still so tired. She tried to stoop up, its then that she noticed she was naked..and that there was someone else next to her. She turned her head and saw naked Nick sleeping. Some flashbacks of last night pumped in her head. "Oh my God.." she screamed. Nick opened his eyes. Olivia grabbed her sweater from the ground and covered her body.

" Wow" Nick screamed as he realized what had happened. Olivia tossed him his boxers, not looking at him..

" I uh, I'll go and get dressed in the bathroom, I'll wait there till you are dressed." she muttered and left. Few minutes later Olivia gave Nick a cup of coffee and sat next to him.

" What the hell happened last night" she said staring at her cup of coffee.

" I don't know Livvy, Well I know obviously but, don't really remember many things..I'm sorry Liv" he patted her arm. She jumped at his touch. "Sorry, I don't know why I did that.. I.. I .. you should probably leave. We're already late for work."

He nodded and made his way to her door " what will we say to Cragen?" . Olivia thought for a while

"we had a few drinks, wasn't easy to wake up in the morning" she said and gave him an awkward smile as he left.

An hour later Olivia stepped in the precinct. Nick was already there.

" Oh my God I'm so sorry cap" Cragen was obviously angry.

" Save it Olivia, ask Fin to fill you in with what you missed" he said and slammed the door behind him as he walked in his office. Fin tried to calm the atmosphere.

" It's okay Liv, we all get too tired, he's just like that cause IAB is on his head all day" Olivia sighted

" What for?"

" You... they think you've been getting worse since Elliot left the unit..and keeps pressing him to press you more and more" Olivia was about to speak but Fin interrupted her " Let's not talk about this now though okay? Cap said I should fill you in. So me and Munch went over at Ellen's and found this guy's name Arthur Donan Ellen's brother. He's in the interrogation room , you wanna come with me?" She nodded not giving a single look at Nick. She felt so embarrased, couldn't believe what happened last night, and she let it happen.

" Arthur Donan, 30,you were charged with sexual assault two years ago.. and you flirted with Loreen Jones at your sister's party. explain yourself" She said and dropped the file on the desk.

" I don't have something to explain, you said it yourself. My sister's party. I had every reason to be there."

" Of course you did with a bunch of young girls ten years younger than you must have been a great opportunity" Fin said trying to trick him.

" It was man, I ended up having a threesome you know..."

" What about Loreen, she refused to participate in your little private party so you raped her?"

Arthur hit his feast on the table " what? I didn't rape anyone you bitch"

" Calm down sex idol.." Fin warned him and stepped protectively in front of Olivia.

" What are you her pimp?" Olivia tried to control herself... she was slowly breaking down.

" What about a DNA sample? That would be a great help for both of us, if you are not the rapist, I'll do my self a favor and stop seeing your face, and you will walk out of here"

Arthur stepped near Olivia his face only a few cm away from hers.. He grabbed her hand. " You want DNA? Take it yourself" he said and put her hand between his pants. She smiled ironically, she then kicked him and "defused" him by twisting his hand so hard. He screamed in pain.

" Don't mess with me" She said and stepped out of the interrogation room.

" Olivia,my office now!" was all Cragen said. She sighted and followed him. All she wanted to do now is disappear, not think of yesterday's events not think of Elliot, just disappear and be alone. " Close the door" he ordered and she did so.

" Captain I.."

" Don't you dare to talk! I don't wanna hear any of your crap. I'll need your badge and your gun" Olivia froze " I'm suspended ? Why?!"

"IAB wants me to give you at least ten days of personal time off. I'm just making sure you're taking it. For your own sake. Now Go..."