And while she had it all
I lacked it at all
She was the star
I was the sky
Holding her up
Allowing her to shine
And she never knew I cared
Never bothered to see what was wrong with me
Selfish, selfish, selfish girl
Should be sent to the corner
To the corner to cry and hide and for once in her goddamn life
BE WRONG
But she could never be wrong
She is the earthly angel
And I am the hellion
They say I destroy her in my flames
Oh, they call me many things
Bitch, rebel
WITCH
DELINQUENT
All true, all true, but not all there is
But I'm nothing when compared to her
And now I know I have to bring her down
I have to be the one to destroy her
She is the enemy
She is the war
I will never have to fight because she is my battle
How could I have ever been so ignorant?
How could I have EVER believed her sham?
"You are my best friend, Sam."
Bullshit. To hell with that
She never meant a word
So I have to let her go
I can't bear the competition for another second
With my heart beating, beating, beating
I raise the answer over my sweating, sobbing face
She flinches in fear
Screams for mercy
But I'm deaf, I can't hear
"Why?" she yells
It's the only thing I've heard
But I feel no guilt
No remorse
My heart is completely black
I use the answer and I steal away her last breath
And I see her fall, her eyes open wide and
Paralyzed
And I attend her final celebration
But it's not full of the sunny glee she radiated
It feels like she's still here
But I know it's not true
Not true because I made it that way
I'm used to having the last guffaw
I'm used to revenge
But this feels horrible
Like a hole has been bitten into my heart and is infecting my soul
If I have a soul anymore
Killing rips apart the soul
Immorality… didn't know I had so much
I never have to commit another dastardly deed
My last has been completed
And as they haul me away to where my bloodline calls
I know the punishment was not worth it
I'd been too perched on the edge
I'd killed my enemy
If that's what Shay was.