Hey I know everyone does this and well this is my first fanfic. I hope you enjoy, it just had popped into my head.

Do not own "Sonny with a Chance" blah blah blah lol

I was Afraid…

I closed my eyes in the small attempt of trying to cope with the rush of pain and agitation that rushed into my newfound dwindling heart. He had to say those words. He had gone too far this time and by the silence that followed, maybe even he realized it as well. Why did he have to say those words that seemed to pierce into my very heart and perhaps forever leave a scar?

Of course, we bickered and bantered before, yet this was different. It was more than a personal thing for him to say something so harsh and indignant. Well, he had gotten his revenge and that was how it was going to be. My eyes were still closed tightly as the waves of pain seem to lessen and lessen. I felt dizzy as my senses seemed to control themselves at the moment.

I was afraid to open my eyes and see the man who had put me to the ground of humiliation and shame. I was afraid that maybe he was still standing there watching me with his cold iced colored eyes of his and waiting impatiently for me to respond. I was afraid that my heart wouldn't be able to take it.

As the moments to minutes passed, my courage seemed to grow as well. I finally opened my left eye to see…no one. He had left without an apology or even a goodbye. My heart sunk in the thought of his lack of sensitivity and feelings. It was truly unlike him to just simply leave. Just like that without a word or even a noise.

I stood there senseless for what seemed to be quite awhile in the hallway. Thoughts swarmed my mind of his words and they nearly overwhelmed me. In reality, the words were not that harsh, but they were to me. One could even scoff at the idea of it truly being a painful insult or take it to heart. The combination of who said it, how it was said, and why it was said were truly the reasons it slammed so hard into my heart.

I could still hear the words he said as the whole scene of the incident replayed as a movie in my mind, well, more like a horror movie for me.

"You're not even worth it. You're worthless, you hear me? Worthless piece of trash! Actually not even that, trash is worth more than you Sonny Munroe."

Every girl is whether knowingly or not wants to be 'worth' it for someone, and most of all for a guy. For someone to say that as venom, purposely trying to cut you down, just simply made me want hide away from the world where cruelty was the norm thing. He had shouted it making sure I and everyone else in the cafeteria just around the corner in hearing range would fully hear and understand what he said.

The thought of crying to release my miserable state sounded almost…delightful, yet I couldn't and wouldn't give Chad Dylan Cooper the satisfaction, whether knowing about it or not, of his influence over me. I didn't like it, but he had it. Perhaps he knew and perhaps he didn't, the truth was that he had it. I wanted to hate him for what he did; however, I knew what I had to do. It completely burst my bubble of self pity as the thought had entered my mind and was beginning to nag me now. Why did I have to be so merciful?

I sighed heavily and tried to forget the thought that was now pounding on my doorstep begging me to forgive him.

"No" I whispered to myself. "Not this time…" I was about to start a whole tirade on why I shouldn't forgive him when my train of thought was suddenly interrupted.

Someone was walking down the hall and the urgency to move hit suddenly. I began to rush/walk to my dressing room and hoped to find some comfort on my bed. I walked even faster, almost running not wanting to think or explain myself for anything or anyone. The footsteps behind me immediately increased when mine had which made my heart leap in surprise and unreasonable fear.

That's when the ridiculousness of running from a stranger or anyone in fact hit me. I stopped short, and put on one of my smiles trying not to show how affected I was by what Chad had said before. I silently laughed at myself for being so silly as to just run away from footsteps.

"Hey…what's up?" I asked quickly when I saw it was Tawni who had nearly run into me from stopping so short.

"What's up? " She crossed her arms in a fit of agitation. "Are you serious Sonny?!"

I shrugged hoping to somehow avoid the whole issue of the incident, but apparently she had seen the mask of nothing-just-happened-that-really-hurt-me mask that I had just put on for her.

"I can't believe Chad said that to you!" she was surprisingly looked really upset about it, even though it wasn't about her. "When Chad Dylan Cooper says that to one of the So Random! cast, he is saying that to all of us and he will not get away with that…miss fake sunshine." She added nodding toward my fake smile. I frowned with the last part showing her my real feelings.

"Uh, maybe fake sunshine is better, BUT anyways, we need to figure out a way to get revenge for what that idiot said. I'll go get the rest of the cast and let them form the plan!" she clapped her hand in evil excitement turning to fetch them.

"Ok look, Tawni, it was my fault in the first place." She raised an eyebrow, but let me continue. "I had started the whole fight thing and he had a right to say what he thinks about…" I stopped trying to hold myself together as my heart ached thinking that is what he really thought of me.

Tawni looked at me sympathetically, and softly tapped my shoulder from a distance 'trying' to be comforting. I somewhat laughed at this since she was being nice, yet not putting herself all out there. That was Tawni for you, and I didn't mind. I laughed out loud and hugged her hard.

"Oh umm… okay." She let me hug her for a moment and then pulled me off of her quickly.

"Look, I am not going to let that snob-nosed-jerk treat you like that, you're my…" she hesitated but then let it out there, "…friend" I smiled immensely "and anyways, we'll only give him a taste of his own medicine." She insisted quite loudly I might add.

She turned to leave again when I grabbed her arm to stop her. I let go as she turned to face me again.

"Sorry, Tawni, but as much as that would be totally amazing. I can't let you do that. Look, it's between me and Chad." She frowned and pouted, but my will held strong although it felt as if someone had set me on fire to say no. "Thank you though Tawni….it really meant a lot to me." I genuinely smiled and she hesitantly nodded.

"So…what are you going to do then?"

I winced knowing she was not going to have too much enthusiasm for my decision.

"Apologize."

Hoped you liked it! Constructive criticism is well appreciated. Please let me know if you liked it and if I should continue or not?