PREFACE
He was my love, my little ray of sunshine in a dreary, cloud covered town, and it had been too long since I had seen him last. You would think that after all this time away from him, that my only wants and needs would be too see him again; to be with him always. No. My wants and my needs have changed, evolved to protect something bigger than myself, something I care for more than I ever cared for Edward.
All I want, is to be safe, is to protect my new ray of sunshine, my new light in the darkness. Of course I still loved Edward with all of my being, but my wishes were no longer about him, or for him. They were for her, my new light. I used to wait and wish to be back in his arms, and now I wait and wish to protect her, to keep her safe, to will that nothing will ever hurt her. I would never let anything hurt her, in the name of my existence I would never let her be harmed.
So we will keep running, never stopping, never letting the evil get to us. Never. Never. Never again.
CHAPTER ONE- The Beginning
ISABELLA
I placed both my hands on his face, "Edward, trust me won't you. I'm going away for two weeks to see my mother. I think I'll be okay. Nobody is going to hurt me." I said for the fifth time in the past 30 minutes.
"But Bella, how do you know that nothing will hurt you? I can't take that risk love." he pleaded as I sighed.
"Edward...I'm going to miss you too, don't you understand that? But I think I need some time with my mother, just us two. I know that Phil will be there but I need some girl bonding time like I used to have with her. I'm a big girl Edward and you know I love you, but I will be fine!" I begged. Its not like I didn't want him there, I would always want him, it's just that I need to spend some time with my mother before I would become a vampire.
"I know what you mean but I could hide in your room just to protect you. I could follow you around and nobody would know, love. I can't take the risk of possibly losing you. I love you too much to let that happen."
"I will always want you Edward, always. But if you were with me all the time even without others knowing it, I would know and I wouldn't feel free enough to talk to Renee like I used to. I couldn't tell her things without you hearing them or reading her thoughts about them!" I said, "I really do love you and I know that I will be fine. Nothing that can't be solved will happen." He sighed and shook his head.
I knew I had won the argument. "Fine. Now, you really need to sleep, I don't want you being tired when you leave tomorrow." I leaned forward and kissed him with passion. He kissed back but soon broke off.
"Bella you know my limits." He warned me as I started unbuttoning his shirt.
"I know them. You worry too much, Edward. I only want a going away present, is that to much to ask? I mean, I won't see you for two whole weeks..." I said suggestively. Running my fingers down his chest, I felt his muscles tighten.
He brought his lips to mine once more and I revelled in the feeling. Just as I thought he would stop, his tongue found its way into my mouth. I moaned into the kiss and before I knew it he was pulling up my pyjama top, as slowly as he could manage. "Bella," he whispered.
"Mmm?" I sighed in bliss as he ran his fingers over my stomach. I ran my fingers through his hair and tugged ever so slightly.
"I'm not going to stop..." He whispered while kissing my neck. I felt my stomach flutter and tighten in anticipation.
"Please don't ..." I moaned back, pulling his lips towards mine.
Tonight, we made love; for the first time. Something that we hadn't (or rather Edward hadn't) planned on doing until our wedding night. It was by far, the best night of my life.
I awoke to a sudden feeling of emptiness. "Bells, you have to get up, we have to drive to the airport soon." Charlie said. I sat bolt upright quickly.
"Okay dad..." I mumbled, Charlie's eyes were wide and his mouth hung open. A faint blush appeared on his cheeks. "Dad..."
"Bella why are you naked?!" He shouted and slapped his hand over his eyes. I looked down and quickly pulled the sheet up.
"I…uh, must have fallen asleep after my shower..." I blushed a deep red and Charlie just mumbled something like 'hurry up and get ready'. I jumped up and ran to the bathroom. I took a short shower and washed my hair.
When I was about to step back into my room I realised that Edward wasn't there when Charlie had come in. He was sitting on my bed now though. "Morning love," he smirked
"Hi..." I squeaked. I walked over to my chair and pulled off it the clothes I had put there last night. I dropped the towel and Edward gasped. "What, you've seen me naked Edward..." I said cheekily. I had just put on my underwear and bra. He rushed to my side and embraced me gently.
"Bella, I am so, deeply sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you! I should have known better than to do that! Though I don't regret it, it was one of the best nights of my existence, I hope that you don't regret it," his eyes pleaded and I smiled back at him, before I could tell him how much last night had meant to me, he continued, "I hurt you I am never going to be able to forgive myself."
I was confused. I placed my hands on his chest and gazed up at him again.
"Edward, you didn't hurt me. Besides the normal pains for the day after losing your virginity, I'm fine...and it was so worth it, Edward." I said looking him in the eyes, smiling. His returning smile was forceful.
"Have you looked in the mirror, Bella?"
"No..." I walked over to my mirror. I had two huge bruise on both of my sides, where Edward had gripped to hard. But that was it, oh and some bruising...down there...I could feel it.
"It's not that bad. You know how easily I bruise Edward." I sighed and pulled on the rest of my clothes. He still looked depressed. "Edward, I love you and I wouldn't take back what we did last night."
He smiled goofily and hugged me. "Now, off you go and come in like a human would you..." I said cheekily and lugged my things downstairs.
"Morning, Bells. Sorry about...you know...earlier on..."
"It's alright dad." I grabbed myself a bowl of cereal.
"Bella, you weren't naked because you were having sex right?" I almost choked on my cereal.
"Dad, what! No!" I managed to get out before choking down the rest of my cereal.
"Well, you know with...Edward..." We were both blushing furiously now.
"How would he even get in dad? You were on the couch all night. It's not like he can climb walls to get in my window..." I said knowing full well that Edward could and that I was lying to my father. I couldn't believe he didn't pick up on it. I was a terrible liar.
"Yes...good point...I believe you, Bells." There was a knock on the door. "Speaking of Edward..." I laughed and went to go answer the door.
"Morning!" I said cheerily. His mood seemed to have picked up. Oh god! He heard the conversation between Charlie and I. "You know it's rude to listen to other peoples conversations!" I stated quietly. He chuckled and kissed me lightly. I motioned him inside and he said hello to Charlie.
"Okay kiddo we have to get going!" Charlie said. Edward picked up my bags for me and we got into the police cruiser. I rolled my eyes at Charlie's looks at Edward. Edward turned to me and smirked, he knew what Charlie was thinking.
The ride to the airport was quiet but not uncomfortably quiet.
As Charlie checked me in Edward was still fussing over me. "Bella I hurt you and I won't let you tell me otherwise." Edward stated.
"Edward you didn't hurt me!" I practically yelled. Charlie's head turned and a look of rage appeared on his face,
"You hurt my daughter?" He accused. Before either one of the idiotic men in my life could say anything more I intervened.
"I tripped over in biology and hit my side on the bench. Edward seems to think it's his fault because he didn't catch me. It wasn't his fault. Seriously you have known me long enough Edward to know that I'm a klutz!" I said. Great thinking, Bella. You deserve a pat on the back. I thought to myself.
"Right, well, no, that wouldn't be your fault son. I'm glad you're so concerned with Bella's wellbeing though," Charlie muttered, "Well your plane is about to leave..." Charlie continued. He hugged me awkwardly and kissed me on the cheek, "Bye Bells, have fun with you mother, and tell her I said hello. Love ya, kiddo." He said. I nodded and said goodbye. Charlie politely stepped away so I could say goodbye to Edward.
"Good-bye, love. Have fun with Renee." He said and placed his hands on my lower back.
"Good-bye Edward. I love you. Oh and don't think about following me." I said. He chuckled and kissed me goodbye.
"I love you too. I won't follow you while you are at your mother's house. I promise." He said. My plane was boarding and I waved goodbye and walked towards the gate.
"I love you Edward." I said as I was halfway down the walkway to the plane, I knew he heard me. A girl about my age sat next to me on the plane.
"Hey did you see that gorgeous looking man outside the entry. He was fine!" She said. I giggled. She was probably talking about Edward...
"Yeah I did, was he tallish with bronzy hair?" I asked and she nodded, "Yeah, he's my boyfriend." I said happily. She smiled.
"Well girl, you are lucky! He is smokin'. I'm Annette by the way." She said and I shook her hand. We chatted on the whole flight; it was surprisingly one of the best flights I'd ever been on. As I arrived I couldn't wait to see Renee. I had missed her so much. I ran to hug her as soon as I spotted her familiar figure in the crowd.
"Bella!"
"Mum!" We yelled at the same time. We embraced and I could just feel the affection radiating from her. I made sure to put my arms around her waist so she would have to put hers on my shoulders. I didn't want to flinch with any pain from the bruises.
"How have you been, honey?"
"Great mum! What about you? I've missed you so much." I said. We continued in a happy, chirpy, talkative manner until we got home. I haven't been this excited to see my mother in a long time.
For the next week Renee and I talked and caught up and we went shopping and to the beach. We did everything we hadn't done in a long time. It was halfway through my second week when I started to feel sick.
I had gotten out of bed and was sitting with mum and Phil at the breakfast table when I felt my stomach lurch. I ran to the bathroom, narrowly avoiding tripping on the way. I emptied my stomach and groaned into the toilet bowl. Ick.
I slowly pushed myself up from the bathroom floor and grabbed my toothbrush, 'what the hell?' I thought as I scrubbed away the vile taste.
"Honey, are you alright?" Renee asked as I walked back into the kitchen. Her face was full of concern as she grabbed my hand and inspected me.
"Yeah, I just think I may be sick. It might be something I ate, I don't know." I mumbled and looked at the table. Everything I had eaten had seemed normal, I couldn't pick any one product that may have been bad. I shook it off and spent the rest of the day worried I would empty my stomach again, but it didn't come.
Dinner came and Renee dished up her famous chicken stir fry, one of my favourites. I took the first mouthful and swallowed it down, my face contorted as I felt my stomach lurch again as a revolting taste remained in my mouth. "Is it just me or does this taste bad?" I asked, Renee and Phil both looked at me and shook their heads.
"Bella, sweetheart, are you sure you're feeling okay? You're awfully pale, and you love my stir fry!" Renee said, concern evident in her features.
"I, I don't know, mum," My stomach flipped once more, I slapped my hand over my mouth and raced for the bathroom.
As I lay in bed, after emptying my stomach again, I tossed and turned. Every time I closed my eyes I would see strange images. I sighed and wish that Edward was here so he could hum me to sleep. I snuck quietly downstairs and phoned him.
"Bella?" He sighed into the phone.
"Hi. I miss you." I mumbled back.
"I miss you too love. How are you?" I felt content just to hear his voice.
"Uhhh, I think I'm sick, I threw up twice today."
"Bella Bella, what will I ever do with you?" he chuckled, in a much more serious tone he added, "Is it something you ate, maybe you've picked up a gastro virus from someone!"
"That's not fair, laughing at my misfortune." I giggled, "And I don't know, I haven't eaten anything off, and if it was a virus I would be a lot sicker than I am,"
I heard him sigh through the speaker, "Bella I miss you, if I was there I could make it all better," Edward whined.
"I've never heard you whine before, Edward. It's good to hear your voice again. I'm thinking I should just fly home early." I said, knowing I would never do so and Edward wouldn't want me to lose time with my mother.
"I want you to fly home early too." He laughed, "But, you need to spend plenty of time with your mother before...well you know...you don't have to go through with it you know?" I shook my head even though he couldn't see it.
"Edward you know its going to happen, Alice saw it and I want it!" I said loudly, I thought I heard somebody stirring upstairs so I quietened down.
I heard him sigh and I could just picture him pinching the bridge of this nose. "I know, Bella, I just think you could do so much better, so so much better. I don't want to take-" I cut him off,
"We are not getting into this argument now okay!" I huffed and then yawned.
"Love I'm keeping you up, you need to sleep."
"I know, I know. I wouldn't have called so late if I didn't miss you so much and if I could sleep and if you weren't a vampire. But I should go...I don't want to be tired tomorrow."
I heard him chuckle. "Night love. Have a pleasant sleep. I love you."
"I will now and I love you too Edward. Forever, nothing is ever going to change that."
"Far longer than forever I will love you Bella. You are right, nothing will ever change that."
"Goodnight. See you soon."
"Goodnight." I hung up and smiled to myself. He was right, far longer than forever. That line reminded me of the movie The Swan Princess, and the song Far Longer than Forever. I giggled as I made my way back to bed. My love for children's movies improving my mood.
As I was falling asleep, I hummed.
Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here with me
Although we're far apart
That night I thought I would get a better sleep, I didn't. Every time I closed my eyes I had nightmares; none which made any sense. I awoke feeling tired and worn out and then I felt a familiar wave of nausea wash over me. I ran to the bathroom, only tripping once on my way and threw up. Again. "Urgh! I thought it was over!" I moaned to myself.
I was sitting eating breakfast that didn't appeal to me at all, but I still ate it knowing that breakfast is the most important meal of the day. My mother came downstairs looking absolutely horrendous. I just hoped I didn't look as bad.
"Mum, are you all right? You don't look to good..."
"I'm fine dear, I just had a bad nights sleep because my monthly friend decided to pop in a week early!" She complained. I think my eyes just popped out of my head.
"Bella...dear...what's wrong?" Renee asked me. I shook my head, "Do you still feel ill?"
I kept shaking my head, "Yeah...I'll be right back..." I said and sprinted to my room. Oh my god, oh my god, OH MY GOD! This cannot be happening! It can't, it just can't! No, no, no, no, no, no, NO!
There is no way. My realisation had hit me harder than a freight train. I was having strange dreams, I was throwing up, my period was two weeks late! This can't be happening. I took four deep breaths and double checked my calendar. Almost two weeks, not like me at all to be late, and not like me at all not to notice! I pulled my shirt up in front of the mirror. My bruises from our night of lovemaking had disappeared. but instead I was left with a slightly protruding stomach!
That can't be possible, it can't. I mean, Edward couldn't have kids, could he? Vampires couldn't have children! I was sure of it, if vampires could have babies then Rosalie…wait, no…vampire woman couldn't, they don't change, they don't age it's not possible, but...that must mean that if a vampire and a human were to...OH GOD!"
My brain was in overload mode. Vampires plus vampires equals a never changing bodily system that couldn't accept the growing form of a baby. But a vampire plus a human who could change and grow equals… "Oh, god!"
It was all moving so fast, my brain couldn't cope, and my body couldn't cope. I collapsed onto the floor and pulled my knees to my chest. "Shit," this really isn't good. "I'm eighteen, I'm eighteen, I, I, I…" Edward didn't want a baby, did he? No, I don't think so, I didn't know! We'd never talked about him wanting children, only if I had.
Oh god, EDWARD! How the hell was I going to tell him? I felt as though I was going to be sick again. I poked my stomach and took more deep breaths. ALICE! She must have seen this. I picked myself up off the floor and took a few deep breaths; I walked calmly downstairs and found the phone. It took me three goes to get the number right.
It only rang once, "Hi Bella!" I heard Edward's voice in the background.
"Hey Alice, you haven't happened to have had any peculiar visions recently have you? About me..." I knew Edward was there and I didn't want him knowing just yet.
"Nope! Why?" Her voice turned from a cheerful tone to slight apprehension.
"N-n-no reason! That's good, I was just curious. Ummm. Bye!" I practically squeaked into the phone.
"Wait Bella, you're not planning anything are you? Because if you-"
"NO Alice, of course I'm not. I, just, thought you might have some insight into something I've been feeling. I have to go now, bye." I hung up and could hear the shallowness of my breaths. When the phone rang back almost straight away, I knew it would be Edward or Alice, so I didn't pick up. I spent the rest of the day avoiding phone calls and fretting. I needed to get back to Forks and talk to Carlisle; he would have all the answers.
"I'm going to bed, mum. Night, love you."
"Love you too sweetheart, have a good sleep." She said and kissed my head. I seized the phone on my way and was currently dialing and re-dialing his number, I couldn't bring myself to hit the call button. This was the last time I would call. I wouldn't try again. I pressed the call button just as a figure bounded into the open window. I had seen the action so many times that I assumed it was Edward.
"Hello." I froze. There was a vampire, in my room, in Florida, who was definitely not Edward, I dropped the phone and took a step backwards, "Don't worry, I won't hurt you, I just want to take you with me," he said. His voice was like ice, it told you to stay away, but I somehow couldn't bring myself to run.
"Bella?" Edward had picked up his phone and was on the other end of the line. I didn't dare move to pick it up. This mans red eyes sparkled with menace as he laughed. "Bella? Are you there? Bella, answer me..." Edward sounded as though he was about to crush the phone.
"Now..." he smiled and it unnerved me. He pulled out my bag and started throwing my clothes in it.
"What are you doing?" I asked. "I'm not coming with you! And stop touching my things!" I shouted with confidence, even though I knew there was no way I could escape him.
"BELLA?!" Edward said loudly from the other line. The vampire picked up the phone.
"She's busy now buddy so back off. Who is this anyway, your boyfriend, brother, what?" He said directing the last of his words at me.
"Hey! Let me talk to..."
"HUSH UP!" he yelled into the phone, "You answer me, before I do something I'll regret!" he pointed at me.
"He's my fiancé, can I have the phone please." He shoved the phone nearly into my hands before yanking it back again. Edward was my fiancé but I hadn't told Renee or Charlie, they would most likely freak.
"Like that is going to happen" He laughed and hung up. He was done with throwing my things into a bag. His eyes narrowed into red slits as he stepped closer to me.
"Bella, honey are you alright, I heard shouting!" Renee asked through the closed door. Before I had a chance to respond, the intruder had picked me up and thrown me over his shoulder and bounded back out the window. I couldn't scream, I couldn't fight back, all I could do was watch as the ground and trees hurdled past me.
After what felt like an eternity, he stopped, pulling me off his shoulder and into a nearby tree, "You smell really good baby, what I wouldn't give to drink from you!" He said ominously, "But I have much greater plans for the two of us! I'm going to make you, just. Like. Me! Wouldn't you like to know, just exactly what I am? I can see it in your eyes that you know I'm not…normal," he laughed and ran his fingers down my face. This was my only chance to deter him.
"No, you can't! I know what you are, you're a vampire!" the trail his had been making halted. He moved back from me slightly, tilted his head to the side and raised one eyebrow, like he was admiring a piece of artwork in a gallery, "I, I, know a vampire, well, I knew him," I started. He released his hold on me and nodded, waving his hand for me to continue.
"He, well he was the most beautiful person I'd ever met, I never knew how someone could look like that," he nodded once again, agreeing to what I was saying, "Well he, he, seduced me I suppose you could say."
I didn't know how much I could say, or should say to get him to stop from hurting me, and my baby. All concern I had for myself was gone, I had to protect this baby.
"So he seduced you and what, told you all about our kind just because you asked? I highly doubt your story!" he replied, "I don't see why you think this little charade is going deter me from my plans to make you mine,"
"I was getting to that!" I snapped, "He seduced me, we had sex! I'm pregnant, with his baby!" I rushed out.
If he was shocked, he masked his emotions well. He placed his hand over my stomach and lifted my shirt. He poked it slightly as if that would allow him to know if I was telling the truth.
"A vampire I met made me fall helplessly into his game, it was hard to say no, to remember that I was, am engaged to another man!" I took a deep breath. Now everyone who knows me knows I'm a terrible liar, but I guess when your life is at stake, when your baby's life is at stake, the ability to lie simply, increases. To win this man, vampire, over I knew I would have to keep up this charade, "I knew you were a vampire like him, because no human man could ever look like you," my voice came as a shock, it sounded almost…sexy.
"Hmmm," he ran his fingers through my hair, "I find it odd that I believe you. I am assuming that your, uh, fiancé knows none of this happened?" he questioned.
"No. How could I possibly tell him that? I had sex with another man, vampire! I'm sure that the baby is the vampires, no human baby could ever grow this fast!" I hoped that my story was holding up. I hoped that he believed me and would keep me here long enough for Edward to find me.
"Well, it does seem as though you are pregnant. With a vampire's baby might I add? I have never in all my years heard of such an atrocity. I tell you what, seeing as your just, so enticing, I will wait until you have this baby to make you, mine, in every sense of the word," he chuckled and planted a kiss on my cheek, "I do like you…."
"Isabella," I stated bluntly.
"I do like you, Isabella. This relationship shall be interesting. But for now, sleep, we mustn't stay here long,"
I slid down the tree and into a semi-comfortable position on the dry earth. I stared at the back of his head as he paced in a circle in front of me. "It would be nice if I could know my kidnappers name you know," I said in a barely audible whisper, knowing he would hear me anyway.
"Michel, my dear, and there is no reason to think of me as a kidnapper, I am your mate now. And you are mine," he said darkly. I shuddered and closed my eyes.
I held back the sobs that were willing themselves to escape, and yearned for Edward to find me, for if he didn't, I knew that life would be a whole lot worse than sleeping on the cold, hard ground.
AN: So I have just re-read this story, or what I have written of it already. I do remember enjoying it very much when I was writing it the first time. I plan to edit the current chapters and fix the plot line slightly and then continue on writing and hopefully finishing this story. Hopefully those of you who have read the original version will appreciate the edits and an ending! Let me know what you think, I will try to update this as quickly as I can! Thanks for reading.
Nickynoo!