A/N: Another Faith/Buffy one shot.
Summary: Faith reflects
Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS
Starting to Believe:
I never really believed in true love, yunno? All that Hollywood bullshit kinda messed it up for me. All those mushy romance movies where two people ride off into the sunset always seemed so fake. Too perfect, especially considering how imperfect my whole set up was growing up. I won't even go into that, pretty sure you ain't got that kind of time.
I still can't really believe I'm where I am right now though. B, sleeping next to me, in our bed. Yes, ours.
You'd never believe how we ended up together, hell, I barley believe it. In some twisted way I have Robin to thank for it, he was always on my ass about how I 'use men as sex objects'…..yeaaahhh, and? It's not like I was much more than a 'sex object' to all those losers I fucked in the past. It was always no strings attached fun, I never wanted strings.
Still, his persistent nagging got me thinking…and he was right. I did use men as sex objects because all I ever wanted from them was exactly that, sex. So, I dumped his ass (way ta go, doctor phil), grew a pair finally and went to the only person in the world who I've ever actually wanted to do the whole 'relationship' shtick with. Buffy Summers. Yes, I actually asked B on a date. She thought I was joking at first, even started to laugh her ass off.
After asking her multiple times she begrudgingly accepted. And Ta da, here we are.
I pull her tighter against me and can't help but smile when she snuggles closer to my side. It amazes me how right this feels, us being together, it's easier then breathing. Things that normally scared me shitless are now comforting and come so easily. Snuggling, nose kisses, hugs, cuddling, everything. I could be stressing out big time and all B has to do is let me hold her, wicked tacky, I know. But just her being near me, her scent, the feel of her skin, the tingle of our slayer bond, it calms me…or makes me wicked horny, cause if you haven't noticed, B is wicked hot.
She also has a way of making me feel things i'm not so used to feeling. She can smile at me and i will feel happier then i thought possible...she can frown and i will feel an overwhelming urge to make her feel happy again...she can act silly and i can act silly too without feeling like a dumbass...she will look at me this certain way and i feel like i matter to someone.
I never believed in soulmates or true love or any of that. Now, I'm starting to believe. B makes me feel whole….makes me feel loved….makes me feel something I've never felt before…is this love…?
I feel her shift slightly next to me. "Baby…what's wrong? Having trouble sleeping?" B mumbles groggily into my chest.
"Nah, just thinking. Go back to sleep babe." I kiss her temple and pull her tighter to me.
"mmm" She yawns quietly and places a small kiss on the area just above my heart, before closing her eyes again and instantly drifting back to sleep.
Is this love? If it isn't … I don't know what is.
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A/N: Well thats the last one shot i'm gonna do for a while. Had a bunch thought up over summer and I'm amazed i actually got most of them written out finally o.O Hope you guys liked them and i will see you all later! Thanks for reading!