I know I haven't updated my other fics in a while but this one was rattling around making it hard to concentrate. Still working on 'Stay Strong' and will hopefully have a chapter soon.. (soonish..) Anyway this one is already 100% done and will be posted completely by the end of this weekend. Mentions of Cheating but no details. Some bad language but nothing too bad.
Please let me know your thoughts, love feedback! Thanks! :)
Regina's never felt so dirty in her life. She looks to her left and sees the mistake from earlier this evening sleeping in the hotel bed.
Regina covers her mouth and sobs quietly before untangling the sheets wrapped around her body and slipping from the bed. Regina quickly but silently gathers her clothing from the floor and dashes into the bathroom.
Once the door is closed and locked Regina slides down the back of the door and presses her clothes to her mouth to muffle her screams and cries.
When she's run out of tears she stands and shakily puts her clothes back on, and splashes her face with cold water.
She looks at her reflection and watches as the water and tears drip from her bloodshot eyes. Regina sighs and grabs the towel from the rack and wipes her face taking a deep breath.
Silently unlocking and opening the door Regina grabs her purse and whispers an "I'm sorry" to the sleeping figure in the bed. Closing the door with a slight click Regina turns and quickly walks to the elevators.
Watching the numbers fall Regina soon is at the Lobby. Regina stands up straighter, straightens her dress and her hair before confidently exiting the elevator.
Regina leaves the hotel and hails a cab back to her home, hoping beyond hope that somehow Emma is asleep and will think nothing of her late arrival home.
Regina is in the back of the cab wanting to check her messages and emails, but as she digs through her purse she realizes that it's not there. Regina whispers,"Shit". Ignoring the cab driver as he looks towards the back seat trying to understand the outburst.
Regina leans her head back against the headrest, ignoring how unsanitary the upholstery must be.
As the cab is on the last stretch before her home and Regina grabs her keys, only thinking about getting into the house and showering off the rancid smell of deceit, pain, and the faint lingering scent of Versace Eros.
The cab soon came to a stop and Regina paid the driver, but before she could exit the driver turned around and said, "I hope they forgive you."
Regina was shocked, the man didn't seem like he had meant any harm but Regina was now curious, "Excuse me."
The driver tipped his head, "I've been doing this a long long time. You have the look. You know whatever you did was wrong, and you know it's going to break someones heart. You don't have an air of maliciousness that I see in some. So whatever this was tonight, you know it was a mistake. I just hope whoever you're anxious to see right now has it in their heart to forgive you."
Regina wiped her eye as she felt the tears threatening to fall. She then looked at the driver and whispers, "I do too."
The driver just tips his head again and turns back towards the road waiting for Regina to exit the car.
As soon as Regina exits and closes the door the driver takes off into the night time disappearing.
As she opens the door her heart rate increases and her palms are sweaty.
There is no sound coming from the house and there are no lights on, Emma must be sleeping.
Regina discards her heels at the door and quietly pads down the hallway and up the stairs to the master bedroom.
Regina can see the lump in the bed and breathes a sigh of relief. Regina quickly places her purse on the dresser and heads to the en-suite to shower.
Regina showers quickly not wanting the sounds of the shower to wake Emma. Standing naked after her shower she can see in her minds eye where her mistakes' hands caressed her body, where they gripped too tightly, where they roamed without love.
Regina wrapped herself in her towel and tried to wipe her mind of the images and memories. Dressing quickly and cleaning up the bathroom, Regina was soon crawling into bed and watching the steady rise and fall of Emma's shoulders. Regina inched closer to give Emma a kiss on the cheek only to notice the tear streaks and the cell phone in her hand.
Regina's guilt was growing heavier by the second and the weight felt like a hydraulic press slowly crushing her chest. Emma cried herself to sleep.
Regina gently took the phone from Emma's hand and unlocked it, immediately seeing the plethora of texts from Emma to her phone. Regina read the last line and just wanted to curl into herself and die, 'Please come home…'
Emma cried herself to sleep waiting for her. Regina placed the phone on the night table and gently wrapped her arm around Emma's waist pulling her back to her chest.
Regina breathed in the scent that was so distinctly Emma. Emma groaned but snuggled closer like she knew Regina was home now and protecting her.
Regina kissed her blonde curls and thought, 'What if this is my last night holding her like this?'
Regina then stayed awake memorizing everything she could about Emma, just in case.
Morning came faster than Regina wanted; as she slowly awoke Regina thought that maybe last night was all some kind of twisted nightmare, but soon discovered that was not the case.
Regina felt the cold spot where Emma was once sleeping. Regina looked around the room but Emma wasn't to be found.
Regina rolled out of bed, put on some clothes, and went into the kitchen. On the counter there was a note for Regina, "Hey babe, went for a run and to the store. Coffee in the pot. Be back soon. Xoxo. E."
Regina smiled at the note and was pouring herself a cup of pre-made coffee when she heard the door start to open.
Regina was smiling and went to meet Emma at the door to help with any bags Emma might have brought, but then a recognized voice called out, "Excuse me!"
Regina froze and Emma turned around to face the voice calling to her, not noticing Regina.
Emma placed the one bag onto the ground and walked back towards the man standing on the walkway.
Emma looked at the unknown man, "Hey, can I help you?"
The man nodded, "Please. I ummm.. I met this woman last night and long story short this morning when I woke up she was gone. She left her phone and it had a home address in the contacts. Do you know where I can find Regina?"
Emma was frozen..
Regina then gathered enough motor function to go outside and confront the man. Regina walked up to him and sternly whispered, "You need to leave. Now. I appreciate you bringing my phone back but you need to leave and forget about me."
The man was stunned, "Woah chill. Take the phone. I know it's crazy coming here like this but your roommate seems super cool." The man then smirked, "Relax, maybe we can go for another round later, loosen you up?"
Emma looked at Regina with hatred and turned to head back inside. Regina tried to reach for her but Emma quickly snatched her hand away and went inside.
The man then scoffed, "What got her panties in a twist?"
Regina turned back to the man and coldly said, "Leave now. Never come back. I never want to see you again. Ever."
The man looked stunned but shrugged and walked away mumbling, "Whatever."
Regina watched as the man walked away and made sure he was completely gone from the street before she ran into the house to talk to Emma.
Regina called to Emma, "EMMA!" But Emma didn't answer.
Regina sprinted through the main floor and then upstairs. Regina could hear a drawer slam and Emma sob.
Regina entered their room and saw the luggage on the bed.
Regina walked up to Emma, "Emma please. Don't do this."
Emma turned and put the jeans she was holding into a bag and started zipping it. Regina tried to touch her arm but Emma smacked it away and shoved her away from her.
Regina was shocked at Emma's use of force, but completely understood.
Emma pointed her finger at Regina and coldly said, "Don't touch me."
Regina nodded, "Emma please, just listen. It was a mistake. I swear. I.. It was only once, and I hate myself for stooping so low. I was drunk and upset, and stressed…"
Emma shook her head, "And that makes it ok?! You got drunk, you didn't call me. You were upset and you didn't call me! You were stressed and you didn't call me! What the fuck Regina! We built our relationship entirely on trust and communication. We were talking about starting a family, and you go a do this shit! "
Emma then finished zipping the bag and grabbed her backpack storming down the stairs. Regina followed closely behind tears falling freely, "Emma please don't go. Where are you going?! Please don't leave! Please don't leave me!"
Emma stopped and walked up to Regina giving her a kiss on the lips and whispered, "Don't follow or look for me. When I'm ready we'll talk."
Emma then grabbed her bags and walked out the door, slamming it closed.
Regina hoped that Emma would come back inside, having changed her mind; she'd be angry but she'd at least be here. But when the bugs car door slammed and the old car started up Regina dropped to the floor and wailed.