Learning to Let Go
Amidst one of the worst battles we had ever fought, I learned to grow up. Though I was always mentally mature, I really never grasped onto it's meaning. I knew two things: I had a job as a senshi and I had my love, Chibiusa.
However, one battle changed my life, at least for the time being. The enemy was extremely powerful and he had the queen imprisoned. The only one with power equal to the queen was of course, Chibiusa. The problem was, she would have to sacrifice her life so the power could reach its maximum and most lethal form. Sadly, I was the only one able to kill her so her power could be used. Like a safety, you could say.
I didn't want to do it, but it had to be done. She held me tightly and kissed me softly. Tears in both our eyes. She whispered a good-bye and I quickly plunged my glaive into her chest. A massive white light shot into the sky, it hit the enemy with such force and speed that he never saw it coming. He was gone and the universe was safe for the time being. But she was gone as well.
My glaive chattered to the ground as I fell to my knees. A heaviness in my heart. I couldn't look at her body. It would be like staring down the barrel of a gun as it was being shot. The only thing I felt was a horrible feeling of regret and sadness.
I cried that night. An endless stream of tears. The tears stained my pillow the way her death had stained my soul. Somehow I was fortunate enough to fall asleep. Sleep, my only escape from all this pain. All these emotions. I dreamed that night.
Strangely, she was there, in my dream. Her pink hair flowed freely down her back. Her eyes were sparkling with a touch of sadness. I reached out for her and she leaned into my touch. I could feel the soft, velvet of her skin. Her eyes closed for a moment and slowly my hand pulled away.
Her eyes gazed up at me while tears of love spilled down her cheeks. I embraced her and apologized. She said not to worry. It was meant to be like this. She'll be back - one day. Now it was my turn to cry.
She cupped my face between her hands and said not to worry. Kissing away my tears, I basked in the warmth of her being. I wanted to hold her forever and never let her go, but I knew that it wasn't possible. She was dead and this was only a dream.
When I awoke the next morning, I cried again. Setsuna was by my side before I was even aware of it. She comforted me to the best of her abilities. When I stopped my sobbing and dried my face, she told me that my future would be spent with my love. Smiling, I gave her a small kiss on the cheek and joined her for breakfast.