Chapter 1: Introduction
"Bitch!" I yelled at Miley. We were best friends but she was getting on my nerves, and I have very bad anger management issues. I punched her, once, she wasn't worth it.
She fell unconscious on the floor. I walked off as though nothing had happened.
I went into the bathroom and locked myself in the cubicle. I stuck my finger in my throat. I came out and looked at my reflection. "I hate this! I hate me"
I was digging my nails into my skin, it was bleeding now, but it didn't hurt. I enjoyed it.
I couldn't stand school, it was only recess, but life isn't real anyway.
I walked out of the bathroom, people were staring at me, but I just headed towards the exit, holding back the urge to go and punch them all.
I was out of the school. I was planning to go to a Goth club tonight (but now obviously Goth means emo), but now seems like a good time as well.
After walking for an hour I had finally reached the club, I needed the exercise anyway, I was fat. I got in, looked around and found a spot in the corner that looked like a good place to just sit and scratch my arms for a while.
"I am so sick of this. I get all the attention in the world but none at all, no one even cares" Nick muttered to himself. He was getting away from all the happiness and the people at the set of Camp Rock.
He noticed a club, it was kind of empty, a place that he could just be by himself and think about things before he had to find…other ways of making himself deal with it all.
He walked into the club and the first thing he noticed was a blonde girl. She didn't look like she belonged there but something about her made him sit down next to her.
"Hey" He said.
"Why is it…no one notices?"
She looked up at him, tears in her eyes, she was trying to hold them back. Seeing a girl, that pretty and that sad, Nick felt his stomach lurch.
"I noticed you" Nick sighed. This would be possibly the worst way to start a conversation.
"So what, who are you? No one I know actually cares about me"
"I know"
"You know? I doubt it. After what I've been through today. My best friend," Lily corrected herself "Ex best friend bitches about every small flaw to the whole school, I don't think anyone even notices how she makes me feel, comparing me to her. Throwing up after every meal"
She wiped her eyes to get a proper look at the person sitting next to her. She frowned.
"You're a Jonas Brother." She looked at him with hate. "I'm Lily, wait why are you here? Aren't you living the life of glamour" her voice was sour.
"No, people think they know me and judge me on that" Nick looked at Lily holding eye contact. "But they don't, no one does, my brothers don't even pay enough attention to me"
Nick looked at Lily's arm, then to her bloody fingernails. He rolled up his sleeve to reveal some scars.
Lily almost burst into tears again. She grabbed his sleeve rolling it down. She felt a rush through her. She did not care about anything.
Nick looked at Lily, fear gone from her eyes momentarily, he understood it, and he felt it too.
Nick reached in and kissed Lily. Full make out. When he finally broke it, he was panting.
"Denial"
"Depression"
"Email?" Great! The smoothest way to ask a girl for their email address Nick thought.
Lily smiled, eyeing him but staying silent. He was such a loser when it came to girls.
She suddenly realised her arm was still bleeding, she felt light headed. Her eyesight faded in.
The blackness engulfed her.
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"Wake up, Lily please wake up" Nick was standing over Lily in the hospital.
Nicks phone rang. "Hello? … It is not like you care …I don't care ….Joe get out of my business! WOULD YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE? Look, I will come when I want. I don't care about dinner!" Nick hung up the phone. Restraining the urge to throw it on the floor and step on it.
"Lily this is my fault. I'm so sorry. I should just get out of your life it would be better" He was staring at her unconscious figure on the bed. He sighed and a hurt look filled his eyes as he dragged a chair right next to Lily's bed, sitting on it, while resting his head on the bed holding Lily's hand.
Lily woke to see Nick, with his head on the hospital bed tears falling like a river down his cheeks. For a moment, she just stared at him, forgetting her own problems. After a while, Nick noticed Lily had woken up and sat up to look at her, his eyes red and his hair a tangled mess. "Lily" He managed to say.
"Nurse!" Lily pressed the button that alerts the nurse. A nurse walked in "Hey Lily your finally awa--" Lily cut her off "Can I have the release form"
"We would actually like to keep you in, talk to you about the cuts on--"
"Just give me the forms!" Lily practically yelled.
The nurse walked out of the room, muttering to herself.
"Lily?" Nick gave her a questioning look.
"Look your nice, but I don't know you, please just leave me alone"
Lily grabbed the forms from the nurse as she walked back in, signed them, then stomped out of the hospital.
'2 hour walk' Lily sighed to herself looking down at her stomach 'I need it'
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Nick finally reached his house. He felt empty, his stomach rumbled but he didn't want to eat. "Nick?" Joe called from inside the house.
"What?!" Nick snapped at Joe.
"What was that about, on the phone?"
"It doesn't matter! Mind your own business!" Nick went upstairs fuming. 'I didn't even get her freaking last name!'
"There's something wrong with him" Kevin said to Joe as he got some cold pizza out of the fridge.
"We need to help him"
"Yeh…just give him space for now"
Kevin and Joe stayed silent while they were eating, thinking about their little brother.
"I am so over life. It's over-rated, no one would care if I was gone anyway" Nick hissed to himself, he sighed, "I gotta find that girl"
8 pm
Lily had finally reached home "Lillian!" Heather screamed. "Get in here now!"
Lily ignored her mother and kept walking towards her room "Lillian stop ignoring me and get here right now!"
"Get out of my business, Mother" Lily let the word 'mother' roll of her tongue like acid.
"You are in so much trouble!"
Lily stomped up the stairs, into her room and slammed her door.
"I can't believe I did that to him, Nick Jonas" She sighed "Oh well, he's only a Disney freak" Lily looked around her room.
"MOTHER WHERE IS MY COMPUTER?!"