Title: Being Nice Doesn't Always Pay Off…

Author: Cactuskitty

Chapter: One

Summary: Ginny gets mad at a friend and decides that it's time for her to change.

A/N: When Ginny is writing in her journal, everything she writes in bold is her yelling.

Disclaimer: I do not own any characters from the Harry Potter book series, they belong to J. K. Rowling, so please don't sue. All I own is the little plot there is, Hillary, and Ryan… But that's not muck to brag about.

Chapter One: Forget Myself

Ginny sat down on her bed, after wiping the stray tears from her face, and started to release all of the feelings she had been bottling up in the journal Bill had given her for Christmas the last year. That hard cover, spiral-bound journal was one of her most prized possessions, which seemed to surprise everyone, especially after what happened in her first year at Hogwarts. She had decided that this wasn't a diary, it was a journal, and there was a difference. Also the fact that it was a muggle notebook, made it easier for her to write in. Virginia seldom spoke of her past; it was too callous for her, so that wasn't the reason for her tears. She was crying because she was angry, and so she found reason to write…

Friday August 1

Journal-

I swear, if my brothers knock on my door and ask me one more time if I'm all right I promise that I'm will make something explode! That is not an understatement; I have done it before. Ask Ron; it was his lamp. ALTHOUGH, WHAT I REALLY WISH I COULD EXPLODE IS THAT STUPID, BLOODY, DUMB BLOND'S HEAD!! HOW DARE SHE DO THAT TO ME IN FRONT OF MY BROTHER AND EVEN WORSE…HARRY!?! I never should have invited her over to see how he was recovering after Cedric's death. Although, I suppose if I knew what a BIG MOUTH she has, I never would have, but I can't tell the future... Maybe if I had paid more attention to my Divination class… Who cares now! It's in the past. What matters is that she shouldn't have done that! And I shouldn't have let her get off so easy. By the beard of Merlin, I hate myself. There I go again! Maybe if I were able to explain myself better, I wouldn't be in this predicament in the first place. Well anyway Journal, here's what happened:

I invited my supposed 'friend' Hillary over today, because she wanted to see how Harry was doing. So here we were, sitting in the back yard, Ron, Hermione, Harry, Hillary, and I, just talking about nothing unparticular. Then, Harry mentioned playfully, that I had been receiving a lot of mail lately and wouldn't tell anyone who the sender was. I blushed, of course, and the trio started lightheartedly teasing me about it. (However, I didn't really mind, because at least I was getting some sort of positive reaction from Harry.) That was when Hillary said in a falsetto voice, "I though everybody knew about Ryan, Ginny?" And obviously I couldn't say anything, because I was dumbstruck. So Hillary, what a good friend*HA! WHAT A JOKE*, filled them in on everything I had told her.

She began with: how, he was a nice boy with light brown hair from Beaubaxton. How, we met at the Yule Ball when he asked me to dance. How, he later took me out to "the garden ALONE, mind you". How we would meet in the library after classes. How, that when he left with the rest of his school I cried. And how, I had said that other then Harry, he was the only boy who I had ever considered loving, and how I also said that at least this one actually noticed my being able to breath. When she was completed, we all stared at her. I think everyone was in shock, including myself… And once they were done staring at her they turned to me! ALL OF THEM! Harry included. So, I did the only thing I thought reasonable at the time…and got the hell out of that Godforsaken garden. I locked myself in my room and began to cry my eyes out. Ten minutes later she ran up to talk to me. And do you know what she said then? (I don't think you could even start to imagine!) After a couple of minutes begging me to open my door (which I declined), she said in this innocent little voice, that was obviously fake, "Oops, I'm sorry Ginny, I don't know what came over me. I just couldn't stop talking! I'm so dumb! I hope you can forgive me… I'd hate to throw away a friendship like *HA* our over something as trivial (Trivial?!? Trivial my ass!) as this…" And you know what I told her?

I told her that it was okay, that I'd get over it, and that it would just be best if she leaves…

Not even now, three hours later, can I believe that I told her it was okay! I mean I don't even really like her. I also feel that I must denote the fact that I have always kind of thought of her as a git until last year, when we became friends. (You know, giving her a chance, like I always do…) Though, over the last few weeks I have found out I was right, she's a user and a total bitch; now that there's nothing I can do about it! I've let her walk all over me again. Damn it, I'm such a fool…

Then again, this is ME we are talking about… Me! Little, poor Virginia Weasley! She's so nice why don't we use her. She's way too 'good' to ever say no, she'll let us copy her Potion's notes. She'll help us when we need it without asking for anything in return. And if she ever did stand up to me, it would be she who would feel the guilt for it not I, because she has a heart and a conscience. So let's use her as much as we can! Come on! It'll be fun! Well I hate to break it to you, but that Virginia is gone like the wind, and won't be back until she's appreciated again. I'M SO SICK OF PEOPLE THINKING THAT THEY CAN WALK ALL OVER ME JUST BECAUSE I HAVE MORALS!!! Well, I'm not backing down any more! Before the summer ends, I vow, that I am going to change. And this time, no one is going to stop me!

~Virginia Weasley

(Formerly known as Ginny)

A/N: I know this is a short chapter, but I hoped you enjoyed it. I'm not really sure where this story's going, but I think I might have a few ideas… The next chapter will be up soon, and I think it will take place when school starts… Then, you'll see how she changes. And I don't think all the chapters will be journal entries, but if you would like me to continue writing like this you can tell me when you review. *Hint**Hint*