„Wer zu Lebzeit gut auf Erden
wird nach dem Tod ein Engel werden
den Blick gen Himmel fragst du dann
warum man sie nicht sehen kann"
The
music filled the room, as the anger inside the blonde was released
when hearing the music. His beautiful face, those golden cat eyes,
was filled with anger and hatred. He clenched his fists on the quilt,
which was lying on his bed, until the knuckles whitened.
"Erst
wenn die Wolken schlafengehen
kann man uns am Himmel sehen
wir
haben Angst und sind allein"
The teen could see his memories in his head, always when hearing this song, and some others, he relived the memories… and let go of anger, fear and grief.
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
The boy was slapped hard by his father, and fell crying down to the floor. "That's how the likes of you should be treated," the father said disgusted, and turned around to deal with the mother. Anger, and fear was filled in the boys' eyes. His hand trailed over the floor for find any weapon, the nearest was the fathers cross, his father dedication to Christianity, and his fathers bane.
"Sie leben hinterm Sonnenschein
getrennt von uns unendlich weit
sie müssen sich an Sterne krallen (ganz fest)
damit sie nicht vom Himmel fallen"
The
cross was now blood red, same as the boy. Blood as stenches all over
his arm, and body. A sadistic smile was upon his face, and the mother
stared at him in fear. The child's innocence was now lost forever.
"Erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehen
kann man uns am Himmel sehen
wir
haben Angst und sind allein"
And then, Satoshi-sama kissed… the girl. And not Krad. Tears ran down his cheeks. Tears of anger, jealousy… and grief. The kiss Satoshi-sama gave the girl was more and more hot, and passionate. The hand, again, trailed after an object. It found a pole of metal.
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
He
gritted his teeth as their lives was ended.' To end ones pain, you
had to end the ones who had brought it to you.' The boy giggled.
Sadistic, he bathed his hand in the blood, and brought it to
his mouth. He licked it like cream.
"Gott
weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
"You're the new one, neh?" said on of the teens to Krad who was walking towards them. He didn't answer them but walked past them. One of them grabbed his shoulder, and pulled him back. "Hey, were talking to you!"
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
"But
I'm not talking to you." Laughter was filled in the air, and then
their faces was turned into smiles.
"Erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehen
kann man uns am Himmel sehen
wir haben Angst und sind allein"
For another time, blood covered his body. All of them was on the ground. No one survived. Their lives were ended…as his innocence was forgotten. And a new sadistic laughter was heard.
"Gott
weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
"Don't
touch me!" Krad
tried to shake the man off, but couldn't. "I'm a man! Not a
woman!" He was starting to get desperate. He
didn't want to be raped… not again…"Why should I listen to
you?" said the man, and kissed the blonde forcefully. And the man
regretted that, before his candle of life was extinguished.
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
Not again. Never again. No one would be allowed to touch him.
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
No one would be allowed to near him.
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
No
one would be allowed to love him. Never again. Never again…
As
the angelic figure ignored the rest of his memories, he let go of the
quilt, and placed it back softly. He took up his bag, and stood up.
The blonde walked towards the CD-player. The last words was heard,
and he pulled at the off button.
And then, it was another day of his pointless life. Another paradise, and hell.
"Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein"
Err… Hope you like this little angsty thingy thing. Reviews please. There will be 2 more chapters. Krad's just a little OOC in this fanfic. He's rather… depressed… sometimes. I promise, there will be Shounen Ai in this fic.
For those of you who are angry at me, please don't burn me. ;
When reading this fic, please listen to Engel, made by Rammstein. Then you… sort of… feel Krad's anger. Anyway, here's the English version of the text:
Live in virtue ,no desire
In the grave an angel's choir
You look to heaven and wonder why
No one can see them in the sky
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Angels live, they never die
Apart from us, behind the sky
They're fading souls who' ve turned to ice
So ashen white in paradise
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Heaven must be hell in the sky