Ok guys, here we go, the first of the 10 secrets is Xanatos Omega. We'll learn his 10, then Obi-Wan, Garen, Anakin, Qui-Gon, and Padme in that order. Requests are gladly accepted =] Enjoy!

Xanatos Omega

1) Xanatos clearly recalls the first time he met Qui-Gon Jinn. Even though it was when he was 3, he remembers looking into those midnight blue eyes for the first time. And he still remembers the moment that Qui-Gon told him he was special, and that he wanted to bring him to the Jedi Temple. Xanatos remembers accepting the offer immediately. Even though he was just 3.

Xanatos thinks that's why his father wanted to bring him to his side so badly. Because Xanatos, on his own free will turned away from him so early, so young. And never regretted being a Jedi for even a moment. Because in reality no real father ever wanted to corrupt their only son for their own purposes. Xanatos only realized this after he drew his lightsaber on Qui-Gon. The only man that would ever be his real father.

2) Xanatos loves no one more than he does his young apprentice. Well, former apprentice. But it didn't matter what Obi-Wan's rank was, to him he would always be that big blue eyed little boy he was when Xanatos first saw him. And no matter how many times he's turned to the dark side for that boy. No matter how many times that boy has touched the dark side for him, he will never regret taking Obi-Wan Kenobi as an apprentice. Because a father can never regret meeting his son.

3) Xanatos loved Alliya Taro. He really did. But it always stung him a little inside that she was Terry's girlfriend before she was his. Still, it had been almost 20 years, and she made him feel good. But there was another that made him feel that good, if not better.

11 years ago, when he was 22, he and Obi-Wan had gone on a negotiation mission to a nearby planet called Kiva. The queen of Kiva, Amora Covell, was young, beautiful and the same age as he. Of course being a Jedi, Xanatos wasn't phased by her. She had taken a liking to him though, at first as just a welcoming friend. She got along with Obi-Wan incredibly well. And it seemed the lack of a mother figure in the young boy's life had caught up with him as well. And as much as Xanatos coddled him, nothing exactly compared to having a loving woman there for him. It was at that point, when Xanatos saw how much she and Obi-Wan had come to love each other, that he fell for her. Not because she was the queen. Because she was Amora. Because she was graceful, beautiful and pure.

And once she noticed the way he was looking at her...something clicked inside both of them. It was a perfect feeling inside. It was pure. It was amazing. And it was like nothing Xanatos had ever felt before. But what Xanatos loved the most about her was her love of everything. She was the queen but not one bit corrupt. She loved all beings equally and seemed particularly fond of children such as Obi-Wan. It still amazes him to this day that despite being only 3 when he met her, Obi-Wan still remembers her. That had to count for something.

But of course the negotiations had to end sometime. And when the mission ended nothing seemed more painful to Xanatos. He knew he was a Jedi and he was trained to let go. But this was different. He even considered staying back. Leaving the order to be with her. It did not matter to him that it would make him the king, it didn't matter one bit that he would be able to rule if he where married to her. All that mattered was being with her. But when she told him to go on and be the Jedi he was destined to be. When she told him to return to the Jedi because staying would be something he might regret later on in his life....yes it was then that Xanatos realized she wanted nothing more than for him to be happy. It saddened him that he would most likely never see those green eyes again (that is until several years later when he would run into her uncle Damian Covell, king of Metellos.) And upon leaving that planet (Obi-Wan was so crestfallen that they had to leave) Xanatos knew he could never love another like he had loved Amora Covell. Not even Alliya Taro. Not even close.

4) He was often shocked by the things that he and Obi-Wan had in common. Sometimes, even after so many years, it would shock Xanatos when Obi-Wan finished his sentences for him. Or when he would come home after a council meeting or something and Obi-Wan had exactly what he had a craving for out on the dinner table. Little things like that never cease to amuse him. Sometimes little things happened to Obi-Wan that he remembered happening in his own life. He would smile because he knew in about 3 seconds Obi-Wan would speak to him through the bond and say something like "that's another one to add to the book" or something like that. Obi-Wan would always find one way or another to make him laugh.

But seriously, Xanatos found the amount of similarities stunning. Everything from the age they where picked as padawan to their favorite foods. It was all the same. It was things like this that made Xanatos believe...that the force had something to do with their meeting.

5) He never meant to turn to the dark side for every other serious battle in his life. It just somehow happened. And every single time he would be terrified that Yoda had, had enough and was going to kick him out of the order. Of course that would never happen but still, the thought scared Xanatos.

6) Despite coming off to be a tough powerful Jedi, a lot of things scared Xanatos. He had grown up very insecure (even though he had been coddled by Qui-Gon for everything) and that kind of stuck with him as he became a man. He was so afraid of loss it was almost a paranoia. This is where Xanatos felt for Anakin. This is where he understood what the boy was going through. And when the teen had dreams about Qui-Gon's death, he knew how it felt. Because he had, had quite a few dreams in the past about Obi-Wan meeting his end. Of course it scared the sith hells out of him, and sometimes he would spend hours standing at Obi-Wan's door, watching him sleep. Just for the satisfaction of seeing he was alive and well. Xanatos knew how it felt to be taken away from family. Of course Neither Anakin nor Xanatos felt that loss very much because Xanatos hardly even remembered his family and, well Shmi worked in the temple so Anakin was free to visit her any time. But most of all Xanatos knows what it's like to touch the dark side. Yes he felt such a strong darkness inside Anakin. And the reason no one else felt it was because it was hidden, untapped. But Xanatos loved the boy, and wouldn't want to tell him (which may end up being the cause of the darkness being tapped.)So he kept quiet. Still, he knew. And that was all that mattered.

7) If Xanatos weren't a Jedi, he would have adopted Garen Muln. Because when a boy so young could go through the abuse of a master and the loss of his brother, and still stay so optimistic, he deserved it. Garen had really lost a lot, and if Xanatos hadn't been there for the boy then the force knows what would have happened to him. Because a few days following Terry's death, Garen was failing practically every exam he took, barely getting past his classes. To sum things up he was a total mess. And then Xanatos looked at the mess Garen was making of himself and wondered why he wasn't there to stop it. He had made a promise to Terry after all to make sure Garen would be ok after his death. So why wasn't he keeping the promise. This is what made Xanatos step up and become and essential part of Garen's life. He straightened things out that his master wouldn't bother with, and helped him back onto his feet. Because it wasn't that hard. Xanatos had learned with Obi-Wan, that all you needed to make a child trust you was a few hugs and the knowledge that you'll be there for them. So he did exactly that and brought Garen back on track. In the process becoming very attached to the boy. He was a good kid.

Because Xanatos looks at the man Garen Muln is today, and sees a mirror reflection of Terry Muln. And he is happy he had kept his promise.

8) There where 4 times in Xanatos's entire life when he felt so torn apart inside, more than any physical pain that the cruel world had to hold.

The first time was after he fought with Qui-Gon on Telos, when he was 18. After he fought, and realized that Qui-Gon was the one that truly cared about him, he felt so terrible about all the things he had done to the older man. This was where Xanatos grew the fear that he would let his master down.

The second time was when Obi-Wan was 6 and the incident on Mustafar happened. He was so shattered when he realized he had allowed such a thing to happen to someone so young and innocent. He never really did come to forgive himself for that.

The third time was when Terry had died. It was at that moment that Xanatos lost his best friend and his brother. He would never feel a loss so deep until the death of his master.

The fourth and final time was when he heard the news of Qui-Gon Jinn's death. This was when Xanatos literally felt a large part of himself die on the inside. Everything else was blocked out except the indescribable pain he felt from his former master's death.

And as much as he hates to admit it, it was these four events that made Xanatos the man he is today.

9) Xanatos hated rain, because the day he turned to the dark side for the first time, it rained on Telos. And mind you rain doesn't come to easily on Telos. It struck him that it just so happened to rain on that day. And ever since that day, every time Xanatos has seen rain, it reminded him of that very day. The very day that damned him to the dark side.

10) Xanatos has been through a lot in his life. He really has. And sometimes he wishes he could do it all over again. But every so often when he's feeling particularly alone, he'll hear a call from behind him. And he'll turn around and see the smiling faces of all his friends. Obi-Wan, Garen, Anakin, Alliya, Padme, Master Yoda and the whole gang. And he'll decide life isn't so bad after all.

Ok, let me start off by saying that #3 was completely oc and probably new to you guys. The thing is, I had the idea of Amora covell for a long time. And there will be a seperate short story about her and Xanatos later on. I hope you guys don't completely hate the idea cause I really want to write that story =]

I hope you liked that, Obi-Wan's up next.

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