Kaito and Shinichi one shot
Shinichi sighed sadly to himself as he watched the clouds roll by from his bedroom window. Ran had gotten angry with him for not remembering his birthday again. It wasn't his fault though, why should he remember his own birthday when his own parents don't want to celebrate it with him? The whole issue with his birthday was just down right depressing. It's not like anything good happens anyway. I mean look at the murders he's run into on his birthday, the amount of times he's been left alone and in pain. Honestly his birthday was best left forgotten, no good came of it.
"Shin-Chan!" a boisterous yell came from down stairs. The sound of running footsteps following afterwards. Shinichi quickly plastered a smile on his face as not to distress his lovely boyfriend who had come to visit. Just as soon as the smile was up the door was thrown open and soon found his lap full of magician.
"Happy birthday Shinichi!" Kaito burst out giddily before pulling him in to a passionate kiss.
"Hey kai-Chan" Shinichi greeted breathlessly as they parted for air. Resting his head in the crook of Kaito's neck.
"So, shin-Chan what do you feel like doing today?" Kaito asked as he made himself comfortable. Shinichi looked thoughtful for a moment.
"Hmm I don't mind what we do today as long as you're with me" He ducked his head looking at Kaito through his eye lashes shyly as a blush worked its way up his cheeks.
"God, I love you" Kaito murmured as he gently lifted Shinichi's chin up, kiss him deeply and softly. Shinichi let out a content sigh as he melted into the kiss.
"love you too" he whispered against Kaito's lips before stealing another kiss. The two sat on Shinichi's windowsill, exchanging kisses and loving touches. Eventually the two parted their hair tussled and lips bruised.
"as much as I would love to do this with you all day babe I would like us to do something small together today" Kaito made to stand up and Shinich whined at the loss of warmth.
"but I liked what we were doing" Shinichi pouted cutely, crossing his arms across his chest and turning away in a huff. Kaito chuckled before leaning over and whispering in a husky voice.
"trust me it won't be long before I'm devouring those pretty little lips again. But for now, I want to do one thing of your choosing before we have some Fun" he nibbled on Shinichi's earlobe before sucking on his neck. Shinichi gasped and leaned his head back giving Kaito more access. Moaning at the licks and bites Kaito was giving him.
Once Kaito was pleased with his mark he pulled back and stroked Shinichi's flushed cheeks. His finger grazed his bottom lip which he automatically opened sucking the finger in and looking at Kaito with wide pleading eyes. Kaito's eyes darkened as he took in the sight, his breath hitching as that wicked little tongue played with his finger. He pinned the tongue down and gave Shinichi a reprimanding look. Shinichi whined but reluctantly let go of the finger.
"good boy" Kaito praised leaning down again and rewarding him with a quick kiss. Tugging lightly on Shinichi's hair when he tried to deepen it. "now pick something to do babe"
Shinichi moved around restlessly. He knew what he wanted to do but it was a little embarrassing and he didn't want Kaito to laugh at him. Almost as sensing his thoughts Kaito stroked his hair calmingly.
"you don't have to be embarrassed I won't laugh" he promised. Allowing Shinichi to turn and burrow into Kaito's chest. Seeking comfort.
"I wanna…. with you" Shinichi mumbled into the shirt. Kaito laughed gently
"sorry baby I didn't catch that please tell me a little louder" he lifted his head up and looked Kaito in the eye.
"I wanna make a cake with you" his face burned as he ducked back into the chest for shelter. Waiting for Kaito to laugh at him.
Kaito gazed down at the gentle beauty in his arms. His eyes softening when he heard the request. It was so adorable and heart-warming to hear all he wanted to do on his birthday was bake a cake with Kaito. Shinichi often took care of the baking and cooking on his own and for him to ask to open up his safe haven and allow Kaito to join him meant the world to the magician. He didn't see how he could laugh at that.
"oh baby of course we can make a cake. I'd love to make one with you" he mummed into Shinichi's hair as he tightened his hold. Shinich smiled happily and nuzzled in. they stood there for a few moments enjoying each other's warmth. "so, you gonna cook in that or change?" Kaito asked pulling away.
"Get changed" he answered whilst making his way to his wardrobe and pulling out a big white shirt that belonged to Kaito and a pair of shorts. Quickly stripping. Feeling eyes on him he put on a bit of a show of wiggling his hips and bending over when putting the shorts on. Before slowly straitening up and putting the shirt on and doing the buttons up. The sleeves danged over his fingers- reminding him of when he was Conan- as Kaito was a head taller.
He felt arms wrap around his waist and pull him backwards. Gasping when he felt Kaito's hard on pressing into ass "feel that baby boy. You feel what your little teasing did" Was whispered seductively into his ear as he ground back onto the dick. Moaning wantonly.
"Do you like teasing daddy like that? Why don't you tell daddy why your wearing such revealing clothing and daddies' clothes" he ordered before diving down to the mark he'd made early and expanding it.
"y-yes daddy! I-im wearing these*moan* cau-cause they s-smell *gasp* li-like you an-ah! And I wa-want to*pant* lo-oh! -ok go-od for you daddy!" Shinich cried out as he arched into the touch. Feeling his shorts begin to tighten.
"such a good boy wanting to look good for daddy and answering him" Kaito praised kissing the sensitive part behind his ear and letting go causing Shinichi to whimper at the loss "now carry on being a good boy and I'll reward you later"
"yes daddy" Shinichi agreed docilly. Stretching his arms up and making grabby hands signalling he wanted to be carried. Kaito smiled fondly and Picked him up. Wrapping and arm under the crook of he's legs and one at his lower back. Shinich in turn wrapped his right arm around Kaito's neck while his right arm clutched and the front of his shirt. Tucking his head contently into the crook of Kaito's neck. Letting out a happy sigh. His thumb resting on the seam of his lower lip, not quite in.
He loved that Kaito let him act this way. He'd been on his own since he was 14 and even before then he didn't have this kind of affection from his parents. The thought made him sad again. It wasn't that they didn't love him. Sure, they hugged him and kiss his cheek every now and then but they weren't gentle. The hugs were bone crushing and the kisses hurried. They never took the time to carry him or even just hold him it was like they expected him to be independent right from the get go. Now he was slightly touch starved and Kaito was certainly willing to take care of him. He smiled sadly at that. He sometimes felt guilty when his childish side came out but he couldn't help it. Sometimes he just need to be in a child mid frame for a little while, to be loved and looked after. It was a safety mechanism he supposed. Whenever the murders got too much or the world felt too large, too cold, too painful he becomes like this. A needy child wanting to be carried places. To be told what to do and not having to think, just to feel. However, Kaito loved it when he got like this. Not the reason behind it but being able to feed him, carry him around the house, stuff he normally wouldn't get away with but could when Shinichi revered into his sub space. So that made it easier to let himself go and not feel so bad about doing it, knowing that Kaito was enjoying it just as much as him.
He was broken out of his thought as he was gently placed down onto the cold work surface. He shivered as his exposed legs touched the cold marble before swinging his legs back and forth. He watched as Kaito expertly moved around the kitchen and began pulling out the basic ingredients for a chocolate sponge cake. Once done he brought it all over to Shinichi's station.
Soon the two are following a recipe Kaito found on his phone. Kaito saw a mischievous gleam enter Shinichi's eye a second before darted ford and put some chocolate on his cheek. Giggling at the stunned look he got in return. Kaito retaliated in Kind by placing some on Shinichi's nose making him go cross eyed before giggling again. They soon found their faces covered in chocolate giggling.
Kaito basked in the giggles Shinichi was releasing. It wasn't often Shinichi would giggle. It had to be one of Kaito's favourite sounds to hear. He had noticed the forced smile and sadness that lurked in his eyes when he arrived. He'd also caught the sad smile on his face on the way to the kitchen. He was glad Shinichi had cheered up enough to giggle. But that was also worrying he only giggled like this when he had entered his child place and was bordering on sub space. It worried him that something had upset Shinichi enough to retreat in his mind. Once the cake was made he would take care of his baby and then find out what was hurting him.
"Alright Baby were gonna pop this in the oven and I'm quickly clean the dishes and then we can play okay?" Kaito smiled softly at the vigorous nod he got. He reached across with a wet towel and cleaned him mucky face. Normally he would lick it off but for the last few minutes all Shinichi's touches were purely for reassurance and love. Despite what they had done earlier the touches right now were in no way sexual showing the need to be loved and he that he wasn't alone.
Once clean faced he turned around to clean the dishes. Leaving Shinichi to play on his phone. Expecting him to go on one of the puzzle games he downloaded.
Shinichi went to open a locked room game on the phone when his finger slipped and it opened WhatsApp. It had been left on the latest convocation. Shinichi was about to click off when he saw a picture of himself that was taken yesterday on their date. Wondering who Kaito would send it to he looked at the recipient's name Yukiko kudo. He felt his heart stop. His early depression about his parents beginning to surface. He scrolled further up the messages seeing more photos with some text saying what he had been doing. Despair and self-hate bubbled up. The feeling of failure and worthlessness chocking him. Kaito had been talking to his mum daily it seemed. Saying everything he was doing and showing pictures with it. He felt betrayed. The person he trusted everything with was talking to his mum. Telling her things, he didn't want her to know pictures he didn't want her to see.
He felt himself retreat further into his mind trying to get away. He didn't feel safe anymore. Didn't feel loved. He felt used and abandoned. Thoughts began swimming around his head. What if Kaito was only with him to keep his mum up to date? What if Kaito told his mum about him being like this!? No kai-Chan wouldn't do that…would he? Kai did love him, didn't he? What if it was all in his head and Kaito didn't love him and only put with his childish moods because his mum was paying him? Maybe his parents were right maybe…maybe he should just grow up. Be alone. Unloved and only needed when their running away. Yes, that was it. It had to be, after all nobody could love a death magnet who regressed to the mind of child when stressed or upset.
During all his thought he never saw Kaito turn around and rush to his side. Never saw the look of worry and panic on his face as he saw Shinichi here with dull lifeless eyes, holding the phone limply in his hand as tears streamed down his face. Never heard Kaito's frantic calls or gentle touch. Didn't feel himself being lifted up and carried to the library and curled onto Kaito's lap.
The first thing Shinichi came aware of was the gentle smoothing fingers gliding through his hair and the feeling of warmth, safety around him. The next thing he became aware of was the quite soft tone Kaito was talking in.
"shh its okay baby I'm here. I've got you, your safe. I love you Shinichi it's okay I'm here shhh come back to me" Kaito repeated it all over again.
Shinichi still felt the panicked betrayal along with so many other emotions, but being in Kaito's arms and hearing his soothing voice helped calm him. He wasn't ready to speak yet. Didn't feel like he could get the words out but he managed to press in tighter to Kaito to let him now he was okay.
"hey sweetheart you're such a good boy coming back to me. Your safe and loved here so stay with me babe I'm not going to go anywhere" Kaito kept his voice gentle and even as if he was talking to a new-born. Continuing his gentle ministrations in his hair, making sure Shinichi's ear was pressed to his heart so he could hear it and be grounded.
Shinichi whined slightly when he heard his heartbeat but soon settled. Finally, relaxed enough to talk. "'m sowwy" Shinichi whispered.
"no baby you did nothing wrong you've been such a good boy. Daddy made a mistake, he should have done the dishes later and cuddled your first. Do you think you could tell daddy what's wrong baby" he asked gently. Reassuring him that it wasn't his fault.
"daddy no mad?" he asked timidly
Kaito shook his head softly "no daddy not mad, daddy just worried because he loves you and wants you to smile"
"love me?" Shinichi asked hopefully
"of course, baby, forever and always" Kaito said without hesitation giving Shinichi the strength to tell him what's wrong leaving the child palace slightly and entering the sub space a little more.
"you know shin-Chan's been on his own since he was 14 but what you don't know is that Shin-Chan was alone long before then. His parents wanted him to be independent from the get go so hugs were always painful and kiss fast and rare. Shin-Chan was never carried once he could walk and always expected to know the answer or work it out. He was bought up around murder and celebrities. Once shin-Chan was 14 his parents moved out and left this place to him. They live in America now but constantly travel the world." He informed him blandly, staring off into space.
"the day he turned 14 was the day they left. Shin-Chan rarely get phone calls and when he does it's because Mother wants gossip or rant about father not because she cares. Hell, she didn't even ring him when he told her about the poison never mind visiting him so shin-Chan stopped telling her about himself after a while, just told her the gossip and was done. Visits are even rarer and again not because she wants to see Shin- Chan but because father did something and she's running away. Shin-Chan figured the only way he could get them to visit was if he stopped sending photos and try to avoid cameras as much as possible. That way they have to come see me, right?" he said more to himself. Switching from third person to first as he slowly left child place.
"b-but you took that away. You tell her everything and send her pictures. S-so I began to panic and think you didn't love me and only with me because mother made you cause no one can love a death magnet or someone who reverts into a child when st-stressed or hurt. And the-then I thought you must have told her about me do-doing th-that I'm so-sorry!" Shinichi cried into Kaito's chest.
Kaito tightened his grip around him. Feeling his heart break into little pieces as he felt the love his life wail and sob into his chest. He started up his shushing again and rocked him back and forth. Swallowing around the lump in his throat.
Voice cracking slightly, he began to console Shinichi "it's okay. I'm sorry I spoke to your mum and sent those pictures I didn't know how neglectful they were. I will stop sending them immediately. To put your mind at rest I never told your mum anything about when your upset or stressed. I never told her any secrets you told me because I respect the trust you have shown me so it's okay darling she doesn't know. I do love Shinichi and I'm not with you because of your mother I'm with you because its where I belong and want to be. Don't say nobody could love you because it hurts. I love how sometimes you revert to a child, it shows how much you trust me. And you're not a death magnet. Weve gone out lot of times with no bodies and you've been on your own without finding anyway. It's just other people being little shits and making you feel bad about it. Don't listen to them. I'm sorry you had to grow up that way but you're not alone anymore Shinichi. I'm here and I will always be here to love, cherish, hold and protect you" Kaito made sure to cover everything and miss nothing out, his Shin-Chan need to know he could lean on Kaito.
"thank you" Shinichi thanked once the crying had stopped. He felt raw and vulnerable but Kaito was here and he knew he was safe.
"rest darling. Il be here when you wake up" Kaito coaxed kissing him on the forehead. Shinichi let out a little yawn before snuggling down comfortable in Kaito's arms.
He woke a few hours later feeling more calm, stable and happier than he had since this morning. He found himself laying on top of the sleeping magicians chest on the sofa. Arms wrapped tightly around his waist making him feel secure and loved. From the corner of his eye he saw the catalyst for the break down flashing. Unable to stop himself he leaned over and taped the screen to life. It opened on the page it had been left on with two new messages
Kaito: from now on if you want to know anything about Shinichi or what he looks like phone him and talk to him or come visit and see him in a person.
Yukiko: were coming July
He grinned happily at the screen. Before turning back to the person who made it possible. He remembered something about being rewarded if he was good and Kaito did say he was a good boy. Daddy kai-Chan deserved a reward from little shin-Chan too.
Hey guys. So, this is my first KaiShin story. Originally it wasn't meant to be so explicit but the story got away from me. If you guys want me to add another chapter with the rewards please let me know and if you have any suggestion please give them. Thank you for reading hope you enjoyed it! Dream xx