Summary: Sam hated loving her so much. Mentions of Cam!
Disclaimer: I only own the idea of this fic.
Warning: Mentions of suicide and lesbian content.
iHate Loving You
Sam's POV
I can't stand watching you everyday. You with your luscious lips, angelic face, and just inner and outer beauty. I hate not being able to hold you and call you mine. But most of all I hate loving you. You make it impossible to breathe when I'm around you. You make my heart ache and sink into my chest when I see you with some boyfriend or even staring at a guy.
I can never focus on anything but you even when your not in the same room as me. I hate not being able to do anything I want to do without thinking about you. God I hate how I can't hate you even though I want to.
"Sam?" She asks in that sweet innocent voice that just melts me and yet angers me.
"Hmm?" I respond not taking my eyes off of the TV screen in front of me.
"Never mind..." She whispers while turning her attention back to the movie with a small smile on her face.
I hate not being able to smile anymore....
"Sam I'm just going on a date with Jason! You act like I'm going away forever!" She shouts at me with anger filling her eyes.
"I'm just looking out for you!" I shout back just at angrily if not angrier.
"Well stop! I don't need you to protect me every second of the day! Just, just go home Sam! I don't want to see you for while!" She points to the door signaling that she means what she is saying.
"Fine I'll leave, I fucking try to watch out for you and all I get is pretty much a slap in the fucking face. I'm so sick of you." I say before walking out of the door.
I hate watching you be happy while I'm miserable....
"Sam I'm sorry about last night...I just...I don't know what came over me. I've just been so stressed out lately with college coming to an end and just life itself I guess...But that's still no excuse for how I acted I know. Just please call me." With that the message she left on my voice mail ended.
I hate that I didn't call you last night....
"Is she going to make it?" She asked with a tear stricken voice.
"To be honest with you, things are not looking good...I don't expect her wake up after this one, she's done far too much damage this time...." The doctor said with a sad sigh.
I hate that I've done so much damage....
"Sam Puckett was a tough girl...To some she was just a rude kid that was going to end up in jail by the time she graduated. But to me she was my best friend and soul mate. Whenever I was down, she was there to make me smile. If I was in danger she was there to protect me...She was there through thick and thin. Today though, she's passing on into the gates of heaven to finally be happy and not have to be protect anyone."
"I love you Sam...I always have and forever will...." I watched her cry up in front of the few that came to my cremation ceremony. I watched her say that she loved me.
I hate that I didn't answer your phone call....
I hate that I wasn't brave enough to tell you how I felt....
I hate that I left you all alone....
A/N: Yeah this is the first thing I've posted in quite a while. Leave a review!