Max's Song

Summary:
A Song-fic to 'Sally's song' by Evanescence. Fax, set before MR4. 'Even as I thought it, I knew it wasn't true, because even though I may not be the one for him, Fang would always be the one for me. Always.'

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

I looked across at Fang, he was stood at the mouth of our small cave, keeping watch- his back to the rest of the flock and me. This small, dark cave reminded me of the one that he'd kissed me in; it made me realise just how much I needed him, how much I wanted him. But that could never be. So many times I'd nearly told him how I felt about him, but then I remembered my gut feeling, and the voice's words of warning. If I gave into my love for him, then something bad would happen to the flock; it wouldn't tell me what, just that not all of us could survive it. And I couldn't let that happen, it was my job to keep them all safe. So, I bit my tounge at sat in silence, letting the unspoken words spin through my mind, faster then a ranging wind. 'I love you.'


And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be
What will become of my dear friend
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

'Does he realise that I love him?' 'Does he know that I like him?' 'Does he know that without him I'd be completely lost?' 'Does he know that I need him?' Thousands of thoughts spun through my mind, each thought stirring many more. What would happen to the two of us, if he kept kissing me like he had, and I had to push him away? I'd thought about it, divised so many different ways of how we'd be together and the flock would be safe; but I always hit a roadblock. There was no possible way that it could happen, and fantasies could only last so long. I wished that I could join the crowds of people that we were constantly flying over, and be normal- just like them. I wished that Fang and I could both be normal, and to be together. But wishes never happened, and dreams led to nightmares. So I was stuck. Biting my tounge, and letting the unspoken words spin through my mind, faster then a ranging wind. 'I love you.'


And will we ever end up together?
No, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

And will we ever end up together?
Ohhhhhhh

And will we ever end up together?
No, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

So surely, if Fang and I couldn't be together, then we weren't supposed to be? We weren't supposed to ever fall in love, and not supposed to get a happy ever after. But even bird kids love, right? So maybe I just wasn't 'the one' maybe Fang and I would fall in love with other people, and maybe we would be happy? Even as I thought it, I knew it wasn't true, because even though I may not be the one for him, Fang would always be the one for me. Always.
It was as I sat there, thinking that Fang turned his face away from the stars, and looked at me. The dark brown of his eyes captured not only the light of the stars, but the dancing flames of the camp fire; making them more magical then ever. As I watched him, the corner of his mouth turned upwards, into his classic half-smile; the smile that turned my knees to jelly, and made me wonder if I really did have a heard of stampeding horses in my rib cage. He really was the one for me.
"Max," He said softly, and I nodded slightly. "You know, that no matter what happens, you're the one for me, right?" He asked. There was a moments silence, as my smile grew slightly.
"Really?" I asked, and he nodded, turning his face back to the stars.
"It was never in question, Max. Not for me." Trust Fang to, like always, read my mind and know exactly what to say. The whirring of the thougts in my head died down, until only one remained. And I smiled, letting the unspoken words spin through my mind, faster then a ranging wind. 'I love you.'