Always and Forever
"Hey Sam." I greeted the teenager.
"Hey Spencer, where's Carly?" Of course she was here for Carly. She always was.
"Oh, she's upstairs."
"Thanks Spencer." She turned on the balls of her feet and bounced up the stairs with her blonde curls bouncing with her. I sighed loudly and laid my head down on the counter. Why did I have to fall in love with my sister's best friend? She's so much younger than me, and I mean, I'm pretty sure it's illegal. An adult like me can't be in a romantic relationship with a minor. Besides, it's not like she would feel the same for me.
I grabbed a fruity drink from the refrigerator. I swallowed the whole thing in one gulp. The door opened and Freddie stepped in. "Hey Spencer." I waved the empty bottle at him.
"Hey Freddie." Sam walked downstairs. "Freddie!"
"Sam!" She jumped off the last stair and hugged him. I felt a ping of jealously run through my body. Yes, I was jealous of Freddie Benson. He had something in his arms that I loved more than life itself. He had Sam, and I didn't, and I never would. Never.
"How are you sweetie?" Freddie pushed a strand of her blond, curly lock of hair behind her ear. He leaned in and Sam did too. My heart fell as their lips met. Sam and Freddie had been dating for half a year and I still hadn't gotten over it. Every time I saw Sam, my heart felt like it was about to explode. But it didn't matter; I'd never have her in my arms. She loved Freddie. Not me.
I faked a smile. "Freddie and Sam sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G." I joked even though it tugged on my heart as I did. Sam laughed. God, it was such a cute laugh too.
"Come on Sam, let's go." Freddie held Sam's hand and gently rubbed it with his thumb. Oh how I wished to be doing that. I wanted nothing more.
"Okay." She leaned forward and rubbed his nose against hers. My heart tugged again. She turned her head towards me and smiled. I felt my heart felt like it was flying. "See you later, Spencer." Then she turned back around and wrapped her arm around Freddie's arm. He smiled and lead her to the door and they left.
"I love you." I whispered. I'm such an idiot.
I shouldn't be in love with my sister's best friend. I shouldn't be in love with a minor. I shouldn't be in love with a girl that could kill me if she wanted to. I shouldn't be in love with her. I shouldn't.
But I am.
Why do I have to pretend that I'm not head over heels for her? Why did I have to fall in love with her? Why not anyone else? What's wrong with me? I feel so depressed, and I shouldn't. What would Carly think of me if I told her? What would dad say?
Right now I felt nothing more than to run after her and tell her how I feel. But I can't. I can't.
Because she doesn't love me. She's in love with Freddie. She's in love with Freddie.
No matter how many times I said it, I just couldn't wrap my mind around it. The girl I loved, loved someone else.
But is that so unexpected?
Sure, girls would date me, but they only did because I was 'cute'. They just dated me for my looks. Once they saw the real me, they left. They all did. But I never really cared about them. There was only one girl that I cared about what she thought about me. But let's face it, she'll never love me. Never.
But I'll always love Sam. Always and forever.
Twilight: Aww, poor Spencer.=T^T=
Nikki: Why won't you love Spencer, Sam?!
Sam: O.O
Twilight: Anyway, please review!=^w^=