Hey, so my name is Noa and I'm a french student. I'll write in english to improve it as much as possible and well, because I just love to speak it ! I'll post when I'll have the time because it takes time plus english isn't my first language. Also not because I have a social life (i don't), but because I have a lot of series to watch and books to read. You know how it feels. Anyway, this is my first fanfic so i don't know anything about Beta (something idk) or how to rate the chapters. But I really wanted to try it. If you see any mistakes, please tell me because it'll help me at school.
It's gonna be a Densi fanfic but the others might be there too.
Obviously i don't own anything from NCIS LA.
Chapter 1 :Anger.
After a long case which had been solved by the team, Kensi was exhausted. She was literally sleeping on her feet. Obviously, the case was solved in record time like every other one but, this morning, when Kensi woke up, she hadn't expect her to be so overwhelmed with Deeks and the woman from DEA. She saw them chatting and laughing and even flirting right in front of her. She couldn't admit her feelings to him, it was unthinkable for her to just say it at loud so to him, of course not. She felt so jealous during the day. She wanted to punch her. And she wanted to punch him too for not understanding her feelings and seeing her gazes at him.
She breathed hoping it would make her more peaceful and then sat at her desk, starting some paperwork related to the case. It wasn't even 10 minutes after that deeks came in, and he sat on the corner of her desk.
« what ? » she said, not even looking at him. Kensi tried to focus on her work, vainly. She was scared that if she would meet his eyes he would understand her anger. He would finally understand everything. At this very moment she wasn't so sure about him knowing the truth. She was in distress. What would she do if he rejected her ? Would it be possible to go back on her life as if nothing happened ?
Deeks could read her like an open book and sometimes she hated it. But at the same time she kind of wanted him to see through her, to get that she more than liked him. Maybe he liked her too. Who knows ?
« Is there a problem ? » Deeks could feel that something was going on with her. She was the person he discerned the more. And he loved it. But right now, all he knew was that something was off with her. And it had been like that during the whole day. What, was the main question that's why in his head he thought of every second of the day. Then, Talia's face popped up in his mind. And from this moment everything made sense. She was now looking at him, with arrows in her eyes. She stood up, packing her things in her bag, trying to not go on a rampage.
« Nothing. There's nothing. I'll see you tomorrow. » She was so ready to go home, order some food and watch a stupid TV show. Maybe she was ready to give up on him. Why would she keep trying to be more confident and more opened to him if it was for nothing ? She once said to him that she was making efforts for him but maybe Deeks didn't saw them.
« Kensi. » He grabbed her arm, strong enough to make her stay but not too brutal to hurt her. Because well, when he was with her, all Deeks could do was care for her and cherish her. That's why he decided to make a move towards her, towards the woman he loved.
« Wait. Is this because of Talia ? Because you know that there's nothing. Right ? »
She looked at Deeks' blue eyes, wrinkled her nose, trying to figure out what she was going to say. God, she wanted to say a lot of things, she wanted to let him know that yes she was hopping that Talia was just a random girl for him, that yes she was the first woman he was thinking of when he wakes up on the morning, that yes she had feelings for him. All she said was that she didn't even care. That he could do everything he wanted because it wasn't her business.
« And I'm the one who is supposed to be bad at communication skills. Talia and I are not dating and I don't understand why you are so angry because it's not like you are interested in me. Am I right Kensi ? » He was yelling and she was glad that the office was empty. He started to get on her nerves again and she couldn't take it anymore. Everything she was keeping to her since that moment had to be evacueted. That's why Kensi started to shout too, small tears in her eyes.
« I wanted you to be patient with me, I wanted you to do this thing where you understand me just perfectly but no, of course you couldn't do that. You had to screw her and then act as if it was nothing. Don't make this stupid face of yours and don't lie to me, I know you did. And I hate myself for imagining that we had a thing. That our thing had worth something for you as much as for me ! I hate that i've been jealous of her. So no, you're wrong, I think you saw her a few more times than what she said earlier. But it's ok. And I'm so done with you. » she was pushing him against his desk a few times before she couldn't handle it anymore. Kensi was just standing there, arms swinging, her head down. He tried to speak but nothing came out of his mouth. All he could do was gazing at her. He wanted to hug her and not leaving her. He wanted to raise her head and smile to her. Finally. Finally she said what she was thinking. Finally she wasn't keeping stuff for herself.
« Me too. »
Kensi looked up at him, raising an eyebrow, quite not understanding everything.
He took the time to breath calmly and then said : « I like you too. »
Deeks took her hand in his quietly, not so sure if she would hit him or not. He put one of her hair strands behind her ear, stroking his thumb on her cheek and whispering to her : « I like you too Kensi. »
She couldn't handle it anymore, and neither do him. Deeks got closer and kissed her hardly as if he wanted her to understand that fuck, yes he had feelings for her. So much feelings he couldn't explain them. And with that embrace they were finally like one. It felt good honestly. For both of them, it was the beginning of something new. Something bigger.
From the stairs, Hetty smiled gently before going back upstairs.
So, here's the first one shot, i don't know if it was good or really bad. All I know is that reviews would be cool and with it I'll post the second OS.