Chapter 1: Secrets
Back at the place where he used to live before, Chrollo had actually realized he's seating on his own couch in his own house, which he lives with his little brother, Mocha.
Upon seeing his brother under such condition, Mocha had known what's on his mind but decided to look normal and encourage himself to go forward.
"What is the matter brother? Why'd you look so sad and confused?", asked the midget kid softly, while positioning himself to sit at the side of his brother,
"I don't know Mocha, whether I could tell you about this or not, I'm your elder brother, not your little brother, I should've be the one you can lean on not the one who lean on you", replied him confusedly, nothing seem right in his head,
"But brother, you can't always count on yourself only, you have to share your mind with others too, or you'll going to asylum and leave me alone cause of your frustration you held alone", said the raven haired kid straight at his own brother, in such tone and the dangerous smile he had always used on,
"You right, but I still couldn't tell you", said the elder one sadly, his voice sounds as if this troubles really suffocating him, inside.
"Poor you brother, but, who else you could say to? Paku? Shal? Phinks? Feitan? Papa Frank? Machi? Shizu-san? Nobu? Uvo? Coltopi? Hisoka? Or Bono? Oh, I suggest it's not Bono, because he won't give you anything but those strangely sound he made", said the kid as he cheer his brother up,
"Alright, I'll tell you. Sorry Mocha, you always be my baby brother so far, so I didn't realize just how much time had passed until you told me those things", said him in return, his voice sound calmer,
"Ukh! I should've known!" grumbled the kid as he cranked his face up, "But…Tell me! Tell me! I won't tell anyone about this, I promised!", cried the kid as he plead his elder brother,
"Okay, here's the thing-", Chrollo started on his memory and thoughts,
"Do you know that I had a girlfriend that-",
"Happen to be Shalnark's cousin, Kurapika-san, right?", cut the kid off of his brother's sentence which frowned the elder one,
"How did you know?", asked him curiously, his eyes staring right at Mocha's blue eyes, really a pair of eyes that reminds him of the said girl that lead him felt breathless, suffocating.
On the other hand, Mocha seems to reminds another something that really makes him wants to shout to his brother, but he decided to hold it back and said things slowly instead, he just know how bad the heart of his brother had wounded, and as a good little brother who read minds, he won't let himself caused another wound at his brother's heart.
"Well, your Stargate's classmates had told me since they saw me come in Shal's tow and moreover when Shal himself claimed me as your brother", said the kid calmly, his cleared blue eyes were staring at the floor uneasily, as if he felt really bad,
"How far did they have told you?", asked the raven-haired young man kindly, he even using his low tone as if he was afraid of barking at his own brother,
"Quite much, I suppose. But I obviously could tell by the moment I saw your picture smiling with her, it was happened before I was even born", said the little raven haired boy sadly, his mind just have thought how wonderful his brother's life could be if he just didn't born.
They're mother must have been lived, and if that single part was happened, none of these would have occurred, he (Chrollo's father red.) would not get married with another woman, and he (Chrollo red.) would not be parted with the girl he loves and he also wouldn't have to massacred the Kurutan and lose her.
"Don't say those things as if I would be happier if you didn't born Mocha, you are the best thing ever happen in my life", said the raven haired young man surely, in which way that has confused the little boy,
"Now you sound more like a father than daddy himself", replied the little boy confusedly, but in a second he let a smile out as if he's reassuring his brother that he's already cheered up,
it should be me who cheer him up isn't it?, asked Mocha to his mind which gave nothing as an answer in return.
"Perhaps I am, since raising you all this time let me feels how a father feels to raised his son without a mother", said the young man happily, he sounds like had cheered up by the conversation he had with his cute-too-small-little-brother.
They both went silent as several minutes passed, but after it, Mocha comes a real investigative question,
"So, how close you two exactly brother? I mean you and Shalnark's cousin", said; or rather asked the little raven haired boy, Chrollo let a sigh before he could afford any answer,
"Let say that she was my very first friend before everyone else, and I'm also known how's her family which is happen to be Shalnark's, but in fact, I didn't actually know that she's a Kuruta and she had a grandmother at the Rukuso Village, she didn't tell me that far yet, I suppose", said the young man clearly, in a tone that much could be determined as a quite sad as he realizes how he had just barely know a little about the girl he remembered he knows all about her,
"Brother, I'm actually had met Kurapika-san at the hunter exams", said the little boy suddenly, which has successfully froze his brother at his spot,
"How could you didn't tell me about it?", asked the elder worriedly, no scratch that; obviously, it's curiously
"Well, first, you never ask. And second, I've just known from B-class's member about the same Kurapika which has a definitely different gender and actually is your girlfriend", replied the little boy honestly, his usual puppy eyes were traded with a pair of big blue innocent eyes,
"And I thought that I need a very serious confirmation since it'll gonna be too twisted if I say about Kurapika-san to you but ends up they're both are two very different persons", Mocha continued his tell-tale to his brother who listened to all the words seriously,
"From what you've just said, I bet you have already got the confirmation, so when did you get it?", asked the elder shortly after a series of lengthy explanation,
"When Ryodan had started a big blows at the York shin's auction back then-", the kid respond with a guilt tone,
"I had a rendezvous with her", he continued.