Preface
Life was hard. I had learned a long time ago that life just wasn't fair. If it was there would be no point. Being a child I had learned to become invisible simply because it was easier. I had always been out done by my twin sister Lily but I could never blame her for my unhappiness. Even though everything she did was perfect I couldn't help but love her. This is how I learned if I kept to myself no one could hurt me, except for maybe myself. But I made a fatal mistake, I let someone in.
His name was Embry Call. He was honest, passionate, unselfish and beautiful. God he was beautiful. He was everything I had always wanted to be and I loved him for it. How could I not? I loved him for the way he said my name and the smile that was reserved for me and me alone. I loved the sound of his laugh and the feeling of his warm hand in mine. I loved him because he saw me. He saw me for what I was shy, neurotic, imperfect Margaret but he was there for me anyway. I had loved him since that very first day in the third grade when I was sitting by myself at lunch, miserably. He walked over and smiled at me. He really smiled and then he took my hand. I knew I would never let go after that. I loved him so much it was painful but I gladly accepted the pain. But he would never know because I would never tell him. I would want to so badly I would bite my tongue to keep in those three words that could ruin everything.
So instead of the love I had always wanted I got friendship, his friendship. But that was enough to quench my thirst but not forever. I wouldn't burden him with my love. I wanted him to be with another girl. I wanted him to find a girl that could love him as much as I did but could say it. She would love him and make him happier than I ever could. So I learned not to be selfish because I could never have him. Now years later I wish once I would have been selfish. I wished that once I had said yes I love you to so many people but I never did. But now it was too late because now I was going to die.