(a.n. sorry but this is really bad)
(JPOV)As I walked down the corridors of Castle Voltaire I thought of what a monster I am.
"Jane, dear, what's wrong?" my wonderful husband Demetri asked me.
"Thinking of what a monster I am." I said sitting down on our bed.
"You are not a monster. Never." He told me.
"Demetri, I don't want this." I said.
"Don't want what?"
"Vampiricy." I said crying into him.
"Jane, Demetri, Heidi's here with several humans." Felix told us from the staircase.
"Coming." Demetri said.
We walked downstairs I was walking in Demetri's arms.
"Welcome to Volterra." Aro said to the humans as I locked the door.
Everyone – except Minerva pounced on a human. We all drank hungrily.
When we were done Minerva lit the corpses on fire to dispose of them.
"Jane, dear one, is something wrong?" she asked me.
"Mistress, there is but want to speak with you in private about it." I said.
"Come along." Minerva said taking my hand and walking to her office. "Alright what's wrong?"
"I don't want to be a monster anymore." I said.
"I can help you to drink animal blood and control your thirst. If you want." Minerva said pouring two glasses of ek blood.
"Thank you, Mistress." I said drinking the blood. It tasted wonderful.
"Jane, I know this is a personal question, but are you sexually active?" Minerva asked.
"No, but Demetri has wanted to, but I've chickened out." I said.
"It's not good for a vampire with a mate not to have sex."
"You'll be right here if I get scared right?" I asked afraid she'd leave.
"I'm stayin' right here waiting for you to come back and tell me how it was." She assured me.
"Demetri." I called when I got back to our room.
"Yes, babydoll." He said putting his arms around me.
"I'm ready to have you all." I said.