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-mumbles-No matter how much I wish i would've written these pulchritudinous characters.
Well hopefully you'll have fun reading it!
I used to be love drunk,
But now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever,
Forever is over
Love Drunk - Boys like Girls
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Chapter 1 Love Drunk
I drove up to the garage. "Hey Jake, last day of summer huh?" Jake looked at me as he cleaned off a wrench.
"Yea, I have a big surprise for your senior year tomorrow." Jake said grinning at me his smile always contagious made me follow.
"But you know how much I don't like presents!" I faked being mad, but really I just couldn't be mad at him. "You know you really should wear shirts? You're going to catch a cold."
Jake chuckled in his deep 'I'm a manly man' voice. "Don't worry wolf remember?"
He looked at me with such longing I had to look away. "So how is it going with the pack?" I tried to change the topic to something less uncomfortable.
"They're good, Leah's finally excepted she's in it no matter what." We just stood there in silence for a while. My phone started vibrating though I didn't notice. "Um Bells? Your pants are vibrating." He was stifling his laughter by pretending to cough. I grabbed my phone and answered as I realized who it was on the other line.
Him. "Shit." I murmured under my breath. "Um I'm gonna call you back." The hole I had forgotten about for so long came back causing me to lose my balance. I lurched over feeling the need to vomit.
Jake rushed to me concern flooding his face. "You ok Bella?" He looked terrified.
"I'm fine. Just a little sick, I should get home." I got back up holding my chest. Then I saw the look on Jacob's face. Hurt. He knew who had just called. Whose voice had ripped me open once again. Edward. "Talk to you tomorrow Jake!" I said as I walked towards my truck breathing heavy. "Why? Why now?!" I quietly yelled at myself. I climbed in my trunk as I pushed my backpack over to the passenger seat. I drove off, but not before I glanced at Jake. I knew that look in his eyes. Hurt, Scared, Jealousy, Anger. A deadly combination on my heart, I wish I could just choose one. I got home and stormed for my room. Charlie raised an eyebrow at me but didn't bother asking. That's what I love about Charlie he doesn't confront all the time and needs to know everything like most parents.
I flopped down on my bed almost breaking a bone in the process. I dialed the number, he, called with. Ring, Ring, Ring. "Bella!" I took a shaky breath. "Why are you calling? Are you trying to yet again kill me emotionally? If so you have succeeded!"
Tears were falling from my eyes out of fury. He left me, I felt like I was going to die. Jake saved me this whole time. Edward just didn't care, now he decided to though?
"Bella no it isn't that! I just wanted to make sure you were ok, I'm sorry I just had to do it." I glared at the phone.
"Ha! Like you care!!! You said you'd be there!! But no, Victoria came after me, I almost died. Guess who saved me?! Jacob Black!! Yes the WEREWOLVES saved me when you didn't give a shit about me and my life!" All the anger I didn't realize I was holding inside me for so long boiled up and exploded.
"Bella, I've never heard you do mad. You never curse. He must be a bad influence on you." He tried to keep his voice down and I just got angrier. "Oh yes because YOU were such a GREAT influence. I was the living dead after YOU left. Now because of JAKE I have some life back, no thanks to YOU! I loved you and you betrayed me!" I was shaking, tears coming stronger now, I wasn't mad anymore; just hurt and alone.
"Bella I'm, sorry, but it was the best thing to do. You know I love you. And I can tell you still love me as well." I could hear the smugness in his voice, my heart sank. Then I lied to him completely.
"No I don't love you; I hate you, I love Jacob." I mentally sighed. I never liked lying, but it was the only thing I could do to get him off my back. Although maybe deep down I know I'm not lying, and that's what made it so easy. Jake truly was here whilst Edward was off at god knows where. I hung up feeling content with myself. But I knew I still loved Edward even if it hurt me to do so. I wanted to love Jake though.
I heard a faint knock on my door. "Yes?" Silence.
"You ok in there Bella?" I sighed.
"Yea, I'm fine, great in fact." I smiled knowing that was the truth.
"'K, I ordered pizza so you wouldn't have to cook tonight." I could hear Charlie's footsteps as he descended towards the living room.
I nodded to myself as I went over what happened today. I went over to Jake's; got a call from Edward, told him I hated him and loved Jacob.
Tears slid down my cheeks. Not out of sadness, but of joy. I was hopefully finally free of the dreams, the hallucinations; the pain.
"I will love you Jacob. I must, you are my sun; you will be mine." I whispered to myself hoping I sounded determined. I was smiling without noticing it the tears drying on my skin. We will be happy.
Charlie interrupted my thoughts. "Bells! Pizza's here!"
I practically skipped down the stairs. I didn't even notice but I had a full appetite. Charlie glanced at me while I ate.
"I have to say Bella; you hanging out with Jake is the best thing you could've done. I mean look at you! You're smiling, and eating with genuine hunger. You're much better ever since you started talking to him and everything. Edward was bad for you. He just wasn't right. Especially not after he hurt you like that."
I was shocked; Charlie rarely ever talked like that. Then I shocked him by not getting mad.
"Charlie. I know; Edward wasn't the right choice. He won't ever be either."
"Well then,; I'm glad you finally realized. I'm proud of you Bells."
I finished my pizza and said goodnight to Charlie. I was so content I wasn't even worried about my "present" tomorrow.
I stepped near my bed and I felt the floorboard squeak. "What the blueberry muffins?" I stepped on the board again. I could see a little side of it popping out. I grabbed for it but got a splinter when I heard a knock on my window. "Jake…" I walked over to the window and let him in. "What are you doing here; at midnight too?"
"You seemed conflicted when you left. I wanted to make sure you were ok. Obviously you are so I'll just go." Jake said already turning around.
I grabbed his arm. "No Jake don't go. I could use some company. Please?" I begged him with my eyes. I didn't want him to leave. I wanted to love him.
"Fine since I'm staying let me help you with that floorboard before you hurt yourself more." He turned around and took the splinter out. He kissed the prickle of blood before he bent down to lift the board. He lifted it enough for his hand, reached in and pulled a photo out. A photo I had though Edward burnt or something; a picture of himself. The hurt in Jacob's face was clear. "Did you know this was in here?"
I bent down to his level and took the picture. "No, I just felt the floor board was lose. But you know what?" I tore the picture right in half just like what Edward did with my heart. "I don't love him like that anymore; never again will I love him."
Jake stared at me in awe. His massive hands went up to hold my face. "Bella I love you." He kissed me passionately, and I found myself kissing back.
"I love you Jacob" I knew those words were true as I kissed him more forcefully. Then I remembered Charlie was in the room next to mine; I pushed a hand against Jacob's chest.
"Charlie's next door I don't think we should get carried away." I said between breaths while I saw Jake catching his breath as well.
"I'm fine with that. Just being near you is fine with me, but I warn you I'll be gone by the time you wake up. Ill need to go back to the rez and get ready. Plus I don't want your dad thinking anything." Jake kissed my nose and I began to dream as his snore lulled me to sleep.
"Night Jake…"
Ok this is my first fanfic so don't kill me!
I fell in love with the relationship between Jacob and Bella
Yesh I am disappointed it did not thrive
But sigh we cannot always get what we want in life now can we?
So this is just the first of hopefully many chapters to come.
Ill try updating once a week hopefully.
Id appreciate reviews just to see if my writing isn't THAT bad.
All in all I hope you enjoyed it!