My first fanfiction this year and one in a long time. So let me see if I can still do one.

I do not own Big Time Rush or any of the characters except my OCs

Summary: Changes can sometimes bring hardships to a person and Logan learns this. So he makes the choice to move on and face through them. To accept it and just leave it in the past and journey on away from it. He will encounter more problems and obstacles but try to continue on. See if he ends up where he wants his life to head.

If it becomes popular then I will continue.

Prologue

Looking out to the sun rise from the balcony was calming to the pale singer. He had been stressed out for a while now with the way his life has been going. He also felt there was something that he lost but could not figure out what it was. He was still part of the band Big Time Rush that was still going strong with three platinum records and a fourth album coming out. The groups lives had been going good for the most part. There were the ups and sometimes the downs the group had to face because they were in the spot light a lot of the time. The down parts mostly fell on Logan to use his brain and help fix or change so that everyone could feel better. Each member of the group had their own part of the group but they also still relied on Logan. Still as the group continued with their adventure, Logan felt something was wrong with the pack of friends. He could not see what was wrong when he looked at them.

Kendall, the born leader relied on Logan to keep him leveled and make sure that his plans did not get out of hand or lead them to something they could not handle. Logan also introduced Kendall to the competitive world of business. The leader was able to handle himself dealing out business deals and compromises. The brainiac was able to steer him into a stable path coupled along with Katie showing the blond some tricks. The greatest favor Logan did for his friend was to help him get over his relationship with Jo. The two broke up and the actress had moved to the East side to continue with her career. Now Kendall was paired in a more serious relationship with a girl Logan used to like but set him up with.

James "the Face" was able to land some acting and modeling jobs and relied on the advice from Logan to get through some of the things. He would go to Logan if he had any problems and the pale genius would listen and help guide him to what was best. The best advice Logan gave him was for him to start dating Camille. Logan knew the two had feelings for each other, even when Logan was dating her. He would see the way the two looked at each other and how they would "accidentally" find each other. So he broke up with Camille and after a few weeks set the two up together.

Carlos the reckless stunt man of the group always did something to get himself hurt. So Logan would be there to reduce some of the damage at the beginning of the stunt and bandage him up at the end. Carlos may have been hyper and quick for somethings but he was slow on a lot of other things. Such as common sense and things that were obvious. Logan was there to help him through most of the things that he did not understand. Whether it be school work or giving him advice on his life. He was finally able to get Carlos to give up on the Jennifers and start to notice Stephanie.

Now Logan was able to finish high school a year and a half early and took some college classes online to keep up his studies. When he was not doing that and the rest of the group were still in class, Logan was running errands for either Griffin or Gustavo. Simple errands such as paper work or active things like dealing with other executives and escorting people around. He got some enjoyment out of the odd jobs because he was able to form some connections with different people in the different businesses making somethings easier with having resources. He proved to Gustavo and Griffin that he was a great asset to the company and not just another singer.

What made things harder for Logan was when he started to go to UCLA for courses to try Pre-Med there. He knew that the Boy Band would not last forever and so went ahead with trying to do what he always wanted to do since before the singing. So he chose to go to a school with a good Pre-Med program. He did most of this on his own time with the other three not paying much attention when they had the free reign to do more things on their own. So while the guys partied it up, Logan worked. He was able to get through all the requirements for Med School and graduate but skipped out on the ceremony because he was on tour. When he got done with the tour he had received some bad news and fell into a small sense of depression.

This depression then brought on an epiphany on what was wrong and what he lost. He lost his friends that would always be there for each other. He noticed that they grew apart as time went on. He did not know when it happened but it had. Before, if anyone of them were in a bad mood, the others would easily notice and be there for the friend without a second notice. Now he was just suffering through his problems alone. Kendall was not there to try and calm him down and motivate him to look on the brighter side but he is instead spending his time with . James would have been there as support and talk to him about remaining strong and not breaking but he was out taking pictures and enjoying the star life. Carlos, who would be there cheering him up with his goofiness and crazy stunts, was trying to be the party master. They were not friends anymore and Logan realized this.

So here the depressed man sat on the balcony watching as the sun rose for a new day and a new life after over a week of the revelation. Logan decided that for once he may just follow up with what his common saying was. He was going to get new friends. He had already packed his belongings while Kendall and James were at their girlfriend's places and Carlos was dead asleep in his room. He had already planned out what his new life was going to be but first he had close the door on his old one. So he spent a good part of the past few days coming up with the best way on departing and he came up with a letter that should help ease the situation to be easy on everyone. He looked at the clock and saw how close to 7 and got up to grab his things from his room. His flight leaves at 10:30 that morning so he got his stuff. As he was leaving, he took the letter out and put it on his side of the dresser. As he left the apartment, he took a last look at the apartment that he had been living in for the past 5 years. He closed the door to it and to his old life. While walking away from it, he thought about what he wrote to ensure the others that he was done.

To whoever it may concern,

That is a weird way on starting this out because it is true. I don't know who would find this letter or on who would have any concern with it and me. Because I have come to see that what I use to know has changed completely. The ones that I used to rely on have changed. Just as I have and it is this change that has forced me to take a good look at my life. What I saw made me realize that things will not be the same.

Kendall, you were the leader that I looked up to and for some reason, the closest friend. Through the years, this has changed. I don't know you anymore and we are acquaintances now.

James, you were the one that always gave me advice on things and I would go to about my love life. Now things have happened to where I cant trust you anymore with what you tell me.

Carlos, the crazy one and my partner to always be there to show me how to enjoy myself. We cant say that now since the last time we hung out was months ago.

What we had is gone and I know that it will never be the same. We grew apart and our lives doesn't fit together anymore or I dont fit in your guy's lives anymore. James dream to be a star started it, Kendall's opportunity had us here and Carlos's ambition to be great that moved this adventure or adventure along. I had nothing to do with it and just tagged along. Now I am cutting myself out of it.

I had to after dealing with things that has put me in a bad place. A place where my thoughts turn dark and my life becomes unimportant. One that clawed at my heart and brought pain and sorrow. It was the best option for me.

You guys can still continue on being in the spot light but I am leaving it. I may be gone but you guys have to move on. Though I dont think it would be hard for you guys to.

Kendall, I was able to set up an audition for the Minnesota Wilds for you at the ice rink next month. I dont know if you still want to be a pro in hockey but here is the chance. If not then Griffin has agreed to take you on as an apprentice to learn more about the competitive world of businesses.

James, I have set up multiple modeling opportunities and several movie auditions. You just have to call up this agent named Betsy Rockwell who I got to be yours. She is a great upcoming agent that I got to agree to take you on as a client.

Carlos, I also got you a try out for being in the pros for hockey. Just go with Kendall if he goes and good luck. If not then I know that the fire academy would love to have a person like you joining to be a fireman. You like to save lives and are energetic so it is the perfect job for you.

As for me, I am going to go and follow what I said so many years ago. Become a doctor and get new friends. Just as I said before "I've gotta get new friends".

I regret it but I have no choice anymore. We are not friends because then you guys would have been there for me. Because I would not have to suffer for what has happened the past month alone. Because I would not be feeling betrayed by the people I once called my brothers. Because I would not have to face all of the issues I have alone. Because I would not be disappointed in you guys and mostly myself for letting this happen. Because I would not be writing this like a spoiled baby that is crying. But I am and it is true.

I had no one for the past month to hear me out. Someone so I can talk to or vent my thoughts out to. No one to tell me that I might be wrong. To help me through this and get over it

We could be friends again in the future but it wont change what has happened and it wont be the same. We are all different now. So it would still be meeting new people. So goodbye to what we had and hello to what we've got. To continue and move on\. So goodbye.

Sincerely,

Logan Mitchell

Thinking of the letter and what he meant about it got him to lose track what he was doing. He was able to make it on board without much guilt clawing at what was left of his heart. So he sat in the plane and waited as it took off leaving behind what he wanted to move on from.

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