So I've had this story just sitting in my notebook chapter 1 unfinished for quite some time. So I decided today after talking to someone to finish it. So here is chapter 1. It's not beta'd none of my AU stories are it seems. It's about Cas and Dean and Dean's stupidity to see things right in front of him. Well that may be a bit harsh but it's sort of true. So enjoy the story.

I've found a reason for me,

To change who I used to be,

A reason to start over new,

And the reason is you.-Hoobastank

Dean Winchester was getting married, he was marrying Lisa Braden. He didn't think he'd ever be the type to get married. He was a ladies man, and the thought of being with one person used to terrify him. The fact that it doesn't anymore surprises him but he chalks it up to growing up some. Dean looks at the time oh shit he thinks. I am supposed to meet Castiel and Sam soon.

Castiel is Dean's best friend; he's been his best friend since high school. They were inseparable before Lisa came into the picture. Now he finds himself with hardly any time at all for Castiel. He rushes so he can get ready so he can leave.

Castiel lives in a small apartment it's got 2 bedrooms a kitchen and bathroom. He lives with his brother Gabriel and he practically lives with Dean's brother Sam Gabe's boyfriend. Since Sam is always staying there with Gabe. Gabe and Sam have been together since high school, but that's another story for another time.

Gabe and Sam are in the kitchen when Cas walks in.

"Morning Cassie." Gabe says to him

"Morning Cas." Sam says.

"Moring you two." Cas replies.

"So what are you boys doing today?" Gabe asks them, he knows it has to do something with Dean's wedding.

"We have to get fitted for tuxes today for Dean's wedding." Sam replies to his boyfriend.

Gabe snorts. "Sounds like fun. NOT!"

Cas is very quiet just sitting there drinking his cup of coffee if you could call it that, with all the cream and sugar he puts in it. He's staring off into space with a sad look on his face.

""Cas are you ok?" Sam asks.

Cas startles back to the conversation. "Oh yes Sam, I'm fine."

Sam knows Cas is lying to him, he knows Cas is in love with Dean. He and Gabe have discussed it on more than one occasion. And lately Sam wonders if Dean feels the same way about Cas.

"Ok Cas just checking." Sam says.

"We should go, we have to meet Dean." Cas replies.

Sam kisses Gabe and they leave taking Sam's car. They get to the tux shop and Cas looks in the window seeing the object of his fantasies. Dean is hot. He's got blonde hair and the most amazing hazel green eyes and then he's got all these freckles. Like I said Dean is hot. Cas doesn't notice that Sam has stopped walking and runs right into the tallest Winchester.

"My apologies Sam." Castiel says.

"It's ok Cas." Sam replies. "Ready to do this?"

"AS ready as I'll ever be." Cas says.

They walk in and go over to Dean.

"Hey Sammy." Dean says to his brother.

"Hiya Cas." Dean says to Cas with a warm smile.

Sam is watching his brother, he wants to know if he's been seeing things or not.

"Hello Dean." Cas replies.

"Ok so are we doing this?" Sam asks Dean. He has stuff to get done before his brother's bachelor party tonight.

"Yeah come on." Dean replies.

The two follow him. Dean gets fitted first. Cas is watching him as he strips down to nothing but boxers and a tank top. While Sam watches Cas watching Dean.

Sam thinks about what he needs to get done for tonight. He's already booked the club and the stripper. Because he knows if he doesn't book a stripper he will never hear the end of it from Dean.

Dean is done and it's Sam's turn to be fitted. Dean walks over to Cas and sits next to him.

"You know I never thought I'd be getting married." Dean says.

Cas replies to him. "Me either."

They sit in silence lost in their own thoughts. Castiel is miserable he doesn't want to be in this wedding let alone have to watch his best friend who is madly in love with get married. But it's always been a thing for him kind of like a mantra Anything for Dean. Anything Dean needs Dean gets.

Dean is thinking about his upcoming marriage. He's pretty sure he loves Lisa, hell he might even be in love with her. His parents both love her and he loves Ben. They should get married right? So why does he have all these doubts lately then?

Sam finishes getting fitted for his tux. "Ok I need to get out of here I got stuff to do for tonight, Dean you give Cas a ride home ok?" Sam says leaving without waiting for a reply.

Cas strips down to his boxers and tank top. Standing there stiffly while the seamstress places pins and measures him, wanting to be anywhere but here. They finish and Dean thanks them before they leave. They get into Dean's car, his 1967 Impala. Dean loves this car he even calls it his baby sometimes.

"Want to get some lunch Cas?" He asks

Cas knows he should say no to him. But he can't he craves Dean's presence.

"Sure I'd love to Dean." Cas replies

"Great let's go to the diner." Dean says. Dean loves the diner however Lisa hates it so he never gets to go unless he's with Cas, Sam or Gabe.

They get seated and Cas excuses himself to go to the bathroom. The waitress comes while Cas is gone and Dean just goes ahead and orders for him. Chicken sandwich, fries and chocolate shakes for Cas and bacon cheeseburger fries and coke for Dean. He knows Cas so well he can order for him easily.

Cas gets back and Dean says. "I ordered for you. Chicken sandwich with cheese and mayo, fries and a chocolate shake."

Cas just stares at Dean thinking he knows me so well. Cas thinks back to a time when he thought him and Dean were gonna hook up. They had kissed the night before both of them were a little tipsy. He walks into Deans house thinking about it. He stops in his tracks when he sees Dean kissing beautiful women in his living room. He knows that the kiss meant nothing, that it was a fluke if you will. His heart broke a little bit that day and just kept breaking a little piece by piece until the engagement announcement. He didn't think he could hurt anymore but boy was he wrong.

"Cas, Cas." Dean calls out to his friend.

"Dude where were you?" Dean asks.

"Nowhere it's not of Import." Cas replies.

The food comes and they eat in silence. Dean drops him off at home, calling out to him "See you tonight Cas."

TBC

A/N: Like I said this story has been sitting in my notebook half written for a long time. I feel bad for Cas he's so sad right now. It will change though I am sure. Anyways. Review, review, review please. I like to know who reads my stories. Thanks –s-