Dear Diary;
Today My 7th boyfriend Dumped me, It's the second guy that this actually hurts the most. The first guy that made me hurt the most is- unmentionable. I wish not to talk of what he did to me, what it still does. What's with guys, saying its not you and its not me, I just don't think it'll work out. Come on, It's got to be someone or something, It can't just not work out. Well I went to Hinata's house today, right afterwards, she always makes me happy! I love her to bits! And Ino came too. Brownies, gossip and a make over always cheer's someone up. I love it! But I will leave soon to talk to Ino. I'll write back soon.
Forever
Sakura
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And Here Is Where I'll write a biography, Starting today, November 22, 2006.
For the first time in a while I, Haruno Sakura, cried. My hair must be a mess, and my eyes are still sore from crying on Hinata's shoulder. I couldn't speak for a while. It's funny because I knew it'll happen sooner or later, I just didn't want that to happen, I had thought up of what to do in that situation, but when it came down to it, I just stood there, like I normally do, nod my head, agreeing with him, and walked away. I am really stupid. I still, like him, dear I say, love him? No, it can't be love, we barely talked to each other, But The way he made me feel, the way I wanted to be with him all the time, I can't help but wonder.
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Dear Diary;
FUCK IT! I hate this, I want to die! why do I have to have these feelings for him!? He's a scum bag! Now I believe his excuse is bull shit but what else can I do!? I can't demand him a real excuse in case he might hurt me some more. I hate my life here, so I'm leaving! leaving to live far away! but you know what's stupid...I'm leaving Konoha so I can get away from him! But I'm leaving everything i love behind! Fuck it, I'll become a missing nin! but oh my god! I hate it! I hate this feeling... :( help me please!
Losing it
Sakura
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A week and a day later. Nothing's changed. I still feel like I've lost something of major importance. I don't know how to describe my feelings. I've officially cried for a full week, and I just can't stand being here anymore. I get jealous, upset or sad over the stupidest of things, and now I can't even look at him without feeling like I want to cry. I just don't know what to do anymore...I've run out of options. I wish we won the lottery so that I can go to the sand for a couple of months...maybe a year.sigh.
Dear Diary
I did it. I actually...did it. The blood is still staining my hands. I attacked my companion and ran. Ran like hell. I'm never going back. No, I can't go back. It's impossible. He's there. That son of a bitch. I'll kill him. I need to kill him in order to get over this. Sasuke. I will hunt you down, like you hunt your brother, and kill you the way you killed my heart. With one stab.
Saka
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