Hello! This is my first fanfic (actually, the first one i really wanted to publish) so if it's bad, leave me a note! Even if it's good!

Disclaimer: I don't own Kodomo no Omocha. If I did, I'd make it an actual story!

Chapter 1 - Cry

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A dusty brown haired girl that looked about 13 years old danced upon the stage of the Komawari theater. She moved gracefully, dancing to the flow of the song perfectly. Her golden brown hair swayed around her head as she jumped from a prop chair and twirled in the air. When the music stopped, ending with a loud finale, she was left in a graceful twirl that ended a few seconds after the music. Loud cheering began, especially from the front row. There, her family and very close friends were seated. Her mother, Mariko, clapped so hard that you could hear her loudly clapping over all the other cheers. Rei, who was seated next to her, was clapping second best, with his hands moving so fast you couldn't see them. Her friends, which were seated on either side of Mariko and Rei, clapped loudly, but not loud enough to cover over number 1 and 2's. Aya and Fukka, her closest friends, were cheering and shouting "Woo-hoo!" and "Yay, Sana!", apparently at the top of their lungs. The other two, Hayama and Tsuyoshi, weren't as spirited as the others, especially Hayama. He clapped boredly, staring around at others. Sana stepped off the stage, running into her mother's open arms.

"Oh, I'm so proud of you, Sana-chan!" Mariko exclaimed loudly. Maro, the chipmunk that lived in her hair, nodded it's head wildly. Her manager, Rei came over and hugged Sana. "That's my girl! Great performance!" he said proudly. The otheres came over and hugged Sana, much like the others, saying encouraging things, such as "Alright Sana!", "That was so perfect!" and, Sana's favorite, "I'm glad you didn't trip doing that jump-and-twirl move!" She was gasping loudly as she skipped over to her mother and said, "I'm not tired! Let's go somewhere! Like a restaurant! Tokyo's Best!". "Okay, okay, just settle down, I thought you'd be too tired to go somewhere.Why don't we just go home and have a nice family dinner?" her mother answered. Sana pouted, but she finally answered, "Just a dinner?". Her mother then pouted, but answered "Tokyo's Dinner?". "Okay!" exclaimed Sana excitedly.

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Sweet smells filled the air in the casual Tokyo's Dinner. "Ooooh! I see sushi!" Aya said excitedly. "Mmmmm...yummy!" Sana answered. "I just looove sushi!" "Hey girls! Over here!" called Tsuyosh called from a nearby booth; extended by a table or two. Sana saw Hayama, quietly pouting and cursing to himself. "Dangit, why'd I ever wanna come here? Aw..." "Cause you're Sana's bodyguard." Tsuyoshi interuppted. "You've gotta protect her, and part of that is following her, did you forget?" All he got back was a grunt. "Hmph. No one listens to me." Tsuyoshi said sadly. "I was listening." Hayama said tiredly. "I just wasn't paying attention."

"Mmmm...these noodles are delicious!" exclaimed Aya. Sana answered, "I know! Just delicious, Aya-chan!" "Now remember, Sana," started her mother. "We've gotta get home early, we're going to the U.S. tomorrow. At 9 a.m." Sana groaned. Then, she had an excited look on her face. "Can Aya and Fukka- chan come with us?" she asked. "Sure, why not?" "YAY!" Sana, Aya and Fukka shouted excitedly."Omigod! It's the famous Sana-chan!" exclaimed an excited teenager's voice. People started to swarm around their small booth. "Can you sign this?" "I'm your biggest fan!" "I saw you a little while ago, you were awesome, Sana-chan!" Sana made a quick escape by saying she needed to go to the bathroom. She signaled the others to follow. "Where's Aya-chan?" Sana asked, looking around wildly. "Here!" shouted Aya as she elbowed and pushed Sana's adoring fans to get to their limo. They got away as soon as Aya got into the car. "Now, Sana" said Mariko. "I told you we should've had our dinner at home. Now we had to deal with your fans. Again." "I'm sorry, Mariko-sensei." answered Sana. "Besides, it's your fault I've got all these fans. You enrolled me in Komawari in the first place." Mariko gave a little "Hmph", but after that, they soon got home.

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"Ugh.." groaned Sana. She threw herself onto her impressive four-poster queen bed. It was white with laced edges. She got over Rei being her "gigolo" so they had different rooms now. "I should've listen to mama." she said tiredly. "My fans have been too...well...annoying. If it's anyone's fault that we have a hard life, it's mine." She dug her face into one of her beautiful cream white satin pillows and screamed at the top of her lungs into it. She took her face out and had a crafty look on her face. She then got sad again. "Ugh!" she screamed into her pillow. "Why don't I just commit suicide!?" She lifted her head. "It's my fault our lives are hard!" She pressed the pillow hard against her face. "UGH!"

"Sana-chan?" asked a worried voice. "Are you alright? I heard screaming and shouting from downstairs." Sana looked up. Her eyes were wet with tears and her eyes red. Her mother, Mariko was standing in the doorway. "We're having dessert downstairs, 'cause we didn't have it at the diner. Will you be relaxed enough to join us?" "No." answered Sana. "Just go away." "Alright. But we have your favorite...cheesecake!" Sana pushed the pillow hard against her face and started to cry. Mariko nodded hopelessly and started downstairs. "I'm gonna kill myself, mama." Mariko heard Sana say slowly, sadly and with a tremble. "Please, tell me why I...shoudn't." Mariko rushed as fast as she could to Sana's room. "Sana....no! You're too young to die!" Inside, Sana was about to hang herself from on of the bed's poster's with her collar. She turned to her worried mother, nodded her head and jumped off her bed. She ran into her mother's open arms and started to cry. "Mama....I love you...but it's what I have to do." "No, Sana." her mother answered. "You must live, live for me, like in the movie you made 2 years ago! You can't just give up your life if it's hard or makes other people's lived hard! You must live!" "But mother..." Sana started. "I have a feeling someone doesn't want me to live." She shut her eyes so hard you saw wrinkles around them. "Someone will murder me, mama.....they know my pain and willl want it to stop. For me. They're my biggest fan." She opened her eyes and looked up at her mother. "Please don't protect me from dying or I will do the job myself." Mariko nodded sadly, silent tears streaming down her face. "At least come down for dessert." she said hopefully. Sana nodded, and they both got up and walked downstairs, hand-in-hand, wet faces and red eyes.

"Mari--" Rei started to shout at the bottom of the stairs. He looked up and saw the mother and child walking down the stairs. Sana was wiping her tears with the shirt she had on. Mariko was looking down at Rei sadly. When they got to the bottom, she let Sana go to the dining room by herself and explained everything to Rei. He nodded a few times and said "I see." when she finished. "We can't let her go to America tomorrow. She wouldn't want to die out of her home." Rei suggested. Mariko thought differently. "It wouldn't matter. As long as she's there in her own will." she said.

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"Good night!" everyone called to each other as they went into their seperate bedrooms, in their pajamas and sleeping clothes. Sana, though, was already in her room, but just lying there thinking that everyone was happy except her. "They're just acting like that." Sana thought to herself. She started to blink wildly and then drifted to sleep.