Elflord: *appears out of a gateway* Whoa! It's The World! Just a minute . .
. *jumps behind a tree and returns almost immediately in a Mimiru like
costume, save for that it's black with red embroideries, is less revealing,
and is warrior style instead of the heavy blade* *looks around* Where is
everybody? Tsukasa: *appearing through the gate* Who are you? Elflord:
*turns around* Why, I'm your authoress of course. Tsukasa: *frowns* An
authoress? Do you mean like the programmer? Elflord: *small sweat drop*
Well . . . no. Tsukasa: *snigger* Well, I guess you don't mean much, do
you? I don't even know why I'm talking to you. You're just like everybody
else around here. Elflord: *--*
Hey, before I get any further on this, I really ought to put in the disclaimer. I don't own Tsukasa, the World, .hack, any of the characters, any episodes, or anything else for that matter. Man . . .when did writing disclaimers get so . . . depressing. Oh, and nor do I own the song "Aura", the .hack/SIGN song that inspired me. It's too beautiful to be created by me.
A few more author's notes. I don't take plot as orthodox. I feel that it's best to keep what parts of the plot that support the fic, but do not feel afraid to change other parts of to better support the fic. Please do not flame me for plot reasons. Another thing . . . this poem is written in Tsukasa's POV. However, I really haven't been able to figure out who he is writing to. If you go with my theory, it is something in the area of mother, Aura, the programmers, the awful truth, and The World itself. My best guess is it is a mixture between mother and Aura, but one could make a good argument for them all. Anyways, that's all I have to say. On with the fic *finally*
Not a Thing
Waters . . .
Why you must betray me.
How your traitorous face lies to itself. . .
Because I can't see past you
I can't see the point
Of what I'm supposed to mean.
And you told it me that it didn't matter
That it doesn't mean a thing.
So I laughed and turned away from you
Thinking you the insane ones
Thinking I was somehow beyond you.
But I couldn't find myself anywhere
So I ran away
Ran away from existence.
In the darkest part of the light
In the lightest part of the dark
I found what I thought was salvation.
You said it didn't matter
That it doesn't mean a thing.
And I laughed and turned away
But maybe not so loud
A tear in the smirk
A scream in the silence.
But I couldn't see
What the point was
What I was supposed to mean.
So I ran and ran
And when I ran, I couldn't find myself
Where I thought I should be
Where I saw the silhouettes of you
The shadows of that light.
But that didn't matter
Did it?
It didn't matter to you
That I was crying in the dark.
It didn't mean a thing.
No
It never meant a thing.
So I ran and I ran
And when I ran
I thought I ran from you.
In the dark, in the light
I saw myself
Like I could never be.
In a dream, I heard her whisper
That everything was fine
And it didn't mean a thing.
So I laughed and I cried
When I saw it at last
Because I wanted to believe
I wanted to feel
I wanted to be the way you are
So free
So pure
So amazingly far from here.
You were so far from me,
So far from everything.
So I laughed and I cried
Looking for the mystery
Without any clues.
In the darkest part of the light
In the lightest part of the dark
I reached out for your arms
And fell right through.
And you said it didn't matter
That it didn't mean a thing.
So I fell and I fell
And as I fell I thought I saw you
That it was you who was crying.
But it wasn't you
It was only me
And it didn't mean a thing.
I saw the truth
That broken mirror of truth.
Painted in blacks and blues
A little wax dolly in a box
A little piece of chiseled ice
A little child weeping at your feet.
So I screamed and I screamed
Trying to say it wasn't true
Trying to hold on somehow
Against everything that was dying
Everything killing me.
And you sang it didn't matter
That it didn't mean a thing.
So I fell and I fell
And when at last it all ended
I was still there
In everything I was really was
Broken, crumbled, cold.
So I cried and I cried
But it wasn't any use
Because you wouldn't come hold me
Because it didn't mean a thing.
And now, I'm still standing here
Just a shadow, just a face
Just an empty shell like always
So now I laugh and turn away
For at last I know
What I'm supposed to mean
Because I don't mean a thing
Nothing means a thing
And it never did.
But still I wonder
In this death that is eternal
In this land without a sun:
Nothing means a thing . . .
So what do you mean?
THE END
Hey, before I get any further on this, I really ought to put in the disclaimer. I don't own Tsukasa, the World, .hack, any of the characters, any episodes, or anything else for that matter. Man . . .when did writing disclaimers get so . . . depressing. Oh, and nor do I own the song "Aura", the .hack/SIGN song that inspired me. It's too beautiful to be created by me.
A few more author's notes. I don't take plot as orthodox. I feel that it's best to keep what parts of the plot that support the fic, but do not feel afraid to change other parts of to better support the fic. Please do not flame me for plot reasons. Another thing . . . this poem is written in Tsukasa's POV. However, I really haven't been able to figure out who he is writing to. If you go with my theory, it is something in the area of mother, Aura, the programmers, the awful truth, and The World itself. My best guess is it is a mixture between mother and Aura, but one could make a good argument for them all. Anyways, that's all I have to say. On with the fic *finally*
Not a Thing
Waters . . .
Why you must betray me.
How your traitorous face lies to itself. . .
Because I can't see past you
I can't see the point
Of what I'm supposed to mean.
And you told it me that it didn't matter
That it doesn't mean a thing.
So I laughed and turned away from you
Thinking you the insane ones
Thinking I was somehow beyond you.
But I couldn't find myself anywhere
So I ran away
Ran away from existence.
In the darkest part of the light
In the lightest part of the dark
I found what I thought was salvation.
You said it didn't matter
That it doesn't mean a thing.
And I laughed and turned away
But maybe not so loud
A tear in the smirk
A scream in the silence.
But I couldn't see
What the point was
What I was supposed to mean.
So I ran and ran
And when I ran, I couldn't find myself
Where I thought I should be
Where I saw the silhouettes of you
The shadows of that light.
But that didn't matter
Did it?
It didn't matter to you
That I was crying in the dark.
It didn't mean a thing.
No
It never meant a thing.
So I ran and I ran
And when I ran
I thought I ran from you.
In the dark, in the light
I saw myself
Like I could never be.
In a dream, I heard her whisper
That everything was fine
And it didn't mean a thing.
So I laughed and I cried
When I saw it at last
Because I wanted to believe
I wanted to feel
I wanted to be the way you are
So free
So pure
So amazingly far from here.
You were so far from me,
So far from everything.
So I laughed and I cried
Looking for the mystery
Without any clues.
In the darkest part of the light
In the lightest part of the dark
I reached out for your arms
And fell right through.
And you said it didn't matter
That it didn't mean a thing.
So I fell and I fell
And as I fell I thought I saw you
That it was you who was crying.
But it wasn't you
It was only me
And it didn't mean a thing.
I saw the truth
That broken mirror of truth.
Painted in blacks and blues
A little wax dolly in a box
A little piece of chiseled ice
A little child weeping at your feet.
So I screamed and I screamed
Trying to say it wasn't true
Trying to hold on somehow
Against everything that was dying
Everything killing me.
And you sang it didn't matter
That it didn't mean a thing.
So I fell and I fell
And when at last it all ended
I was still there
In everything I was really was
Broken, crumbled, cold.
So I cried and I cried
But it wasn't any use
Because you wouldn't come hold me
Because it didn't mean a thing.
And now, I'm still standing here
Just a shadow, just a face
Just an empty shell like always
So now I laugh and turn away
For at last I know
What I'm supposed to mean
Because I don't mean a thing
Nothing means a thing
And it never did.
But still I wonder
In this death that is eternal
In this land without a sun:
Nothing means a thing . . .
So what do you mean?
THE END
