A soft snow
fell, quietly covering the sleeping city. All was quiet and still as the entire
city slept-except one lone soul. He stood alone on a snow-covered hill, the
falling flakes nestling themselves in the waves of his braid and melting and
trickling down the back of his neck, making him shiver as the icy coldness met
his bare warm skin. He turned his face up and allowed the freezing snow to ice
the tears that were forming in his violet eyes. His eyes searched the skies,
remembering and wishing. "Heero."
~Flashback~
It was
night much like the one in the present time. Except he had been in space,
watching the snow fall from above. Looking down on the world, he had felt truly
alone. Tears had formed in his eyes, tears that he quickly blinked away. He knew
loneliness was better for him, everything he loved died. But he could not
completely turn his heart to ice.
Heero had
entered the room then. He stood in silence, watching as the boy who had seen so
much death and destruction in his short life, kept his lonely tears at bay. He
looked up then and met Heero's eyes. And suddenly they found themselves in each
other's arms, crying and intent on ridding the horror and loneliness that
surrounded them. They did not know if they had felt for each other all along or
if it was only a result of the chilling loneliness that the emptiness of space
gave them. But that night something happened.
And he had
fallen in love.
~End Flashback~
The tears
were flowing freely now as he remembered the nights and days of passion and
love that had followed after that night. But as soon as the mission ended,
Heero had disappeared; leaving him with the aching loneliness that would not be
cured. "Heero, where are you?" he thought out loud, blinking rapidly to keep
the tears from turning to ice on his eyelids.
"I'm here."
He turned in surprised shock. Heero was standing there, leaning against a tree,
his hands jammed in his pockets and face unfeeling as always.
He walked
over to him, "Heero?" Duo asked in amazement and traced one finger along the
other youth's jaw line. "Heero!" he screamed again in anger and hauled off and
hit Heero as hard as he could. "Where the hell have you been? Why the hell did
you leave me? I've spent every night for the past year staring up at the sky
where the hell you are and if you're dead and-," he couldn't control himself,
he kept hitting Heero until he was on the ground and sobbing hysterically.
"Damn it Heero, I needed you and you were gone! Where have you been?"
Heero sat
up and wiped the snow and blood that had mixed on his face off and crawled over
to the crying youth. "I'm so sorry," Heero murmured and reached out to embrace
his lover, but stopped and sat there his arms extended and hovering over Duo's
shoulders.
"You'd
better damn well be sorry," Duo spat out bitterly, and wiped his eyes. Glancing
up at Heero, he added gruffly, "Sorry about your face."
Heero
stared at him. He wanted to tell Duo so much-to explain-to promise never to
leave him-just to him that he loved him. But the Perfect Solider had been taught
what he had thought were the most useful things to know in life-until now. Now
he would give anything to be able to pour out his heart and beg forgiveness
from Duo. Finally, he answered blankly, "It's okay. Doesn't really hurt."
Duo glared
at him, "If you're just going to stare, get lost. I'm not really in the mood to
try and pry information out of you."
Heero tore
his eyes away from Duo and did what he had been taught. He acted on instinct
and grabbed Duo, kissing him at first soft and hesitantly, then harder and with
greater need and passion as Duo succumbed with little if any protest.
"No! This
isn't right! You just can't reappear in my life and act as if you just left
yesterday! We need to talk-to sort things out-," Duo said and pushed Heero off
of him, ashamed of his own need and desire.
"I don't
know what to say," Heero said, and let go of Duo reluctantly.
"Talk about
the weather. Isn't that what people do when they don't have anything to talk about?
You ought to know, Relena's dragged you to enough affairs!" Duo glared at Heero
and mentally gave himself a kick in the ass for being so open.
"You were
jealous of me and Relena?" Heero asked, a note of amusement in his voice.
"Isn't the
moon beautiful tonight?" Duo asked by way of getting out of a scrape.
Heero
looked up briefly, "Tonight's the perfect night."
"No its
not," Duo replied softly. "There's a flaw, a bit of imperfection in everything.
No matter how small or insignificant, its there." Heero fastened his eyes on
Duo. Duo slowly pointed to a spot at the edge of the forest where the snow had
been disturbed. "See the bloodstains? A deer was shot here earlier. I watched
it happen. That bloodspot and the scent of death is the one bit of imperfection
in the otherwise perfect night."
A tear
slipped from Heero's eye. Duo's words had woven a spell over him and the ice
that surrounded his heart was shattered. The Perfect Solider was at last, just
a human. "Why are you crying?" Duo asked softly, gently wiping the tear away
from Heero's cheek.
"You,"
Heero replied quietly. "You're my one flaw…my one imperfection…you and my love
for you…" Heero bowed his head and his body shook with the tears he had spent
his entire life holding back.
Duo let
Heero cry in peace for a moment, then sat up and embraced him. Resting his head
on top of Heero's head, he murmured softly, "It's all right. I love you. And I
am never letting you leave me again," he promised, idly stroking Heero's hair.
Heero
looked, up his eyes red with tears, "Duo-," Duo leaned down and kissed him
gently, laughing slightly at the surprised look in Heero's eyes.
"Let's go
home Heero. It's cold out here," Duo said and stood up holding Heero's hand.
Heero stood up. Home. That was a word he hadn't heard for a long time. A smile
broke out on his face, a ray of hope shining like the sun after a storm. It was
home because love was there, waiting and embracing him.
"C'mon,
Heero, I'll race ya!" Duo yelled and took off laughing, down the hill. Heero
stood still, and then remembered that he too could laugh. And he did laugh,
racing down the hill after his lover.