I need to tell you
How much I need to see your face
I need to tell you
How much I need to hear your voice
Once more, once more
I need to tell you
How much I need to encapsulate you
In my arms
I need to tell you
I just need to tell you
God knows why…
It has been 6 years,
6 damn years
You have been roaming inside
My thoughts
My actions
My words
My emotions
In my every fibrous being
Is it wrong?
Is it a sin?
Is it my fault?
Is it your fault?
Why would I need to feel this?
Why!?
Why!?
Why does it even have to be you?!
Questions about this relating to you will
Never end
I doubt
However,
Questions as to who am I
Is as vague as the fog that
Is certainly more visible than
The vagueness of my identity
I've consulted to known knowledgeable people
People who seem to know the answer
Seem
To know
Do they really?
Can they really answer me?
A sin
Lust
Experiment
Love
It is who you are
Spur of the moment
Evolution of feelings from friendship to romance
Genetic
These are some of what they say are
Answers
And so I've tried
Do what is right
Right
What is right?
Avoid it
Forget it
Hide it
Never acknowledge
Be blind
So I did
I did
I promise
I did it
…
…
BUT
Nothing happened
No, actually
Something happened
It had gotten deeper
Deeper
As if it can go further beyond the
End
And so when I thought it won't
I am already engulfed
Before I knew
Nevertheless…
There were no regrets
But rather a smile of pain
Not of sarcasm
Not to hide it
Completely opposite
A smile that is with pain
A wonderful feeling
That continuously amaze me
It does not kill
It does not lose its intensity
Rather intensifies
By every minute
Every minute
The heart pounds harder
Explosive
Hitting
Telling me
You are alive
And that is how
Living is
*Thank You
Most especially
Thank You
For the one
Who made you
Who made you
Cross our paths
At least once
I shall never
Forget