Hi! I do not own Doctor Who or the song What If You. Just to let you know.
Doctor's P.O.V.
Rose showed me where they were staying here in Norway. She was so happy to have me just by her side. I was happy, but I can't stay. She knows this, but she isn't admitting it to herself. I'm leaving her tonight with my clone. I can't have her, but part of me can. Rose has gone to bed, so I go and sit at her bedside. I look down at her sleeping form and smile just a little.
I can feel the tears building up and burning. They will not fall, though. I won't let them. I carefully caress her cheek and brush away the hair in her face. I think back to all the times we've spent together. Running, chasing, nearly getting killed. All with her and they will always take presidence over my heart. I love her, but she deserves so much better. I quietly started to sing my goodbye to her.
"What if you
Could wish me away
What if you
Spoke those words today
I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone
It's come to this, release me
I'll leave before the dawn
But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you"
I climb in under her covers and hold her tight and just snuggle up against her.
"But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do
What if you
Could hear this song
What if I
Felt like I belong"
That's what I feel when I'm with her. That no matter what happens, I will always have someone to turn to. But I'm torturing the both of us by leaving, never to see or be near each other again.
"I might not be leaving
Oh so soon
Began the night believing
I loved you in the moonlight"
I will always remember those long outings with her and how she looked looking up into the sky asking me which star was which, asking where we'd go next. She looked so beautiful with such a loving gaze, that I had no hope but to fall in love with her.
"So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do"
She won't be able to stop me from leaving. Cause when morning comes, I'll be gone. No long, hard, tearful goodbyes. Just gone. Leaving her with her family and my clone. She won't be alone. And she'll be happy with him. Same memories, same me. Just one heart. Can live as long as she can.
"I could've treated you better
Better than this
Well, I'm gone, this song's your letter
Can't stay in one place"
I think of all the times I put her in danger. All the close calls of losing Rose forever. Not anymore, she will be safe and I'll be doing the one thing I'm good at. Running.
"So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do"
I look at the clock, though I don't need to. I glance down at her and softly kiss her lips. I wish nothing more than to have many kisses with her, but I know we can never share in such sweet moments as this one. I get out of the covers and give her one last look, before I go to find Donna and leave Rose, for the last time, forever.
*Normal P.O.V.*
As the Doctor walked away, Rose shed a tear as she watched him disappear and leave her behind. When she knew he was gone, she cried her eyes out until the Doctor's clone came and comforted her. And so, the Doctor left with tears pouring down his face, and Rose crying into the chest of the replacement of her Doctor.