Ohayo minna! It's Haruka again~!
I've read some oneshots for Floric1434-san's contest, and I thought I might give it a try too.
This is a song-fic, based on Jolin Tsai's song 无言以对 (speechless/nothing left to say)
The lyrics were translated by me, if you think that something is wrong then I'm sorry~!
Well, I hope this oneshot is enough to make you cry, so prepare a box of tissues just in case ^^
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There's nothing left to say
Outside the window the dawn has broke, yet the room is still a little dark
A little tired of being all night sleepless with my eyes closed
Haru laid on the king-sized bed she used to share with him. It was 5 a.m., the sun rays peeking through the giant window on the other side of the room. Again, Haru was unable to sleep that night. It was the fourth time this week.
I turn around and hug the double bed's cover alone
Who accompanies you at this moment early in the morning to drink coffee?
The black haired girl, now grown into a beautiful woman, turned around and hugged the dark blue covers, eyes a little swollen, both because of the insomnia and from crying all night. Yesterday she had fighted with Kido, again. Unlike what both had thought in their teenage days, their marriage was not all happyness and love. Apart from waking up in each others arms and sipping coffee early in the morning together, there were also violent fights and restless nights, laying in the same bed yet facing different sides. She wondered, right now, who was having coffee with Yuuto at this time in the morning?
After love radiants it breaks, like a meteor falls after slipping
You said that we were alike, what you lack I'm unable to give it
The first years of marriage were just like a dream come true. Both being logical people, they didn't care about the rumors about one having an affair, or the other having a lover. It was expected that everything they did would become matter of gossip, so they have always been happy and affectionate with each other like a new wed couple.
You invalid our love, excuses so harsh and ear-piercing
There's nothing left to say
But things started to change. The last months Kido's behaviour has changed. He comes home later than usual, sometimes he barely talks and would go to bed without having dinner.
" Yuuto, is something wrong? You haven't been yourself these days." Haru asked worriedly her husband. The brown haired man didn't respond, he was busy viewing some data in his laptop.
" Yuuto?"
" It's nothing. The Italian selection hasn't accepted me. It's nothing big, it's their loss anyways." Kido answered without turning to his wife.
" Oh..." Probably he wanted to give me a surprise, it wasn't on purpose that he didn't tell me. He just didn't want me to get disappointed too...
You cry silently, is it because you're speechless?
There's nothing left to say
" Okaeri, Yuuto!" Haru beamed upon hearing the door close. That morning she had cleared her thoughts. Yuuto must've had a hard time during work. I shouldn't have annoyed him yesterday. So she made a special effort cooking herself, even if she had worked a lot too. Not being able to hide her excitement, she combined three steps into two and jogged to the entrance.
" How was your day? Dinner is ready, today I made your favourite dishes!"
Like a child, she was very eager to hear a compliment. She watched as her husband grabbed a piece of meat with his chopsticks and put it into his mouth. Then another one. And another piece.
" I'm going up."
Haru smiled sadly to herself. At least he ate it all...
Even brokenhearted, even collapsed,
Even it hurts so deeply,
Don't give me comfort, it is just a beautiful lie
" What's the meaning of this?" Kido asked coldly, throwing a magazine on the table. It was famous for discovering secret affairs that celebrities have, and on the front page there were Haru and Minamoto Saburo. Both were talking animatedly while dancing, and there was written in bold letters: New wed Mitsukai intimate with single Minamoto, is there something going on?
Haru took a quick glance at it and said.
" Yuuto, it is simply a hearsay. It was the last social gathering which you couldn't attend, I just found Saburo during the party and we talked a bit. Nothing more." She was slightly hurt that Kido didn't trust her. During that party, a lot of rival companies mocked and had been verbally abusing her because of his absence. If it wasn't because of her years of experience and Saburo, she would have cried.
" Hn." He turned around and walked to the bedroom, leaving a disappointed Haru behind.
Like this, Kido would pick up fights more and more frequently, bruising Haru's heart each time because of his lack of trust and cold attitude.
There's nothing left to say
To say
Hey yeah
There's nothing left to say
To say
Hey yeah
There's nothing left to say
But yesterday's fight was the last straw. The black haired woman could remember it as clear as water.
Breathing in to hold the tears that threatened to fall, Haru smiled weakly at her husband.
" Then tell me, Yuuto. What do I have to do?"
Kido stared emotionless at her. Because of his googles, the black haired girl couldn't tell what he was thinking. Nor what he felt at the moment. She doesn't want their marriage to become like this. Haru wants to mend it, to make it the way it was at the beginning. The brown eyed woman was prepared for whatever proposal her husband says. But little did she know that the next words that came out from Teikoku's coach made her unable to react for a long time:
" I want you to be a full house wife. I want you to stop being charming and so open-minded like a social butterfly. Each time you appear on the cover of a magazine with either Minamoto or Tsubasa, it damages the Kido Financial Group's reputation greatly. It is time for you to grow up and act like a true lady, so quit acting so recklessly and childishly. Also, please stop hugging and kissing every one you know. It may be a friendly gesture in western countries but we're in Japan. I do not want people to take the Kido name badly."
Haru stared at Yuuto. There was no sign of disbelief nor heartbreak. She simply stared at him, no emotion on her face.
After what it felt like an eternity, the former Mitsukai maiden closed her eyes slowly. Kido watched her wife intently, not missing any movement she made. Then, Haru opened her eyes and spoke calmly.
" No."
As if he knew what her answer was going to be, Kido snorted and was about to say something, when Haru continued.
" If I become a well behaving lady, quit acting so carefree and being different from most Japanese women, then I wouldn't be the Mitsukai Haru you fell in love with."
Kido was at a loss of words. Both her answer and the look she had on her face. It was of absolute tenderness and her eyes have never been so clear. He was about to mutter something when he turned around.
" Then we have nothing to talk about."
Haru stared at the retreating form of Kido. Slowly, her eyes became less and less clearer and her tender smile started fading. The study's door has been slammed shut...
...and so was her heart.
Discussing who's right,
Comparing who's wrong,
In the end there is no way to retreat
Saying that I don't hate you is being insincere
Slowly, Haru got up from the bed and got dressed. She was tired, really tired. Dismissing Koyumi's worried stare, the black haired woman started grabbing clothes out of her closet and threw them onto her bed. Upon seeing this, the brunette maid rushed to her mistress' side.
" Haru-sama, let me do this!" Koyumi said distressed, trying to grab the clothes that her mistress had in her hands.
" It's alright, Koyumi-chan. Let me do this by myself. Can you call Kimura-kun? Tell him I have business to talk with him." The black haired woman smiled gently at the maid, who left nervously the room.
Haru started to fold her clothes and put them neatly into a suitcase. After that, she rummaged through her dresser, only to put her jewelry into a small box, ehich she placed into a smaller suitcase. Next, she moved on to the wardrobe, pulling out a drawer and looking for her things. The young woman stuffed her suitcase with her things like a robot, not caring about anything. However, when she looked into the last drawer, one thing caught her attention and she stopped what she was doing. Haru pulled the maroon album and sat on the floor. She carefully opened it and her eyes softened up at the pictures.
Whatever, whatever, yet memories are like a personal ghost
Leaving me nowhere to hide, so miserable
" Haru, wait for me!"
A fifteen year old Haru turned her head and giggled at her boyfriend. They had been dating a few months after the FFI, after Kido confessed to her the night of graduation. Today it was their first date apart from the occasional soccer trainings with the team, and like most couples, she chose to go to the amusement park.
While she got distracted by the amount of sweet booths around there, a hand grabbed her smaller one and spun her around, only to be staring right into Kido's red orbs. She requested for him not to wear googles on this special day.
" Ne, Yuu-chan, your eyes are so beatiful~!" Haru hugged his arm and beamed, her grin getting bigger upon seeing the colour red creeping up on the game strategist's ears. " Kya, so cuute~!" She was about to peck him on the cheek when her lips came in contact with another pair for a milisecond. Haru froze and stared wide-eyed at her chuckling boyfriend, heat rising up her face.
" You look cute too when you blush."
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..
...
" Yuu-chan."
" Hm?" The now eighteen year old Kido looked at his girlfriend. After many years, he had grown into a handsome young lad, and he wasn't wearing googles, which showed his velvet red eyes. At the same time, Haru has grown into a mesmerizing fair maiden, and the way the stars shone brightly in the sky made her look even more dazzling.
" Let's make a promise." She slowly tore her eyes from the sky and stared into Kido's ones. The genius game strategist stared intently at her.
" Let's stay together to the end, no matter what."
Kido smiled foundly.
" Okay." And sealed it with a kiss.
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..
...
" This is for you."
Twenty year old Haru looked up surprised at the smiling Kido, who held out a lilac box. They were celebrating the fifth year they've been together in a refined restaurant. She took it from him and opened it carefully and gasped at the thing inside it.
" I love you, Yuuto!" She hugged him. She was far than happy from the gift: it was a beautiful yet simple silver necklace with a milky white tear shaped stone in the middle, with little diamonds decorating around it.
" It is absolutely perfect! Thank you!"
The blushing young lad kissed gently his girlfriend. The later smiled shyly, blushing softly a rosy pink.
You invalid our love, excuses so harsh and ear-piercing
There's nothing left to say
" I'm home." Kido said while closing the door and loosened his tie. He entered the living room, only to find a calm looking Haru sitting in a armchair, suitcases beside her.
" Please sit down."
The brown haired man obligued to his wife's request. He had an unreadable expression, and stared at the black haired woman across from him. She pushed a dark blue folder in front of him.
" What is this?" Kido picked it up and opened it.
" The divorce agreement."
You cry silently, is it because you're speechless?
There's nothing left to say
Kido walked Haru to the main entrance.
The game strategist had agreed to the black haired woman's terms without any emotion on his face. Right now he was staring at his former wife's back, until she turned around.
" Saa, Yuu-chan. Can I see your eyes for one last time?"
Slowly, Kido'a hands moved up to his head and he pulled the googles off of his face. Haru stared into a pair of velvet red orbs, who belonged to the man she loved all these years. She brought up her hand and rested it on Kido's face, eyes not once leaving his. He haven't moved one inch, face still rid of emotions.
" Aishiteru, Yuuto. Gomenasai for not keeping our promise."
One. Two. Tears came pouring down hard from the once emotionless eyes. Kido's facade has been broken down completely by those words that came out from Haru's lips. He brought her close to him and clutched her tightly, burying his face into the crook of her neck. Haru hugged him back, not muttering a word.
Even brokenhearted, even collapsed,
Even it hurts so deeply,
Don't give me comfort, it is just a beautiful lie
After Kido calmed down, Haru took his face into her hands and looked into his eyes. They held so many emotions inside: regret, guilt, agony, sadness, but most of all, pained love. Gently, she cleaned the tears away and kissed him lightly on the forehead.
" Sayonara, Kido-kun."
There's nothing left to say
To say
Hey yeah
There's nothing left to say
To say
Hey yeah
There's nothing left to...
Yadda! Finally done!
Gomen for the lateness of my song fic, I couldn't find the inspiration.
Please review and tell me what did you think~!
There is another song fic coming up and to end it there will be also a sequel.
I don't know if they can be up before the limit date but I will try my best.
Gomen, Flora-san, Eric-san *bow*