Inspired by 'Mister Anderson' by an-alternate-world.
I wanted to see Blaine and Sebastian in New York, and I wanted Kurt to know how badly he screwed up.
Don't get me wrong, I am a Klainer to the core, they are my OTP, but Seblaine is my 'Guilty Pleasure' for want of a better description.
The usual disclaimers go here, I own nothing, everything belongs to RIB and Fox.
Blaine is nervous.
He's been dreading this for weeks, but also really looking forward to it.
He's heading back to New York, heading back to NYADA.
He'd spoken to June, told her about his broken engagement, his downward spiral, how Kurt had made no effort to contact him in the last six months, and finally, he'd apologised for not listening to her. She'd offered to see if she could get him back into NYADA, but he'd declined, he wanted to do it on his own. So he went to New York and met with Madam Tibedeaux, explained the situation, provided letters from his therapist and letters of recommendation from Dalton, she explained to him that she had actually only deferred his enrolment and that he could start where he left off at the beginning of the next semester, just three weeks away. It was perfect timing really.
After the break up and his subsequent return to Ohio, Blaine didn't go out, he made no effort to see any of his friends there and he'd avoided anyone who knew Kurt like the plague. He avoided The Lima Bean and found a new coffee hangout in Westerville. It was where he met him.
Sebastian surprised him, he was different. He wasn't the same over the top guy he once was. There were no sexual advances, no leering looks or comments. He told Blaine that he was home after a gap year studying abroad and was filling in time before heading to NYU. Blaine was reluctant at first to spend time with Sebastian, ironically, he still felt as if he was being disloyal to Kurt, but Sebastian helped him feel better about himself, helped him be more like the old Blaine, the Blaine before Kurt, still the dapper gentleman he had always been, but a little more standoffish, a little less forthcoming in his feelings; it took a long time and many coffee dates, but Blaine finally felt comfortable enough to ask Sebastian out on a real date.
Blaine picked Seb up in his Prius. They went to the movies and then to a late dinner. Blaine hoped Sebastian wouldn't try anything, he wasn't ready for that, but when he reached for his hand as they walked from the movie theatre, it felt right. When he dropped Seb off at home, he initiated the goodnight kiss. It was chaste and sweet and everything he thought a first date kiss should be.
They moved slowly in their relationship, neither wanting to ruin it by moving too fast. Sebastian had never had a boyfriend and Blaine's scars ran deep. Kurt had broken him when he called off the engagement, but not having heard from him at all, all but destroyed him, not a single word, not even when he was cut from NYADA.
So now, they're here, Blaine in the NYADA dorms (he really doesn't like to live alone) and Sebastian at the NYU dorms. Blaine is starting his sophomore year, because Madam Tibedeaux likes him and she gave him course credit for running the Warblers. He dreads running into Kurt, but Kurt's a junior now and they rarely mix the junior and sophomore classes.
He's breathing heavily as he leaves his advanced ballet class. He taps out a text on his phone to Sebastian "you'll never guess who the TA is in my ballet class", Sebastian's reply comes swiftly "You're fucking kidding me. I'm almost there. I'll meet you outside the coffee shop across the road".
He's halfway across the street when he hears it. "Blaine". He ignores it, knowing its Kurt, he pushes through the mass of students, catching his boyfriend's eye, reaching him, and just as he throws himself into Seb's strong arms, the voice comes again, much closer this time. He dreads it, but he turns and looks Kurt in the eyes.
"Blaine, I'm so glad to see you back at school. What are you doing here with Sebastian?"
"We're dating. We've been dating for months. Sebastian is at NYU".
"Blaine? What the hell? You're with Sebastian? How could you do this to me"?
"Kurt, you broke off our engagement, you broke my heart, after senior year, I couldn't deal with that, it hurt too much. I had to move on, just like you did with Adam".
"But Blaine, Adam was my rebound, you always had my heart. Adam didn't torment me, didn't insult me, didn't try to assault me, he did".
"He's changed Kurt".
"I don't want to hear this Blaine, I can't hear this, and it makes me want to puke. I may have broken the engagement, but you're the one who ran away, I still love you, I just thought we were too young to be engaged, I still wanted to be your boyfriend".
"Well Kurt, it's a little too late for that don't you think? Maybe you should've thought about this and been a little more clear before destroying all my self confidence, you knew how I felt, how low my self esteem was and then you did that, I felt so worthless and useless, like my worst nightmare had come true, because I felt like you did wake up one morning and realise that you didn't want me anymore, and for your information, I didn't run away either, I got asked to leave NYADA because I was failing Kurt, failing because you broke me. June told me when we were preparing for the showcase to break off engagement, now I wish I'd listened to her".
Kurt had believed that Blaine had taken a leave of absence from school, not that he had flunked out. Now he understood why Madam Tibedeaux was evasive when he asked if Blaine planned to return next semester.
"Oh Blaine, I'm so sorry, I thought you'd just deferred for the term".
"No Kurt, I was flunking out, I was depressed, I was living on my own, and I had no-one. We were friends before and you made no effort to even see how I was. If you still loved me as you claim, why did you just cut me off? You ignored me whilst we were at school, you completely isolated me, and even when I rang you to tell you I was going back to Ohio, you wouldn't even take my call, you sent it to voicemail, and don't try denying you didn't get the call, I was looking at you when I rang you, I saw you reject the call Kurt "
Sebastian remains just a steady force at Blaine's side, he makes no move to speak, he just stands there with Blaine's hand in his. He can see Kurt's pain, his feeling of betrayal is visceral, but Hummel, needs to hear this, he needs to realise he did this to himself; he's the one who didn't value Blaine. He's the one who destroyed their relationship. He's the one who abandoned him. He's the one who loses.
"Kurt, we're heading out to dinner, so I'll see you next ballet class. I really can't see you outside of school, not yet, it's too soon and too painful. Sebastian knows and understands that I still love you, but Kurt, I love him too. He just holds the bigger part of my heart now, he help to heal it".
Kurt just nods sadly at the dismissal. "I understand. I'm sorry for everything. To hear you say that just breaks my heart, I'm sorry I made you so miserable, I'm sorry that I forced you into someone else's arms. I think you're right, I can't see you either. I'll ask for a TA position in another class. It'll be less awkward that way. Maybe we can be friends again one day". Kurt turns and leaves before Blaine can see the tears spilling from his eyes.
As Kurt crosses the street, Sebastian turns to Blaine and asks "So you love me huh?"
"Yeh", Blaine replies, "I really do".