I do not own shugo chara!

I layed there in my own blood. I was starting to feel the chill of death. I knew it wouldn't be long before I left this world. Strangely my only one regret would be not telling him how much he meant to me. I doubted he would have felt the same. However I wish I could have told him. My mind started to go blank as I fought with keeping my eyes open. But in the end I gave in.

When I came to I was in a grave yard. Wait how the hell... did I get here? Was it all a dream? When I turned I jumped in surprise. My hopes of it being a dream fell. I was staring at my own grave. I thought after you died it was supposed to be peaceful. However this was not peaceful at all. That's when the date on the grave caught my eyes. (2013) That means... Its been two years since Ive died. I wondered what had changed since then. I wondered most of all how he was doing. Did he get a girlfriend? Does he remember who I was? Does he regret...I shook my head the questions running through my mind were bringing tears to my eyes. I felt my eyes sting as a few tears escaped. Look at that I guess a heart can break even after its stopped beating. Tears fell mercilessly from my eyes. It was a week before my 16Th birthday. The age that would mean I was no longer a child but not yet a women. But now... now I'm just a ghost. A ghost of a girl who never made it to the age of 16. A girl that never had a chance to tell the person she loved that he meant her world. A girl who never even got to experience her first kiss. I had been saving it for him. Ever since I had saw him in middle school, I had wanted to be with him more than anything. Yet I never got the chance, and I never will.

So what was I to do now? Walk the earth to be reminded of all I had missed out on? Too be invisible and forgotten? Was this punishment for something I did wrong? I wiped at my tears furiously trying to will them to stop. But no matter how hard I tried they wouldn't cease to end. Giving up I left the depressing grave yard that only would remind me of how doomed I was. I didn't even realize that I had ended up in front of my old school. That is until I heard a bell ring, and bothered to look where it is I had ended up at. This was just another reminder of what I had missed out on. I had been in my first year of high school. Curious to see If all my friends still went here I walked in. Of course no one could see me so it's not like it mattered at all. I had gone around and found that almost everyone had stayed friends. Some even became more than friends I smiled at the ones I knew would end up together. I was shocked however when I found out Nagi and Rima were now a couple. Now those are two I would have never guessed would end up together. They used to fight, well Rima would fight with Nagi all the time. Utau and Kukai I always knew that would happen one day. In fact I was the one who introduced them. They were so a like I knew it would happen. I smiled at the memory of the first time I introduced them it had somehow turned into a ramen eating contest. However when I saw Utau my heart hurt. It was yet another reminder of the one I loved. I hadn't seen him yet, but I knew he went to this school still. I had overheard his fan girls saying how cute he was. This had made me very jealous and made my heart clench.

I had left the school, and went to the park hoping to find him in his favorite spot. Upon entering the park I heard a sound that I could not mistake or forget even in a million years. I went straight toward the sound of a violin. Only to find Ikuto the person I had been desperately seeking. Only he wasn't alone, there standing in front of him as he played was a girl. I was hoping she was a relative, but by the way my heart hurt I already knew. Even before she leaned in and kissed his lips, the lips I had always dreamed about kissing. For some reason no matter how much it hurt and I wanted to runaway, I found I couldn't move. So I stood there stuck, watching, crying, hurting. But to them I was invisible, to the world I was forgotten. But more importantly, I was no longer just the ghost of a dead girl. I was now completely shattered. The way he stared at her, was the way I stared at him. The way he held her close, was the way I had wish he would have held me. The way there hands fit together was perfect. She was beautiful something I was not. But more importantly she had him. Ikuto the boy I had loved since middle school. The boy that would tease me yet be sweet two seconds after. The boy who had stolen my heart to the point where even in death he still owned it. And what did I have painful memories and useless tears. I wonder if he even remembers me, or felt anything for me at all. Seeing him pull her closer and kiss her passionately. Tells me my answer, no he probably never had feeling for me other than a friend. The pain is too much to bare, my eyes are spilling tears. Yet I still am stuck, Is this hell? If not, then I would take that over having to see this and feel this way. Why couldn't I have remained gone? Had I not suffered enough? When the girl had left saying she had to leave but shed call him later, I was finally able to move. I walked up to him and stood right in front of him. "Did everything mean nothing to you? I stood by you when others left! I gave you a place to stay when you needed it! I ... I loved..you." I whispered the last part. Not like he cared or could hear me anyways. Slowly I turned and walked away. Wandering the streets, invisible, and hurt. Ikuto... I loved you so much I stayed by you when others told me it would destroy me in the end. Now I know exactly how true those words were. Even in death I was still being destroyed by him. And just as in life I still felt the need to stay by his side.

My name is Hinamori, Amu. I am 15 years old, I died a week before my 16 birthday. Two years have passed since then. I had woken in front of my grave. Only to find that the one person I had loved was now happily with another. Even as a ghost my heart continues to break. Sad thing is I still can't stay away from him. No matter how much it hurts me. My name is Hinamori, Amu and ... I'm invisible to the world and forgotten...