Hello everybody! Thundercatlost here with yet another Lapidot story! It's going to be dark and depressing (like normal, if you've read any of my other stories).

Just to give yet ANOTHER warning, this story does contain heavy alcohol usage.

I really don't know why I wrote this but if you enjoy it, I might continue it.

I struggle to write Lapis' character, nevermind focusing around her thoughts and feeling, so please forgive me if she is OOC.

This is also my first time writing a story involving alcohol. I've also never drunk alcohol before so, again, forgive me if anything is OOC or if any of the side effects are strange. Just pretend that it's because they're Gems.

I love to read reviews so if you have any spare time, it would make my day if you wrote one. Follows and favourites are also appreciated. :D

Sidenote: For those of you who read my other stories, the second chapter of 'Similarities' will be out soon and the twenty-second chapter of 'Just Us' will be out after that.

Enough talking; let's head into the story!

Enjoy! :)

Lapis grabbed her jacket and her empty glass that had previously been filled to the brim with red wine. She stared at the jacket for a moment.

Steven had given that to her. It was plain dark blue, matching the colour of her outfit. It was very plain but inside the pocket was a tint star about the size of a small paperclip. He had known that she didn't like to be known as a Crystal Gem.

Then she turned to the empty glass of wine. Being a Gem, alcohol didn't appear to affect her. She had drunk at least four bottles from it while Peridot had been out a mission, trying to erase Jasper from her mind.

Lapis couldn't stop thinking of Malachite. How Jasper had hurt her and how she hurt her back. How she had hated being with the strong, orange Gem...and how she loved to hurt her. She loved to watch the confident young Gem fall to her knees. She adored it when Jasper would beg for Lapis to set her free. Being drunk wasn't ever going to change the past but at least it-

"LAPIS! I'M BACK!"

Lapis looked up. Peridot, her light in the darkness, was home. The tall, royal-blue Gem forced a smile upon her face as she hid the glass underneath the sofa.

"Hey, Peri! How did the mission go?" Lapis asked, walking over to her friend.

"Pretty well. Anyway, I hope you don't mind but the Gems are coming over in the next five minutes,"

"The Gems?" Lapis bit her tongue. She was surprised that she was even able to keep herself calm after drinking so much. "That's... wonderful."

"Yeah, umm..." Peridot twiddled her thumbs. "...Lapis...there's something I want to ask..."

Lapis gulped quietly. Did Peridot know about her drinking?

"A-Ask away," Lapis managed to keep smiling.

"...Umm...well...I've been thinking..." Peridot reached out and held Lapis' hand, which almost made the blue Gem gasp. "...It's umm..I think... I would be happy...I mean...Steven would...what I'm trying to say is..." The small green Gem gave a deep breath before she spoke. "Lapis, will you fuse with me?"

"WHAT?!" Lapis almost fainted on the spot.

Peridot wanted to fuse with her to impress Steven. Lapis didn't want to fuse with ANYBODY but...if it would make Steven and Peridot happy...

"Y-You don't have to! I just..." The green Gem backed away slightly. "I should leave. You d-"

"I'll do it."

"Really?!" Peridot's eyes lit up.

"Of course!" Lapis forced another smile.

"I-I'll go get the music..." Peridot ran off.

Lapis grabbed the glass from underneath the sofa and grabbed another full bottle of wine from behind the cabinet and drunk yet another bottle full from the wine glass.

It was at that moment that the alcohol finally took it's toll.