I am sorry this is such a long chapter, it was 6 pages of writing besides a couple sentences on the 7th page. It was too hard to split up these events, as I have too many ideas for different chapters, and I love reading fanfiction and I believe if you're reading my story, then like me you'd like longer chapters that seem more like an actual book than just really short chapters. As I have said, please review, reviews help me to see who loves the story already, hear ideas on what I possibly can incorporate in to the story and even criticism just don't be rude about it. Please review so I know people are reading it, chapter two will hopefully be posted up by tomorrow or sometime in the next few days as I really don't try to keep my readers waiting too long. Thanks again and enjoy my Jax romance :)

Chapter One

Welcome to Charming, Trisha passed the sign an instantly broke out in a smile. It's good to be back home again, she thought as she was driving through town. It had been 4 years since Trisha picked up and left her home town and her family in it behind. Before she left, she had just graduated Charming High School with a 4.0 GPA, was captain of her varsity cheerleading squad and her soccer team and was freshly 18 years old when she picked up and moved to attend college in the state of Virginia. She was what everyone in town considered a smart and well-rounded girl, but she was what they also considered dangerous. Trisha wasn't just a normal girl, she was born in to SAMCRO the local MC. Her uncle, Otto Delaney was the VP of the Sons of Anarchy mother charter in Charming, he had sought full custody and adopted her when she was 2 months old, knowing his baby sister was too involved in to drugs and could care less about taking care of her newborn baby girl. Otto raised Trisha as if she was his own daughter and was extremely proud of who he considered his little girl when she had graduated at the top of her class. She had grown up as the SAMCRO princess, the only girl to be born in to SAMCRO from one of the First 9 members, even though she wasn't born directly from Otto, she may as well have been. As Trisha realized she was pulling up near the Teller-Morrow lot she quickly remembered though of how graduation day may have been one of the happiest times of her life, it was also the one that would change her life and the reason she pushed herself out of Charming. Her life had changed that night, that night she had witnessed her prince push her out of his life, for the other girl. Just as she pulled in to TM, she saw that the lot was very crowded and remembered it was going on Friday night which, as she remembered quickly, was normally party night.

As she pulled in to a parking space everyone started eyeing her car suspiciously. As she looked in her mirrors she could see some of the Sons from different charters stand there with their hands on their guns ready to pull them out in case she was someone not welcomed to the party. As she stepped out of the car she quickly saw there expression turn from worry to in complete awe, and couldn't help but smirk. "Yep, this time is definitely going to be a game changer", Trisha quietly said to herself. She knew that she looked hot, and in all reality the SAMCRO princess had always been able to catch any guys eye, but today she made sure she choose an outfit that would make a statement, that would show she is no longer a teenager but a woman now and a woman with even more curves that would drive a man wild. She had chosen a sexy red top that tied around the neck and clung to her double d breasts and exposed just enough cleavage, her midsection completely exposed with just a few, thin strings of the red material hugging her midsection tied to the middle of her back and showed off her tight and toned belly with her diamond belly ring hanging down. She paired it with her skin tight black jeans and black heeled wedges, she left her long brown hair with blonde highlights cascade down her shoulders and wore a pair of black studded sunglasses. As she went to go get her bag out of her car, she noticed the men coming up to her and she slowly smirked at them as they were quickly approaching her car, "I wouldn't go any farther if I was you" she said out loud enough for everybody outside to hear her. The men kept approaching her, "Why little lady, you don't look like you would hurt us, but…." And before they could even finish that sentence they had jumped back and stopped dead in their tracks, Trisha broke out in to a full smile as she watched her big pit bull jump out from the back seat in front of Trisha and start barking and growling at the men. "I told you that you shouldn't come any farther" Trisha chuckled as she grabbed ahold of her dog and pulled out his leash to attach him to it. "This is my dog Blaze, and I am here to see my father Otto Delaney". As soon as the words came out of her mouth, she watched as the men before her started tripping over their own feet to run back in to the clubhouse. "Some things never change" she said to the last member standing there, in a stare down with her dog.

From inside the chapel, the Redwood Charter could hear the commotion going on outside and got up to investigate. Just as Big Otto, Clay, Jax, Tig, Bobby, Chibs, Opie and Juice started filing out of the church to go outside and see what all the commotion was, 2 of their members from the Nevada charter came running in nearly knocking over some of the croweaters on the way in. "In a rush there boys, what's going on outside" asked Clay while he lit his cigar. Just then the boys turned to Otto which in turned caused everyone to look at Otto, "There's a woman out here, says she is your daughter and is here to see you Otto", before Otto even acknowledge them, him and the rest of the charter started heading for the door. As they all got outside, the crowd had backed away letting Otto and his club get a good luck at the figure standing before them. "It can't be my little girl can it"? Otto asked out loud, in complete shock of how much Trisha had changed in 4 years. Just then she pulled her sunglasses on the top of her head and revealed those bright blue eyes that simply could never be mistaken, "Surprise Daddy, I'm home" Trisha smiled her wide smile, as she handed the leash to the prospect that had followed her over, patted her dog's head and ran to her father's open arms. "Welcome home baby girl, damn I thought I would never see you again", Otto said while he was trying to keep his composure and to not start breaking down and crying in front of everyone. As he let her go, Clay scooped her up next "I missed you Uncle Clay" as she planted a kiss on his cheek she turned towards Bobby who had already had tears forming in his eyes, "Don't cry Uncle Elvis, you know I missed you and your home cooking the most" she whispered to him. While everyone was hugging and welcoming the SAMCRO princess home, Jax had took a step back from the crowd to watch Trisha as they all started filing back in to the clubhouse. Holy shit, she has certainly matured and looking hot as fuck, Jax thought to himself just as he caught the gaze of those bright blue eyes he use to love so much staring at him before she disappeared in the clubhouse. Just as he went to walk in behind everyone else he felt an arm tug him back, as he swung around he saw it was Big Otto. "Not the same teenage girl anymore, is she Jax", "No she certainly isn't". Otto had chuckled while Jax gave him a confused look. "She been back for 5 minutes and I already see the look in your eyes, you still are in love with her, and no matter what she says I still know she's in love with you Jax, I saw the look you too exchanged but I also saw the hurt from the past in her eyes, whatever your blonde ass mind is thinking we're going to make it clear right now, I love you brother but I love my daughter too, if she ends up staying here I don't want to lose her again, you both are adults and if you both choose to pick up where you all left out and fix what you all had, you promise me brother that if there is another time around, you make sure you're ready for the real thing again, and you make sure you never hurt her like that again".

Jax was staring at Big Otto the entire time, she still loves me, Jax instantly questioned in his mind, and how does he know that, or is there something he knows that I don't. Jax quickly came back to reality and looked at Big Otto again, "I never wanted to or even meant to hurt her, I was young and stupid but all I can say is I promise you, and if it does happen I will promise her the moon and stars. Otto slapped Jax's back and started to walk inside. "Otto, one more thing", Jax said out loud and he turned around to look at Jax, "I don't know how you do it, but you are right I have always loved her and still do". Otto smiled and gestured for Jax to come in with him. "Then you have to go make it right with her, remind her of all the reasons why she loved you then, take her out as if it was your first date again, but no one can fix this but you" Otto whispered to Jax as they entered the clubhouse together. "I know brother, and I know exactly what I have to do" Jax said as they headed straight for the bar where Trisha was already sitting with Piney, Bobby, Chibs, Tig, Opie and Clay about to down a welcome home shot.

Trish looked straight at Jax while Jax was looking straight at her. As she stood up, Otto came up and hugged her before he sat down at the bar and had a shot poured for him and Jax too. Trisha walked right up to Jax as they started smiling at each other. Damn I really missed him, Trisha thought to herself, she knew she had to be careful because Jax was always the one man that could just sweep her off her feet without even being aware of what he was doing. This time was different though, she couldn't let Jax just do that, he broke her heart once and she wasn't going to be able to handle it a second time, if they eventually had a chance he was going to have to work and prove to her it was real this time. That thought instantly faded away as Jax pulled her in to him for a hug that already had her weak at the knees. She held on to his back and breathed him in. "I've missed you Jackson Teller".

Jax went to his own little world when he started hugging Trisha. He was breathing her in, smelling her French vanilla perfume like she use to wear. He had wrapped one hand around her waist and the other across her shoulders. Hearing her tell him that she's missed him, brought the warmest feel in the pit of his stomach. "I've missed you too darlin". She leaned back and gave him a sweet smile, then walked out of his arms back to the bar. He wasn't ready to let her out of his arms but he had to remind himself, she just got back home and that things weren't the same anymore that he had hurt her and would have a lot to do to make up for that hurt. He watched as she sashayed her ass back to the bar, and couldn't help but bite his lower lip at the ass calling his name. Fuck, I have missed out in 4 years. She may have just came back, but he was going to spend every second of his free time to try and win her back. He walked over to the bar and grabbed his shot, and gulped his down.

Trisha was on the dance floor dancing with Juice, while Jax and Opie were sitting down on the couch not far away. Anybody who had half a brain knew that no matter what the situation may be, and that even though Trish just returned home only a few hours ago that Trisha was off limits to anyone but Jax. Judging by the way he was staring Juice down, Opie was willing to bet his left nut that Jax was scheming in his head how he would go about killing Juice tonight. Opie chuckled to himself as he watched Juice look up at Jax and his smile faded when he saw the look he was getting and quickly looked at Trish and whispered something then head off. "You too haven't dated in 4 years and you're still scaring away all the guy's she comes around" Opie laughed out loud while Jax smirked at him. "Bro you should know this better than anyone, that right there", as he gestured towards Trisha who was walking over to them, "that will always be mine, just a matter of when will she allow it to be official again". "Sometimes I think you have too much confidence in yourself, I believe you bro but Trisha never been just an ordinary girl, she's smart just as she is dangerous, I say you have your word cut out for you if you want to win her back, take a look for yourself" Opie laughed and pointed towards the scene unfolding before them. Jax shifted in his seat and stood up. Trisha had done took at least 6 shots with Piney and judging by the look Bobby was shooting Jax and watching Trisha damn near rub up on a croweater and one of the other charter members at the same time, it was safe to say that Trisha was wasted, and it was time to get her home. Jax, with his all too familiar serious face on, started walking right over to Trisha with Opie hot on his heels and Bobby breaking through the crowd in case a fight broke out. Chibs and Tig noticed Bobby moving quickly through the crowd, and started to move quickly to as they saw just what Bobby was going towards.

Just as Jax started to approach, the croweater standing by Trisha quickly let go and ran up to Jax. Before Jax even had time to respond, the five foot two, red haired croweater through herself in to Jax's arms and started kissing him intensely while groping him. Before him or even Opie could react, all he felt was the girl get yanked away from him and saw the reason why as she started screaming. Trisha was so drunk that seeing the girl throw herself on Jax had made her insides turn upside down. She quickly had yanked the girl by her hair and threw her down on the crowd throwing punch after punch. She got a few good shots in before she felt familiar arms wrap around her waist and hoist her up in the air and watched as the girl was crying and she was being drug outside. "Put me down, Jax Teller!" He did as she commanded and was met with a slap in the face. As he looked up he truly saw the hurt and pain reflected in her eyes. Her blue eyes were on the verge of bursting out in tears and for the first time since she had arrived at home Jax saw the old Trisha. The one that loved him more than anybody had, the one that spent many different nights when they were in high school sneaking out to meet him, the girl he would lay down and make love to every chance they got, the girl he thought he was going to spend his life with. At the same time he saw the girl that had walked out on him and charming, he saw the girl that hid a lot of pain deep down, he saw the girl who was standing here looking at him lost. Before Jax could even take her in his arms, Jax saw out of the corner of his eye his mom Gemma walk up and before Trish even realized that not only Gemma had walked up but the entire Redwood Charter was coming outside, she started wailing on him, throwing punch after punch in to his chest.

Jax knew he deserved it, he knew it had been 4 years in the making and that if he wanted for them to move past what happened then he needed to let her get out her frustration and if hitting him was what was going to help her move on then he was going to let her do it. He watched, trying to stand strong, as the girl he still loved had kept throwing punches until her arms were getting weak. He braced himself as the punches had slowed up until she burst in to tears and started to collapse and he fell to the ground with her, tears starting to pool in his eyes while she clung to him tight and sobbed into his chest. Jax looked over at his mom, who had her hand over her heart and mouth and then glanced at Otto who looked devasted to see his little girl this upset when she just got home, but just nodded his head at Jax, grabbed Gemma and pulled everyone back inside but not before placing the house keys down on the table and whispered to Jax, take her home. Jax nodded and watched everyone walk away before he saw his mom turn back and place her car key's next to Otto's. "Use my car, drop it back off tomorrow son and bring her with you". With a quick nod, it was just Jax and Trisha left outside. He had picked her up and carried her to the car.

When they reached Otto's house, Jax went and quickly unlocked the door and then went back and helped Trish out of the car. He helped her up the steps to her old room, which hadn't changed since she had left. He helped her sit down on the bed and went to grab some water and Tylenol for her. When he returned he placed the Tylenol in her hand and, without a word, she swallowed the pills and water and then turned her bright blue eyes on Jax who was staring at the bulletin board of pictures on her wall. "I figured you would have burned all of those" Jax said as he gestured to the pictures on the board, one from them attending prom together, and another on his bike, one of her, him, Opie and Donna at lunch time junior year and a bunch of others with her favorite one sitting in the middle, it was one from their first date at 15, he was holding her waist with one hand and her face with the other and her hands wrapped around his waist and they were looking in each-other's eyes and smiling back at one another. "No, I couldn't, there was too many good memories with all those pictures and I wanted to be able to look back and remember it all". Jax looked at Trisha with the deepest remorse in his eyes. Opie was right, my word is cut out for me if I want her back, too much hurt she has to overcome.

"I'm going to go ahead and go to the guest room and take a shower if you need anything just yell for me Trisha" Jax said as he started to walk out of the door. He couldn't stand in there any longer, he felt guilty for the pain he had caused her and he couldn't bear to keep looking her in her eye and seeing the girl he still loved go through this pain knowing it was his fault. Before he got out the door he heard his name called. "Jax" Trisha said softly as she stood up and he turned to face her. "This is probably a strange and awkward favor to ask of you now but could you help me get out of these clothes, I think I've had too much to drink to actually maneuver my way out of this outfit" with the most soft and prettiest smile she could muster to Jax. He looked at her and sighed, why does she have to do this me, she should remember what me seeing her naked does. She knew exactly what she was doing, and despite her being hurt still and upset with Jax she wanted to remember what it was like for him to make love to her like he had use to. "It will never be strange or awkward darlin, I've already seen you naked on more than one occasion" Jax chuckled and forced a small laugh out of the beautiful girl in front of him.

Jax had walked up to her, and gently pushed her to sit back on the bed. He kneeled down in front of her and reached his hands around to untie the strings from her back, their faces pressed cheek to cheek and then he stood up and slowly grabbed the thin strings and started pulling her shirt above her head, letting his fingers graze her skin before the top was coming off and her breasts had came out of the shirt and were just sitting there. It was taking everything in Jax's power to not start mauling her right there but he wanted her to make the first move. To see if it was what she wanted him to do before he made the wrong mistake and pushed her out of his life forever. He knelt back down and put his hands on her thighs and gently rubbed them with his thumb before he grabbed the buttons of her jeans and started unbuttoning them. He looked back up at her as he started to slide them down her legs and noticed she was biting her lip. Once he got them off, he stood up and looked down at her. God she is beautiful and her body is calling my name. "There you go, anything else I can do for you", Jax asked her, a fire burning deep inside of him that wanted to just throw her down on the bed and feel himself inside of her again. It was the one thing he wanted ever since she left 4 years ago. Tara had caught his attention in a moment of weakness and because of that weakness he lost the one true woman he cared about. He may have loved Tara until Tara decided to leave, but he never was in love with her and he never had loved her as much as he had Trisha.

It was almost as Trisha was reading his mind because she stood up, her naked body staring at Jax and he just couldn't turn away from her. He knew he should have, because he wanted her to really want him and more than just sex, he wanted her to want him back but after years of not being able to touch her he couldn't resist. She walked over to him and gently stroked his cheek, and ran her other hand through his hair. "I meant it when I said I missed you Jax" she said ever so softly, he looked deep into her eyes, watching them light up with the faint light in the room. She closed the gap between them, forcing her naked body against him. Before he even had a chance to respond to her words, she leaned up and lightly started kissing him. He put his hands on her face and started to kiss her back with more intensity, forcing her lips to open with his tongue, he danced around her mouth, fighting the urge to drop all of his clothes and force himself in her right there. When they finally went to catch a breath, his hands dropped to her waist and held her close to him. "I missed you to Trish, more than you probably are thinking right now" as he pushed a strand of her hair out of her face, he grabbed her face and started kissing her again. She pulled back from him and held his face in her hands, "I want you to make love to me again Jax Teller, and I want to remember what it was like to have you inside of me.

With those words, he couldn't force himself away from her again. He picked her up and gently walked her back to the bed and laid her down flat while passionately kissing her on top. He trailed kisses down between her breasts, all the way down her stomach stopping just before he got to the area he knew she so desperately wanted him to be at. "Oh god, Jax" she had moaned out causing him to go from semi-hard to fully erect now. He had loved hearing her moan his name when they fucked, and hearing it again after so long was enough to almost make him lose it. "What you want me to do baby", he had asked her as he was pressing kisses all around her area in a teasing way. "I want you to fuck me Jax", and without another word, he buried his face right between her legs. "Oh fuck, ohhh my god" she moaned even louder as she lifted her head and watched Jax between her legs. He started licking her spot, making her arch her back while he took his fingers and found his way inside of her and pushed his fingers at deep as he could go which caused her to grab his head and push his face even farther. "Fuck me now Jax", "Fuck", Jax said as he got up from between her legs and quickly took off his cut and shirt while Trisha had sat up and started unbuttoning his pants and pulling them off as he took his legs out of them, and watched as he dropped his boxers. She took his entire length in her hand and engulfed it with her mouth. "Shit baby", Jax said through clenched teeth. He stared down at her and saw she was staring him directly in his eyes as she was sucking him with a force. Just as he felt he was about to explode in her mouth, she quickly had stopped and jumped on the bed, opening her legs up to him and without a hesitation, he climbed up between her and pushed himself inside of her. His eyes nearly rolled back in his head, shit she is so tight he thought to himself as he was slowly thrusting in her. "Faster Jax baby faster", and her words being his command he started thrusting in her fast and hard. He grabbed her hips and started slamming himself in to her "My god baby, I've missed your pussy", he said barely as he was losing breath and losing control. He knew she was about to hit her point as she was basically screaming now, the one thing he had loved about her when they were doing it, she wasn't exactly quiet. With one last huge thrust he felt her convulse under him, riding the wave of her orgasm with her, her convulsions on his junk were enough to make Jax hit the same point as he collapsed on her.

10 minutes later, Trish was walking out of the bathroom with nothing but one his old t-shirts and a pair of her short gym shorts on. She looked up to see Jax laying there smoking a cig, his eyes never leaving her. He broke out in a smile, as he put the cigarette out "That's always been a good look on you, wearing my clothes". She chuckled, "yea I bet". She crossed the room and slowly climbed into her bed and laid beside Jax. He looked over at her and pulled her closer planting a kiss on her forehead, "you feeling ok from all the alcohol you consumed tonight"? "Yea I'm fine, just a little tired". He stroked her back and she looked up at him, he meant her eyes and saw that she had a million questions for him, so before she could ask he leaned down and gently kissed her, "Trisha I know it's been a long time, and I don't expect you to believe this, but I still love you, I never stopped, and I know I hurt you too but I want a chance to fix it, I want all of this back, and I'm hoping by what just happened that it's a sign that maybe there is a chance I can". Trish sat up now, she couldn't believe what she had just heard, she didn't expect to have sex with him tonight but it happened, but she surely didn't expect him to say this. The look he seen in her eyes caused him to almost get sick to her stomach, he seen the look before, it was the same look she had given him when she told him it was officially over and that she was leaving Charming. "Jax, I loved you, I think a part of me will always love you, this that just happened, it wasn't supposed to but I wanted it too but I can't promise you that there is a chance you can fix it because I don't know, we will just have to wait and see". Her words tore through him like a knife, and with that he nodded and started to get up and get dressed when she grabbed his arm. "This isn't saying never Jax, like I said a part of me will always love you but you tore me apart, you chose her over me, and that is hard to forget. You are going to have to prove to me what you say is true", then she kissed him, she kissed him the same way she use to kiss him, tender and loving, the kiss he missed the most. "I don't want you to leave just yet though, I've missed you and I don't care what anyone thinks come tomorrow I want you to sleep with me tonight, because there still is a small part of me that aches for you and that part does want to see this work". Jax looked at the woman before him, she was so beautiful, so smart and Jax felt the love he had always had for him run through his body. A small chance was better than her saying there was no chance and with that being said he laid back down and took her in his arms and held her closer than he think he ever has. As he watched her drift off to sleep, he sat back and was coming up with all these ideas to show her how much he wanted her back and how serious he was about her. Jax smiled down at her peacefully sleeping and couldn't wait until tomorrow arrived, he knew what he was going to do and what he would have to do and with that, he closed his eyes and drifted off in to a peaceful sleep with the girl he was still in love with finally back in his arms.

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